I have been idle at home for more than half a year, and I am not sure whether to accurately describe the whole mental journey in the past six months with positive or negative words. During the period, I experienced too much, both gains and losses: regular follow-up, repeated symptoms, my own struggle and efforts. ...
Looking back on all my experiences step by step, I feel that I have become an old hand in the face of anxiety and depression, especially occasional and unexpected panic attacks. My attitude towards it has gradually changed from my fear at the end of last year (when I was still serious, I was naive enough to leave a suicide note) to my calmness and calmness now, which can be easily resolved and can be said to have made great progress.
Of course, for me now, in addition to continuing to take medicine until next spring (this is the advice given by the doctor of psychological counseling department of Zhongshan Hospital), I have to take the last step, that is, gradually return to society, integrate into this small county town under Zhenjiang, find a relatively stable job, earn money to support my family, and then consider setting up my own small family. In that case, it will be the rest of my life. ...
Because the savings accumulated by Cary are almost used up before, every time I go to Shanghai (the latest time is once every two months), the fare and medical expenses will cost more than 1000 yuan, and my living expenses will cost more than 500 yuan (this does not include the water and electricity meals that my family helped pay). My living expenses are very high now (plus it is difficult to find a job in a small county because of the epidemic, so I have gone out to try). If you see this, if possible, can you please help me spread this official WeChat account and see if I can earn money to supplement my living expenses in the future? Of course, my goal is not only to get a source of income, but also to help more people who are anxious and depressed or in this state (there is a common name called "patient friend", but in order to reduce the mention of the word "patient friend".
Of course, during this period, my family is also actively helping to find a suitable job, but there is an embarrassing situation in a small place, that is, there are few job opportunities and low wages. In the future, I may have to do some other sideline work to supplement it.
In general,
The current state is: actively taking medicine, returning to the clinic on time, preparing to return to society, and establishing a brand-new work and social circle.
The current problem is: no source of income! No source of income! No source of income!
I just made a small career plan a few days ago. In addition to finding a suitable physical job, I also need to share my personal disease-resistant experience on various public platforms and social platforms. After all, this half year has not been wasted. I tried many methods and read many self-help books on psychology and psychological adjustment. More importantly, I have personally practiced many methods I have learned in the past six months, and gradually feel that some methods are really useful. After practice, I feel really much better. The theoretical content of many books can really poke many of my previous thinking and behavior patterns, so I think it is worth sharing to help others who have the same experience and current situation with me get out of the haze and harvest the sunshine and the future together.
After a period of time, on various public platforms, whether it's graphic information platform, audio content platform or video content platform such as station A, I want to start uploading gradually or sharing slowly, including but not limited to the following:
1. The whole process from the first panic attack in February 2020 to the anxiety and depression at the end of February 20021;
2. The experience of reading self-healing and adjusting books, the sharing of practical contents of books, and the adjustment skills that I found useful and worth trying in practical operation;
3. Share other content that comes to mind during the process, or content that everyone is interested in.
Based on the above three points, I think you can get a glimpse of my little ambition:
1. Bring yourself a certain income, which may be the only income at present, so as to seek survival capital.
2. Use your own experience to help more people in the same situation, of course, more at the level of methods and mentality.
3. Clarify your past by writing and speaking (but not to dwell on the past or find a basis for being at ease with the present), face up to your present and control your future!
The benefits of concealment include, but are not limited to:
Regain logic and organization;
Reconnect with the real world;
The cultivation of peace of mind;
Cultivation of self-esteem;
Develop and consolidate disease-resistant skills;
Prognosis/recurrence prevention ability;
Coping strategies of people with similar situations around them;
……
At the end of the article, I want to list my achievements in the past six months, which are the records of previous medical visits (medical records, all inspection documents, drugs taken), books I have been reading (mostly electronic versions because of my limited financial ability), reading notes and experiences, and some small productions (building blocks puzzles) to prevent myself from thinking. Pictures may involve private information or professional medical content. In order to avoid misleading, it will not be sent here.
It will remain in the future: it is not fixed, but it has the rhythm of updating the actual content. Platforms for updating content include but are not limited to:
Graphic content platform;
Audio content platform;
Video content platform;
As I said above, I need income to ensure my survival, and only when I am alive can I have hope!
I want to cheer with you, and welcome the sunshine and bright future at the level of mentality and behavior.
Finally, if you think this number will be helpful to you or people around you, please help spread this number, and the following content will be very practical and useful.