Everyone wants to have higher honor, status, money and happiness. But how? Some people are blind, others are confused. Truth cannot be accepted, and there is no precedent around. So it will be like this for a while.
I suggest you: fill a small goal temporarily and feel a sense of accomplishment after success, and the situation will be different. For example, collecting "sweet words" or two-part allegorical sayings. Soon you will be one step ahead in this respect. Ability is a person's real "patent". But the ability must be accumulated and exercised slowly by working practice.