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I would like to dedicate this book to those who have experienced hardships in life, but still love life and constantly pursue a better tomorrow!
This book mainly tells the tragic life experience of the heroine Xiao Meizi. Plum was born in Beijing in 1960. She lived alone since she was a child, with no brothers or sisters to live alone. Her mother was hospitalized for a long time because of mental illness, while her father was too busy taking care of his wife and work to take care of Plum, let alone care about her growth. She grew up alone, afraid of helplessness. At the age of 23, Mei Zi suddenly asked his father to open a bookstall. In selling books, she met Liu Ming, a college student, and fell in love with him. They fell in love, which should be plum's first love, but Liu Ming of Beipiao will go back to his hometown after graduation. Although he wanted to take Mei Zi away, Mei Zi's father disagreed. When Liu Ming left, Mei Zi also wavered. Does she really love Liu Ming or is she a girl's desire for love? Just at this time, Liu Ming appeared, and it may be other companies. Since she left, she has gradually forgotten. Perhaps this is the ignorance and formal meaning of first love.
Three years later, after breaking up with Liu Ming, Mei Zi suddenly asked his father to go to a health school to study nursing. During the half-year study in the health school, Mei Zi's sickly complexion became better, and she became the most radiant girl in the school. But at this time, her mother who had been in bed for many years passed away, and her father was admitted to the hospital because of tuberculosis. It seems that the plums that have just seen the sunshine are covered by dark clouds. "As long as happiness is relaxed, the depression and desolation of coming back will fill every inch of life." There are two relatives in the world as formal sustenance, and suddenly it seems that something has been taken away. The desire for a new life was hastily closed before it could be stretched. There was only one plum left in the quiet home, and the world became quiet, which made plum feel more lonely and afraid. "She felt scared, and a fear like when she was a child slowly climbed into her heart." "She spent in loneliness, living in an almost unknown environment. City life is always busy. You have no leisure to care about anyone who has nothing to do with yourself. No one will do it unless you have to. " "She wandered around the city like a lonely soul."
Loneliness, loneliness and desolation are the daily mood of plum's summer life. I don't know what sustained her for so long. Maybe where there is no man, every woman is strong. At this time, the boys in the nursing class just appeared. Fang Gang is a generous and enthusiastic mature man. They love each other. After graduation, Fang Gang couldn't let go of his love for Mei, so he decided to come to Mei Zi. But in the end, the passion of this relationship retreated and moved towards separation. Color clouds are easy to disperse and glass is brittle. It seems that a happy life cannot belong to plums for a long time.
Later, at the wedding of another student in the nursing training class, Liu Bei, the beautiful and sad plum was taken away by the best man, and the best man of that buddy began to pursue plums enthusiastically. Plum is disturbed. Under Liu Bei's warning, she decided to punish the prodigal son, but she didn't want to be flattered by his hypocritical words, because he saw through his weakness. She even forgot to take precautions, frivolous and even openly raped by her disciples. Plum finally got back at him with scissors, so that he could never do such a thing again in his life. Time will not stop its passage because of the suffering of plums. The strong plum has not been hit by fate. Although she is still alone, she still longs for a better life and a happy family.
So she went to the marriage agency to register for marriage. In view of her unfortunate past, she deliberately filled in "divorce" in the column of marriage or not. God seems a little soft-hearted She met Liu Changjiang, an honest engineer, and they fell in love. My father, who had been hospitalized for a long time, died peacefully. It seems that Mei Zi's happy life is about to begin, and the story can end. But the happy life of love is too short. Liu Changjiang died in a car accident, and Mei Zi was once again teased by fate.
I wonder how long it will take. Although she still runs a bookstall, she can't seem to concentrate on it, so she hired a helper and Li lived with them. Lively, optimistic and kind, Li brings the color and joy of life to the lonely plum. Later, one of Li's migrant workers' brothers, Li Chunjiang, came into their lives, and they had feelings because they rented Plum's house. In order to follow the construction team in Li Chunjiang, Mei Zi voluntarily gave up his comfortable life in Beijing and applied to be the team doctor of the construction team. However, due to unwritten rules, Li Chunjiang refused to disclose their relationship and refused to have any personal contact with her. In a fit of pique, Mei Zi left the construction team, but did not return to Beijing. Instead, she applied to be a nurse in a small clinic in Xi 'an, where the project is located. Seems to want this kind of life, ready to live in the clinic with my 50-year-old uncle, only to find that Li Chunjiang finally came, put down her so-called career and came to her without hesitation. They finally got together and returned to their hometown in Sichuan. After getting married, they slowly began to live an ordinary rural life. Plum has lived in this city since she was a child. She is very happy. Then she got pregnant, and it seemed that her happy life began to get on the right track. However, Li Chunjiang, who was originally determined to farm in his hometown, decided to leave the pregnant plum and go out to work alone under the persuasion of returning migrant workers. They all cried. ...
The story of the novel ends here, and we can imagine the future days. It seems that Mei Zi should have other anxieties and pains. From birth to adulthood, she always seems to be looking for dependence and warmth. She grew up alone, without the warmth of her parents, afraid of a person's life, always looking for someone to rely on, but it seems that fate has not made her feel better. The most terrible thing is that when she thought she had found stable happiness again and again, it was always a flash in the pan, leaving more disappointment and fear. There are too many disappointments that make a normal person collapse. Maybe she is too used to suffering. She survived again and again, full of hope for life and trying to find the meaning of life. Perhaps this is the meaning of the name "bitter plum". Without bitter cold, how can there be plum blossom fragrance? "Plum blossom fragrance comes from bitter cold". Perhaps this is an extreme way to open life, but it is also perhaps the most common way to grow up. Life is always full of ups and downs and difficulties. The road of life is very long. It may be lucky to have a smooth journey, but potholes may be the norm. After every fall, dry your tears, heal your wounds and tell yourself that "life goes on", which may be what the author wants to tell readers most, just as the author said on the title page-I would like to dedicate this book to those who have experienced life hardships but still love life and constantly pursue a better tomorrow!
Such themes and stories remind me of Yu Hua's To Be Alive. It seems that the two novels were written at the same time, but unfortunately, the attention and honor they received were quite different. "Bitter Plum" and the author Zhuang Xian, after I used various retrieval methods, still can't find any information, which makes us lack imagination of the author and novel.