If I could live again, I would still do two things.
One is to be a great actor.
The second is to marry laurence olivier.
Vivien Leigh
That beautiful and sad woman
That night, Vivien Leigh said to her friend, "Can you come here?"
The voice is tired and sad.
She just took a bath in the bathtub and unconsciously buried her head in the water, trying to drown herself. Later, I struggled out and my heart was full of emptiness.
She often has symptoms of collapse. Can't even perform. And her beloved Oliver has also been rumored. He had dinner with the actress. They are all younger than Vivien Leigh.
Once she was making up, someone went to see her and she cried.
She looks very old.
It seems that Huaguang is gone.
She died on 1967. Say goodbye to the prosperous and out-of-control world.
Vivien Leigh was born.
Vivien Leigh believed in fate.
And her life track seems to be discovered bit by bit according to her expectation and yearning. The future is a reality that has not yet arrived. The reality is that the dream has come true.
Walking on the road, she felt that everything was clear and controllable, with constant surprises.
19 13, she was born in India, her parents were British, and she lived comfortably since childhood and received a good education from her mother.
She studied ballet, has beautiful bright eyes and has always been the brightest person in the crowd.
She doesn't seem to lack it.
He is well-off and loved. Until he 10 was in his teens, he thought that fireworks all over the city were celebrating his birthday.
She has such naive capital. Father is rich, mother is gentle and literary. She grew up in such a family, confident as a princess.
At the age of seven, she said, "I will be a movie star." Everyone thought she was joking. Unexpectedly, she became the most dazzling symbol in film history.
1934, she was 2 1 year old. When she saw laurence olivier at the Royal Grand Theatre, she said, "I want to marry him."
At that time, she was married and had children, just an ordinary housewife. Oliver is already one of the best actors in Britain. It is also shocking to say this.
But she also succeeded. A few years later, she had a name: Mrs Oliver.
1938 The filming of Gone with the Wind is just around the corner, and the casting of the heroine is in progress. This was the biggest casting in American history, when almost all the most popular female stars sharpened their heads to get the role.
Because World War II is just around the corner, Gone with the Wind has touched the hearts of all Americans. Everyone loves Scarlett, and everyone is eager to be Scarlett.
It was the gentlest throb in America at that time. It is also the largest IP, unprecedented.
This is not only an opportunity, but also a great honor.
Joan crawford, bette davis, katharine hepburn, Lana Turner, tallulah bin Kaihede, paulette goddard, miriam Hopkins, Joan Bennett ... are all fighting for it by hook or by crook.
Although Vivien Leigh is unknown, he is still an Englishman in a foreign country.
But when she heard the news in London, she said, "I'll get the part."
Then she went to America for an audition, and the director and screenwriter were amazed.
If other actresses consider whether they can play Scarlett well. So Vivien Leigh is Scarlett.
Gone with the wind is waiting for its soul.
Vivien Leigh has another identity-Scarlett.
Many years later, victor fleming told people the scene of their meeting again and again-a glance, a dream.
They had to choose Vivien Leigh.
Because everyone except her has become a cloud.
From 65438 to 0939, Vivien Leigh joined the cast of Gone with the Wind and won the Oscar for Best Actress for this film.
She was 26 years old that year.
1940, young Vivien Leigh took the trophy and sat among a bunch of superstars with a shallow smile. Absolute beauty is incomparable.
In those smart eyes, the future is shining like an unopened gift. Although it didn't see the whole picture, its beauty and brilliance came.
Since then, Vivien Leigh has become famous all over the world.
She became famous in World War I and even became the goddess of World War I.
People love her sly green eyes, her unyielding will and her divine performance. She was born, red as the sun.
12 years later, she won the Oscar for Best Actress with A Streetcar Named Desire.
The acceptance speech given by the judges is: She has such acting skills and doesn't need to look so good at all. She's so beautiful that she doesn't have to do this at all.
She became synonymous with beauty and performance.
She also became a legend itself.
Someone else is acting.
Vivien Leigh is very active in this role.
She should be famous.
Everyone who has worked with her will praise her professionalism.
Almost all beautiful women, to some extent, are lazy, arrogant and don't care much about the rules.
For example, Monroe is often late, and a line of "sugar, it's me" can be NG dozens of times.
Another example is Brando, who refused to take the baton, stayed up late to open Patty, was late without a bottom line, and changed his lines at sixes and sevens, causing millions of losses to the crew.
They are spoiled. I am also happy to enjoy this privilege.
But Vivien Leigh is an exception.
Her dedication is outrageous, and her shooting is also focused on scaring people.
When filming Gone with the Wind, she was always the first to arrive at the set and the last to leave. She often works overtime, and every shot, every expression and every line requires her to be the ultimate.
Therefore, the whole crew saw her fatigue.
Olivia Sir Geoffrey de Havilland said, "Vivien Leigh is very professional and always comes prepared. Not only can you remember your lines, but you are never late. She works longer than other crew members, and sometimes she has to shoot after dinner ... I took four weeks off, and when I returned to the studio, Vivian passed by me, and I almost didn't recognize her. She has lost a lot of weight and looks tired physically and mentally. "
At a time when her relationship with Gaby was not good. She is a little actress, and Gaby is famous all over the world. Gaby said he didn't want to play for a housewife.
So on the set, he implied sarcasm, ridicule and contempt for Vivien Leigh.
Vivien Leigh is too sensitive, of course she realizes it.
She didn't say anything, but she proved herself even harder.
David thomson once wrote that Vivien Leigh and Gabe were very nervous, but she never gave in, which made Vivien Leigh more like Scarlett. "Aggressive, tougher, more evil and more dangerous-these are all conducive to performance, and she has never lost the tenderness that the director has cultivated in her."
At that time, Sonny Rush was her secretary and witnessed her struggle with her own eyes.
Sonny said, "Vivian works day and night. She never complains ... she is committing suicide. "
Vivien Leigh himself said in an interview with Film Insider Monthly: "For five months, I have been playing Scarlett all the time ..."
She is so charming and stubborn.
She is very talented and devoted.
Kazan once said, "If Vivien Leigh thinks something is helpful to her performance, she will climb over even if there is broken glass in front."
Anyone who has worked with Vivien Leigh will praise her seriousness.
She became a monk halfway and has been paying 200% efforts to treat every role.
She is like a chameleon, and she is also like a mentally ill person with uncertain rain or shine. She is sometimes naive, sometimes anxious and fearful, and sometimes hysterical.
She will become the character itself.
She is extremely sensitive to the inner shock of the character.
This made her and destroyed her.
When filming A Streetcar Named Desire, she was really crazy.
Blanche is a very dangerous existence.
The danger is not that she is terrible, but that she is miserable. She is a typical psychological patient. Being her and entering her will inevitably cause irreversible psychological harm to Vivien Leigh.
As we all know, Vivien Leigh has been suffering from tuberculosis. She is weak and her nerves are very fragile. And her deductive way is not methodological, but empirical. She will tear herself apart first, and then interpret this person who has been torn by life.
She said, "She is a tragic figure, and I can understand her."
She has bipolar disorder and knows what it's like to be crazy.
I also know what it's like to die.
She felt that, in a sense, she was Blanche. She played Blanche 326 times in the theater, and every time she was filled with despair.
Later, the movie version of A Streetcar Named Desire was also made. She is ugly and wrinkled, but she said, "I don't care about these ..... as long as it can arouse a complete personality-anger, vulgarity, madness, pain and anxiety."
Marlon Brando, the leading actor, said that everyone else was acting, while Vivien Leigh lived in the role.
She did it.
With her superb talent, she created a classic symbol in the history of world movies.
She won the Oscar trophy again. That year, she was 38.
She realized two big dreams.
One is to be a great actor.
The second is to marry Oliver.
She's dead,
Fall in love with Oliver.
Vivien Leigh admired Oliver all his life.
Her doctor was even more blunt, calling her feelings "morbid infatuation".
1948, they traveled to Australia.
After learning the news, fans and the media went crazy and tracked them everywhere.
"We are surrounded by these two superstars ... Oliver has come to see you. He is personable and has an extraordinary conversation; And the most beautiful woman in the world, always with him, looking up at him-her attention is always on her husband. "
Vivien Leigh was married when he met Oliver, and so was Oliver.
But they are madly attracted to each other.
During that time, the makeup artist made up Vivien Leigh and had to lock the door.
Because Oliver always comes out of nowhere and kisses her madly, making her face messy.
Later, Vivien Leigh divorced.
Oliver can't. He's divorced.
It didn't take long to get married and became the most eye-catching couple in the world.
After Gone with the Wind, everyone admired Vivien Leigh's talent, but she said, "Oliver is invincible."
In the interview, every time a reporter asked: Who is the actor you admire most?
Every time, she reported the same name: laurence olivier.
She likes to stand behind him, look up to him and be guided and led by him.
After marrying Oliver, Oliver always wanted a child. She did her best. She is afraid of losing his love.
Finally, I was pregnant for one year.
However, she was so weak that she played Cleopatra, and she was seriously short of sleep, and the stunt part also went into battle herself.
Later, she accidentally fell to the ground.
Two days later, on August 3 1, the fourth anniversary of her marriage, she miscarried.
The doctor said that her body could no longer bear children.
But in 1956, Wen Fei was 42 years old and pregnant again.
At that time, she had a serious mental illness, but she was still very excited.
On July 12, they held a press conference at home to tell everyone the news.
She said that she had hired a nanny and chose yellow and white as the colors of the nursery. They hope to have a daughter named Catherine.
Less than a month later, on August 1 1 day, Vivien Leigh had another miscarriage.
Her decline came too fast.
It seems that all the good luck came in the first half of Vivien Leigh's life.
But God is fair.
The first half is smooth, and the second half is rainy.
Alec guinness once said: "Fate endowed her with extraordinary beauty and talent, as well as magical charm. But all this comes at a price. And she paid these prices very early, so cruel and so fast. "
1April, 939, she began to become terrible.
She thought she was pregnant, but in fact she was just too nervous and had menstrual disorder. A few weeks later, Oliver said he couldn't go to see her right away because he had to shoot without comedy.
Vivien Leigh hung up the phone and burst into tears.
Then, she took a lot of sleeping pills late at night on 17.
This is the first time she has collapsed.
Sonny La Heezen said, "Vivian ... it's so painful. A few times I really thought she was going crazy, and one day she told me seriously that she would be crazy, and I had begun to believe her ... "
Vivien Leigh always said, "I can almost go to the madhouse ..."
After that, she collapsed several times.
During the filming of A Streetcar Named Desire, she was taken to the hospital.
Marlon Brando said in an interview: "Vivien Leigh is beautiful, but she also has weaknesses, just like the injured butterfly in Tennessee's works. She is very similar to Blanche, especially when she is in a trance. "
When starring in Julius Caesar and Cleopatra, other actors said, "Vivien Leigh is very weak and will tremble when waiting for the play."
But as soon as she comes on stage, she will get rid of all the symptoms.
1953, the doctor officially diagnosed that she was suffering from schizophrenia and hysteria.
This was a taboo in the mid-20th century. If her illness is made public, Vivien Leigh will be ostracized by society and her career will come to an end.
She had to hide her illness, saying that she was just too emotional.
At the same time, he refused psychological counseling for fear of disclosure.
Her body and spirit are in a straight line, and she feels that there are two Vivien Leigh confronting each other in her mind.
A madness, a fear. There is nothing she can do. These two extreme emotions occupied her and made her on the verge of insanity.
Later, she bought a poisonous snake and chatted with herself.
I also bought a horse and said that I would go to live in the primitive jungle.
She often has hallucinations, always wearing only a towel and even walking around naked.
At the same time, the nanny said that she had difficulty eating and lost weight sharply.
She can't sleep at night, can't sleep.
She is as talkative, nervous and irritable as Blanche. While watching TV, she suddenly giggled, suddenly retreated to the corner in fear, screaming and curled up into a ball.
Her moral bottom line is also declining, cheating again and again.
Because she didn't have sex with Oliver, she stayed with Peter Finch and didn't come home all night. At that time, she was married, and so was Finch. She was an actress signed by Oliver. But she doesn't care.
When Oliver came home, he held her in his arms, and she gently told him that she was in love with Peter Finch. Oliver's heart ached: "Your sadness makes me sad."
She even had a relationship with her notorious ex-boyfriend John buckmaster.
This man, once called "mad dog", has been treated in several mental hospitals.
Vivien Leigh swam with him and tore the money to pieces. Then he suggested to her: "fly out of the windows of tall buildings together."
She kept calm at the last minute and didn't jump off the building.
But at this stage, her state is getting worse and worse. She was forced to accept rough treatment in Hollywood, and this treatment was to tie her to the bed, wrap her in a wet mattress and let her hot body gradually cool down.
Vivien Leigh, who was once in great splendor, finally became a "crazy woman".
Her light faded, and she struggled with herself all day.
1953 In March, Oliver took her back to London.
When she got off the plane, she could still smile at her fans.
After returning to London, it was no good again. Her illness is still frequent. Oliver took her to Nelson Hospital for long-term sleep treatment to treat coma caused by barbiturates.
During her coma, she was electrocuted many times.
When she woke up, she didn't know what had happened, and many things began to forget.
Vivien Leigh was discharged from Nelson Hospital after three weeks of treatment. She seems to be getting better, can laugh and communicate normally, and she has become that lovely woman again.
Oliver is still taking care of her.
She also solemnly promised that she would get better and not go crazy again.
But mania and depression are inseparable. She will fight for it all her life.
No?l Coward said: "They were trapped by the applause of the audience. Their enthusiasm for the body disappeared many years ago. They struggled in the cold ashes ... they succeeded, but they were also unfortunate. "
In 1957, Vivien Leigh finally admitted that she was not "a little tired and nervous" but was ill.
However, by then Oliver had decided to leave her.
Oliver has been having an affair.
Vivien Leigh was in great pain because of the news that he was having an affair with a young woman.
They had a quarrel and Oliver threw her on the bed. She hit her head on the bedside table. Almost lost his life. The next day, she wore a black eye patch to cover the eye corner injury, saying that it was bitten by a bug.
1958 10 Oliver asked for a divorce.
This ending has finally come. Both of them made predictions, but when they did come, they still suffered in all aspects. Vivien Leigh seriously and fiercely replied:
Signature: Mrs Oliver.
In the divorce court, she was always restrained, but in the end she burst into tears.
After a long time, she is in Eton Square, and she will ask their friends, "Did you hear from him this morning?" "Is he all right?" "Did he sleep late and well?" ......
She sat there with tears in her eyes for no reason.
She was sad that Oliver was no longer near her. He became a familiar stranger.
He soon married a woman named joan plowright.
Many years later, Oliver was old. He recalled his marriage with Vivien Leigh and compared Vivien Leigh to a drowning man. He was her last life raft.
"But I'm sorry, I can't save you. If I reach out to help you, I will only be dragged down by you. "
The superstar has fallen
The angel went back.
Vivien Leigh has been having an affair since the divorce.
Darwin Porter revealed in "Damn Scarlett" that Vivien Leigh had a strong sexual desire and sought a "tight-lipped male prostitute" in a male prostitute shop in Los Angeles.
Take men back to hotels on the streets of Italy.
The book also says that after marriage, she invited taxi drivers and couriers to her room.
I don't know whether these situations are true or not, but there is no doubt that after leaving Oliver, her life was out of control for a time.
Later, when filming "Angel Duel", she met Jack Merryville, who was five years younger than her.
Merryville loves her.
I have deep feelings for her.
He is a kind gentleman. He takes her to see a doctor, cares about her mood and understands her disorder. Under the care of Merryville, after the divorce, she was in a stable state and made several movies.
But she never forgot Oliver.
She once said that she would never get married again because she couldn't forget him.
She wrote to Oliver's wife and invited her family to visit her manor. But they didn't come.
After seven years of divorce, Vivien Leigh died on the evening of July 7th. 1967.
Only 53 years old.
After lying in bed for two months, she knew it was time, and the bedroom was full of roses. She closed her eyes in the fragrance of flowers and said goodbye to the world. When relatives and friends came in, she looked as quiet as a queen.
On the evening of July 8, Oliver came.
His face is very sad.
Merryville left the bedroom, leaving Oliver and Vivien Leigh alone for a while. Oliver stood in the empty bedroom, facing Vivien Leigh's body, and said, "I'm sorry."
But Vivien Leigh couldn't hear any more.
She left, bid farewell to the absolutely beautiful story, bid farewell to the disorderly, out of control and painful predicament.
She walked towards eternal peace, leaving only a legend, dozens of works and a beautiful figure for her followers.
After she was cremated, her ashes were scattered in the water. Mother built a tombstone for her in the garden of Eton Square.
On the tombstone is Shakespeare's sentence:
"Death, you can boast that a stunning beauty is all yours."
Vivien Leigh has been trying to be a perfect person all his life.
For the performance, open every nerve to feel, regardless of sadness and injury.
Pay the ultimate affection to the people around you.
She said:
"When I was a little girl and wanted to attend a party, my mother always said,' I'm going to please the hostess'.
When I became the hostess, my mother said,' I'm going to please the guests'.
Then I asked,' When can I do what I want? My mother said,' Don't think it's polite to do what you want'. "
This has also created her life, and she is "paying".
Not "to".
They are all "full".
Not "take".
She hopes that her existence can bring more real meaning to movies, lovers and relatives. Even if asked to leave, she wouldn't say anything.
But now, the angel is back.
There is no hysteria, betrayal and gossip in heaven. She should be able to stop and be herself.