Among the modern writers in China, there is such a person who died without regret. He is Lu Yao.
As a well-known peasant writer, Lu Yao seemed glamorous all his life, but he was extremely painful before he died. Because the three most important people in his life failed to accompany him to the last journey of his life.
There are three inseparable people in Lu Yao's life-his wife who paved the way for him, his brother who is his spiritual pillar, and his favorite daughter. But why did the people closest to him turn against him and leave him when he was dying? In fact, looking back on Lu Yao's life, we know that this is inevitable.
A marriage full of calculation and disappointment made his wife leave him.
Lu Yao was born in a peasant family, but he was not willing to be only a farmer. He wants to jump out of the peasant circle. If he wants to leave the countryside, he has no choice but to study. But at that time, there was a huge stumbling block in front of him: no money to go to college.
After careful consideration, Lu Yao thought of his own advantages: erudite and versatile, single. He once told Haibo his idea that he wanted to find an educated youth. Because no local woman has the ability to send him to college? How can he go out without going to college? So he made up his mind not to talk about feelings, but only about educated youth.
Towards this goal, Lu Yao met his later wife Linda. After they were together, Linda really gave money for him to go to college as Lu Yao thought. If a girl is willing to scrimp and save and not add new clothes just to give a boy more money, then she should really like this boy!
Linda did all these things for Lu Yao. According to Linda's friends, Linda was holding a relatively high salary at that time, but she was reluctant to buy herself a new dress, even wearing the same dress for several seasons. Young Linda gave all her enthusiasm and love to Lu Yao, although Lu Yao didn't care.
The gap between identity and spirit makes them go further and further in marriage. Linda comes from an intellectual family. She is stubborn and independent. She bears the burden of taking care of her daughter, contacting relatives and friends, and running errands alone. A weak woman is forced by life to become a "woman man" who carries a gas tank alone.
But these, Lu Yao did not see in his eyes. Even if you love someone again, you will be disheartened when your long-term efforts are not rewarded. Linda didn't want to put up with this kind of life after all, so she asked Lu Yao for a divorce.
But Lu Yao, a man, has always had face. When he was young, he was often laughed at by others because of his mother. This makes Lu Yao attach great importance to "face" all his life. In order to save face, Lu Yao can smoke two packs of cigarettes with a unit price of three yuan every day when he is in financial difficulties. At that time, his monthly salary was only 30 yuan, and two packs of cigarettes a day were not enough for him to smoke.
Naturally, he will not agree to divorce Linda. After all, this story will not only be laughed at by others, but also lose my mother. In this way, two people who are at odds and isolated from God spent nearly ten years torturing each other.
Finally, Lu Yao signed a divorce agreement in his hospital bed. Whether Lu Yao expects his wife to change her mind when she is dying is unknown. All we know is that after Linda signed the divorce papers, she flew away like a caged bird without looking back, even ignoring her own daughter.
Endless suspicion and complaints turned brothers against each other.
In the process of Lu Yao's growth, there is another person who can't live without it, and that is his own brother Wang Tianle. If Linda is the material pillar of Lu Yao; Wang Letian is his spiritual pillar. Even at that time, Lu Yao wrote a book "Morning Begins at Noon" specially for Wang Tianle.
At the back of the title of the article is the sentence "To my brother Wang Tianle". This simple sentence is enough to see the intimate relationship between the two brothers. However, family relationships can also deteriorate.
Lu Yao was replaced by lung disease at that time, and now it is also a very serious disease, which is contagious. Wang Tianle has been adhering to the attitude of being a brother, a friend and a brother, and has been visiting his brother for a long time. Just, perhaps afraid of being infected, Wang Tianle will wash his hands carefully and repeatedly every time.
Ordinary people may not care about such a thing. But for a dying person, it will be a very heavy blow-he was rejected by others before his death, and this person is still his own brother. I can't accept the distance of this matter at all, and I still have resentment against my brother.
When a person doesn't like you, you can't even breathe right. Indeed, Lu Yao, who was gradually dissatisfied with his younger brother, began to recall the trouble that his younger brother had brought him. At that time, Lu Yao won the Mao Dun Literature Prize, but because he had no travelling expenses, he could go to Beijing, so his younger brother borrowed money from others in his name to make up the travelling expenses.
But he always felt that he didn't spend that much money. The more he thought about it, the more he felt that Wang Tianle had stolen some money. In this way, the long-accumulated contradiction between the two finally broke out completely. Lu Yao and Wang Tianle turned against each other after all, and even Wang Tianle didn't go to Lu Yao's funeral again.
Can't continue to accompany his favorite daughter.
Lu Yao's daughter is called, but you can also feel Lu Yao's love for her daughter by looking at her name.
Although Lu Yao has no love for his wife all his life, he has feelings for his daughter. To death, the most worrying thing is distance. When she was seriously ill in bed, Lu Yao didn't leave any bad impression on her daughter. Although she said Lu Yuan's birthday every day, she held back. For four years, she never met Lu Yuan again.
Even on his deathbed, he said that he hoped his relatives would take good care of her. In fact, Lu Yao really loves this child, and he spends a lot of money. When he was poorest, he never touched the ten thousand dollars left to his daughter.
Of course, love goes both ways. His love for his daughter is neither in vain nor wrong. I have been chanting my father's birthday, and even prepared a birthday present long ago, just waiting for the road away.
It's a pity that Lu Yao hasn't waited until that day, and she will never see her daughter's carefully prepared gift again. When Lu Yao was buried, he cried out of breath, and finally begged his relatives to open Lu Yao's coffin, put the prepared gifts in the coffin and accompany his father.
Everyone's life can't be judged simply by "right and wrong", especially when it comes to feelings. For example, Lu Yao, in Linda's view, is a phoenix man, not a good husband, which ruined Linda's life; But if you think about it, is it wrong for him to find a way out for himself?
Just say that my brother's behavior is not wrong. This is human nature, but if you are a distant road, won't you be chilling? However, at least Lu Yuan is the warmest light in Lu Yao's life and the last comfort in his life.
Although people will always leave more or less regrets and regrets in their lives, if someone really makes that light to dispel the darkness, then life will be enough, and disability will also be a kind of beauty.