A Mu, who sent the photo, said, "Seeing the trace of afterglow, I remembered him again. He is on the other side of the world. I really want to know how he is, but after that moment, I recalled everything in the past and pulled out a smile. "
I asked, "Is it a wry smile?"
A Mu replied: "No, that smile can be said to be a exuberant happy hormone secreted from the bottom of my heart, a feeling of euphoria."
This reminds me of A Mu and his story.
This sunny boy encouraged each other during their two years together, sweated for their own ideals in the university community, and finally gained full memories.
But life is always full of drama, and it has never been anyone's will.
"euphoria"! I don't understand.
"Yes, flattered, arises spontaneously. I think I no longer hate and blame myself. " A Mu replied.
After all these years, why should we go our separate ways? Over the years, every time I ask you, you say that he and I are both wrong, and our fate is uncertain. Now that you have put it down, let's talk about things between you! Out of sympathy, I asked at once.
A Mu and he officially got together in their sophomore year.
Uh-huh, there is definitely nothing wrong with love over time. At that time, they were exhausted by the club, but their hearts were always filled with happiness. At that time, they also quarreled about some things in the club, but they soon made up.
At that time, it was very simple, without any utility, and all the efforts were out of my strong interest.
Memories are beautiful because there are realistic references.
"Society is like a charter in a chart, but neither he nor I have escaped." A Mu sighed with pleasure.
When I saw these words, I hesitated.
"A Mu, have you ever thought, in fact, you haven't let go all these years, have you been working hard, or pretend to have a good and fulfilling life? In fact, only you know it clearly, but since you talk about this topic again today, I want to ask you, have you ever thought about starting over with him?" After writing this, I hesitated for a while, but I still sent this short message.
After a long time, I still haven't heard from A Mu.
I have been with A Mu for many years, and I think I know her relatively, but she has been avoiding this topic, so I have been letting her go.
Because I deeply know that one day, she will understand and let go of everything she has to go through in this life.
For a long time after that, A Mu was not as keen on chatting with me as before.
After some ideological struggle, I began to record my story with her in words and publish it on the forum.
I remember the woman who liked to use words as an army. She said: "I will use words to become a tribe, break through your fortress and live in your heart."
What a good promise. Sometimes I really want to ask her if she succeeded.
When I go to work every day, I can still see A Mu's busy figure and smile when I see him, but there seems to be a faint gap between us, an unspeakable emotion.
I continue to publish my articles on the forum of "Love".
(2)
"See you often in a daze at work recently. What's wrong? " A Mu chatted with other colleagues and asked casually.
I was instantly stunned: "Oh, no!" Just browsing the forum.
A Mu leaned in to see, at that moment, I immediately jumped to that page. Afterwards, I was a little scared, but later I gave up the idea. A Mu doesn't really care about these little things.
However, that night, A Mu and I chatted and talked about the questions I had asked her before.
"The contradiction between me and him before was that during the internship, the fate of society highlighted the problem that we did not conflict originally. I like words and still do what I am interested in. In other words, I actually pay more attention to comfort.
But he's not. He is always moving forward and working hard, so soon there will be no topic between us, and gradually I can't keep up with him. But I didn't realize the seriousness of the problem at that time. Later, our quarrel intensified, partly because I was unreasonable and partly because he ignored me.
When he crushed the last straw, relatives in Shanghai told him that if he wanted to make rapid progress, he would come to Shanghai to make a breakthrough. So our last quarrel began. I'm absolutely against it. I'm furious. He said that you wasted a year, and you were afraid that you wouldn't have a foothold in Shanghai. At that moment, I became angry from embarrassment. I said I'm not going. I want to go by myself. If I go, we will never have anything to do again. "
This is the question you have asked for so many years, and today I finally have the courage to tell you haha. Then A Mu sent this message.
Seeing this, I was shocked. In my eyes, A Mu has been working hard for his ideal-becoming a freelance writer.
"Have you told him about your goals and efforts?" I asked.
A Mu quickly replied, "No, I didn't have any goals at that time. Very confused. "
I didn't catch up with him and he didn't wait for me to grow up. When I needed him to complete my growth, he decisively cut everything off! At this point, we parted ways. "
Later, I experienced the most painful transformation, and found my ideal step by step, which made me who I am now. "A Mu sent three messages in a row.
But suddenly, I was a little surprised. I feel that A Mu is different today, so I quipped, "A Mu, you won't get drunk tonight!"
As a result, she just ignored me
Well, at that moment, I felt that I had done something wrong again, but once or twice, we slowly restored our previous friendship.
(3)
We have returned to the old habit of chatting. And the experience between me and her, in the form of novels, is constantly updated.
Sometimes I long for her to happen to see us in my pen.
But sometimes I am afraid that she will know all my psychological tracks.
I remember I was a little excited when I first turned to100000 words. Finally, I established my army of thousands of troops, waiting for a good opportunity to conquer the hero's castle and live in her heart.
When I first saw A Mu, I had bright eyes, a simple and elegant smile, and a pure but always pretending to be mature and calm.
The moment I met her, I realized the profound meaning of a glimpse of ten thousand years.
Later, I have been in frequent contact at work, and I slowly chatted and was deeply attracted by her sense of humor.
The afternoon sun began to slowly penetrate the glass, scattering dazzling and shining light. We have been struggling at the computer desk. We talked about work and travel with emotion. It's really a sleepy moment, drawing a beautiful dream, and then moving forward hard. The office is full of laughter.
At that time, A Mu was writing a soft article for the Furong brand. When he talked about how much he liked the tenacity of Hibiscus, I said, "It won't give you a unique charm just because your name also has the word Hibiscus!"
Otherwise, I will call you "A Mu" in the future. It's easy to remember, and the most important thing is not to talk.
The more A Mu refused to correct my name, the more I rebelled against her. She didn't like it, so I called it "A Mu". Later, she stopped struggling and got used to it.
That winter, A Mu received an invitation letter from the student union of the school.
"I haven't been back to school for a long time. In those years, those familiar environments should have changed a lot.
When I received the invitation, I still wanted to go back, but my heart was full of anxiety. "A Mu said.
"Go back and say goodbye to time solemnly!" I smiled
When A Mu was preparing to go back to school, we were all told that the head office had set up a new branch in Yunnan, and we could apply to be sent to the branch if we wanted.
Yunnan, Yunnan ... a city I often haunt.
Just when I decided to go to the branch school, it happened that A Mu went back to school. Every sentence flashed through my mind, and I said goodbye to the end at the beginning.
So I went to A Mu's school, which is the source of her memory, although it has nothing to do with me.
The moment I found A Mu, I looked at A Mu's surprised expression and smiled heartily.
I told her with a smile that I was going to Yunnan, but I froze when I saw her, as if I knew my destination.
That night, when I was leaving, I said to A Mu, how much I want to start with you and end with you, A Mu, love, I worship you. It's just that when I said these words, I happened to be near a store stereo.
When the world was quiet after the noise, A Mu said, "I didn't hear what you just said." .
At that moment, I smiled, maybe this is God's will!
(4)
The roar of the train aroused all my feelings of parting.
During the long journey, I wrote an ending for the story between us. I don't know what the future will be like, but I like the eternity of words, and I like to write a happy life with A Mu, just like in a certain dimension, we are really happy.
A Mu, this is to worship you. In the light of the sunset glow, I saw A Mu's wanton smile. A Mu nodded and shook hands tightly, and they began to live a happy and beautiful life. end
After posting these, I saw a man nicknamed "Chao" and replied that he would wait for me.
One sunny morning, A Mu smiled and waved to me.
Hibiscus is also called "Infinite Flower" and "Emperor of Heaven".