I didn't feel so deeply about this before, and I always felt that life was full of hope. But life will tell you again and again that you are not that material. Calm down and put yourself in a proper position, and stop wishful thinking. Whether it is the feudal class before or the bourgeoisie in the capital society now, our life is bound by society, and the scope of activities is always delineated by life. Whenever you want to cross that line, there will always be a voice from life tirelessly telling you, no, you can't go out.
Education provides us with binoculars to see different lives. With the improvement of reading and cognition, we can see our present situation clearly, and agitation will happen immediately. Some classes don't expect us to make progress on the hopeless road. We were covered in scars, and along the way, one companion fell down. They stood there, unable to bear the burden of ideals, and felt extremely happy after putting them down. As a result, they have also become the spokesmen of life and the mouthpiece of class, and they are telling the happiness of life after letting go of their ideals in your ear. You have been tempted many times to let go of the ideal burden, because you have only one companion on this road, and this companion is called disappointment. You will experience despair in disappointment again and again, and you can't see the glory of the end, which only exists in your ideal.
You constantly revise your direction for a little hope in that ideal. That kind of correction is more of a last resort. That direction keeps winding along the road of life, so you will often feel more confused in the complicated road, confused about where the road is, confused about where there is no direction, and confused about whether the ideal is worth your extravagant hopes.
Carrying a heavy load, fatigue takes up every moment of you, and we are attracted by ideals and urged by life. In fact, we always know what is right and what life should be like. It's just that the ideal is to be in a primitive landform, and you never know whether your step can lead to a distant place or what direction you should go next.
So what? From another angle, make yourself worthy of your ideal. You are not pursuing an ideal, you are combing yourself and carving your life into an ideal shape bit by bit. There is only one life, and you can live it as you please.