What does it mean to wait in fantasy, but never escape from expectation?

I have been waiting in fantasy, but I can't escape the expectation. Waiting is what I am looking forward to most at present, and there is no satisfactory result. Maybe the desired result will not come, but I have been waiting for a good result. I have been expecting in fantasy, in which the word fantasy has illusory meaning, that is, the high probability is false imagination. But I can't escape waiting in expectation, and the word "escape" means that I don't want to or can't give up, so even though I know my fantasy will fail, I'm still willing to wait with my beautiful fantasy.