It's been almost twenty years, and I still remember this passage clearly. It was in the BB era, and Wu Junqing would say this every time he left a message to her boyfriend's call desk. She calls her boyfriend at least 20 times a day, and we all know the calluses.
On the first day of my internship there, I met Wu Junqing, who was my old colleague in the unit for more than three years. The boss took me to her and asked her to teach me more. She didn't speak, just nodded. The boss said to me, "She doesn't talk much. You are young and lively, talk more. "
I nodded hard. I fell in love with the girl sitting opposite me at first sight. She is twenty-four or five years old, white, round face, big eyes and beautiful appearance.
I grinned and bowed: "Hello, master, my name is Su Yuan." Wu Junqing frowned. "Don't call me master. It's ugly. My name is Wu Junqing. I am a handsome guy with a mouth and green grass. You call me by my name directly. "
"Very good, Wu Junqing."
On the first day of work, I found that everyone in the company was called "Xiao Wei" except the boss, and everyone called him except Wu Junqing.
This man seems to like his name very much.
I sometimes feel that if she can, she would like to replace all the "I" with "Wu Junqing": "Wu Junqing is here", "Wu Junqing is free" and "Wu Junqing is here" ... Of course, she didn't, but the words "Wu Junqing" appeared too frequently.
First of all, because she made a lot of phone calls. She is an old employee, and many customers are in contact with upstream and downstream partners. The first sentence when she answers the phone is always "Hello, I'm Wu Junqing". Of course, while making a lot of phone calls every day, she won't forget to call her boyfriend.
Second, if a strange customer comes to the door, she is usually responsible for the reception. When sending away the customer, she will definitely hand in her business card and say, "Call me if you need anything. My name is Wu Junqing."
Third, customers and colleagues are called by their first names. We often hear people say that Wu Junqing is short and long. Even when I went back to write my diary at night, I wrote, "I'm not very busy today, because I only heard about 74 Wu Junqing."
In other words, Wu Junqing is really different. It's always a little strange for ordinary people to call their names from their own mouths, as if they were calling a stranger, but she speaks them skillfully.
One day, I heard her proudly say to Miss call, "Yes! It was Wu Junqing who left a message for Wu Junqing, that's right. " At that time, my mouth was about as big as Miss call.
My colleague looked at me blankly and smiled and said to me, "wujun and her boyfriend have the same name and surname, and their words are meticulous." I have a mouth that doesn't close properly: "God, there is such a fate."
Wu Junqing just heard it and said with a little shyness, "Although my name is neutral, I can really meet a boyfriend with the same name and surname in my life, which I didn't expect myself."
The customer who has been listening to our small talk joked, "Your names are all Wu Junqing. Is it Wu Wu or Wu Shuang who gave birth? " When the customer finished speaking, he smiled, and so did we. Wu Junqing stopped laughing, and his face grew longer and longer.
Wu Junqing doesn't talk much at work at ordinary times, only when it comes to boyfriends, but when it comes to getting married and having children, she will pull her face down on the spot, no matter how embarrassing the atmosphere is. I've done this twice, and I know it's taboo for her to get married and have children.
I soon knew the reason why Wu Junqing was taboo, because-Wu Man Jun Qing had a wife and children.
My colleague told me privately that Wu Junqing was not easy to get along with, but she and I surpassed our colleagues and became good friends.
People say that Wu Junqing is cold, but she is surprisingly kind to me.
Our colleagues seldom socialize with each other and go home after work, but Wu Junqing will take the initiative to invite me to dinner and take me to her house to play. Her family lives in an old alley in beijing east road. That was the first time I saw the Shanghai family who "made Dojo in snail shells".
Wu Junqing is an only child, and there are only her parents and her at home. They have a small mini yard with a small room as a kitchen. The outside of the main room looks spacious. A big room is divided into two rooms. The front room is the hall and the back room is the parents' bedroom.
Wu Junqing has lived alone in the attic separated by the roof space of his room since he was ten years old. The attic is less than ten square meters, the lowest part of the floor is less than one meter two, and the highest part is one meter six at most. At my height, I can only climb where the ladder just climbed. When I climbed to the highest place, I couldn't stand up completely.
At dinner, mother Wu asked me, "Xiao Yuan, there is no such a small house in your hometown, right?" "Yes, yes, there are more than a dozen houses in my front and back yard. There is no need to do this. "
Father Wu said, "The north is spacious. If the house in your hometown can move to Shanghai, you will be rich. " "Yes, yes, there are several empty houses in my house."
When mother Wu and I were washing dishes in the kitchen, mother Wu asked me, "Do you usually help your mother with housework at home?" "Yes, my mother always said that girls should be able to do housework." Mother Wu said, "Nothing." "No, she knows a lot. The girls in our unit are not as good as her. "
I don't know whether I am in love with Wu's parents or like me. A month later, my colleague not only invited me to her house for dinner, but also kept me. We live together in her attic room. I was bored all night. She will teach me how to match clothes, how to make up and how to deal with customers. She will also take out her precious clothes and jewelry and dress me up like this.
In less than a month, I met many classmates, family members and even relatives except her boyfriend in Wu Junqing. In my heart, Wu Junqing became my best friend at that time. Not only do I see her name in my diary every day, but I also call my parents, and I will definitely mention her every time.
Many times, we can't sleep in bed. Wu Junqing will tell me her love story. Wu Man Jun Qing was her first love. At first, she didn't know she was a mistress.
When they met, they graduated from Cyclobalanopsis University in Wu Jun, and Wu Man Jun Qing was already a successful social figure. He is six years older than her (or eight years old, I can't remember), engaged in steel trade, dressed in fashion and with extraordinary demeanor. Their friends often mention them, calling them "male Wu Junqing" and "female Wu Junqing". After listening to this kind of words, you will inevitably be curious and want to know each other. I didn't expect to fall in love at first sight.
After being in love for more than a year, Wu Junqing felt stable and asked her boyfriend to meet her parents. However, her boyfriend often pushes from pillar to post. After several times, the girl felt wrong. After repeated questioning, Wu Junqing revealed the fact that he had a wife and children.
Very old-fashioned. He said they had no feelings. He said he could not bear to part with it, because his parents arranged the marriage in his hometown, and he didn't even get a marriage certificate, so he didn't really get married. He said that he was once drunk and cheated into bed, but he had a child once. He doesn't want it either, but the child is innocent. He said that he has been asking for a divorce, but when it comes to divorce, his parents and wife make a scene. He said that he had been doing business in Shanghai for a long time just to escape from that unwanted family.
Wu Junqing said that she wanted to leave him several times, but she thought that they would be together. This was fate. Fate arranged for them to use the same name just so that they could recognize each other when they met. Since fate arranged for them to meet and fall in love, they should not be given a tragic ending.
Wu Junqing stared at the dark roof and said, "If Wu Junqing doesn't have Wu Junqing, whether he doesn't have me or I don't have him, our souls can't be complete."
Now I can understand her complicated feelings at that time, and I also understand that the world is not that simple, and there will be too many factors to promote one thing. But at that time, I was too young, all aspects of life were too smooth, and I imagined life and humanity as beautiful as fairy tales. So, after listening to her story, I will only say, "You will be happy. Anyway, I am on your side. "
I've often heard of Wu Man Jun Qing, but I've never seen a real person. Once I heard that he was coming to pick her up from work, I was so excited that I finished my work early and prepared to meet the legendary "successful man" and "handsome boy". My colleague threw cold water on me: "What should you do? Don't make a fuss, you won't see it. " How is that possible? I'm not like you. I am Wu Junqing's best friend.
I jumped into Wu Junqing's seat and raised my voice and said, "Your boyfriend will come over later and introduce him to me." In my imagination, Wu Junqing will definitely say yes, and then I can smile proudly at my colleagues.
But it never occurred to me that Wu Junqing said, "Oh, it's not convenient. He usually doesn't get off the bus. "
After work, I watched Wu Junqing pull open a black car door and walk away. Who is in the car? How many people are there? I don't know. How can you be such a good friend? I'm a little wronged.
Once I was with Wu Junqing, I couldn't help asking her why she wouldn't let me see her. She said, "Remember, you can share everything with your best friend except your boyfriend. Not only can't you go to play together, but you can go to dinner together. It's best not to meet each other, so as not to be friends in the future. "
I simply feel ridiculous: "Are you flattering me too much? Is it just me? Can you rob your boyfriend? " Wu Junqing once said a word that impressed me deeply: "It's him I want to guard against, not you." After all, the heart and the stomach are separate. "
In a blink of an eye, my three-month internship in the company expired and my boss was very kind to me. At first, I agreed that there was no salary during the internship, but from the second month, my boss paid me, just like a regular employee. And many things are said by my boss, and the communication between upstream and downstream partners is given to me from Wu Junqing.
One day, my boss talked to me. He said he was very optimistic about me and asked me to consider formal employment after my internship. He will give me good opportunities and income. I was so excited that I agreed on the spot. Coming out of the boss's office, I immediately took Wu Junqing to the bathroom and told her the good news. I shouted excitedly in the bathroom, but I didn't see Wu Junqing's face at all.
A few days later, Wu Junqing asked me for advice. She said that the boss is very nice, but the unit is regarded as the downstream enterprise of the whole industry, too controlled by others and has no future. The upstream company we often cooperate with talked to her and wanted to dig her up. She told someone that she would take me with her, and the other party agreed.
I know that company. Because of the cooperation, I went to work several times and saw a more magnificent office environment in his home. I also heard from their employees how high their income is, which makes my mouth water but I dare not think about it. Now, is this a pie in the sky?
However, I just promised my boss and suddenly went back on my word. It's really bad!
Wu Junqing said, it doesn't matter. When I was young, I said that my parents didn't trust me to stay in Shanghai alone and asked me to go back to my hometown, where I had already arranged a job for me. Secondly, everyone should not leave their jobs together. Walk slowly first, then slowly, and give the boss some buffer time to arrange his work.
I'm a little hesitant. I think she's right. That company really appeals to me more. I grit my teeth and decided to listen to her.
After I got my third month's salary, I resigned from my boss on the same day. The boss was stunned. I lied to my boss according to the lie I discussed with Wu Junqing, and I dare not run back.
I went home and cried many times. After slowly calming down, I comforted myself that the price was worth it and the future would be better.
That night, my pager suddenly received a strange page and went to call back. I am a colleague who has been playing well in the company (unfortunately, I can't even remember my name now). She asked me directly on the phone: "Did Wu Junqing let you resign?" I don't talk. She was very angry: "I told you a silly girl that you were cheated." Tell me, why did you quit? "I didn't speak, she yelled at me angrily, and I repeated the story of lying to the boss.
She kept humming, "Well, don't pretend. I tell you, Wu Junqing went to see the boss after you left today. Do you know what she said to the boss She said that she happened to have a cousin looking for a job, so she could ask her to come and try. You got it? You idiot. "
I feel that my brain can't turn around at once. I stood there for a long time after hanging up my colleague. Maybe Wu Junqing is very responsible and worried that the company is too busy? Maybe she just introduced her cousin to work? Maybe she misunderstood Wu Junqing?
Look at the time, 9: 30 in the evening. I hesitated, but I called Wu Junqing. She waited by the phone for an hour, but there was no answer.
The next day, I called Wu Junqing again, but still didn't answer.
On the third day, I called Wu Junqing again, but I still didn't answer.
I think I understand.
I was lying in my cot, imagining that I would go to my home in Wu Junqing, beijing east road and make a scene. I imagined that I would complain about Wu's father and mother. I imagined her shame after being stopped ... After thinking about it, I sighed again. You are such a coward.
No matter how angry I am, I will never forget the way Wu Junqing dressed me up in the attic. On New Year's Eve, she took me to a disco to dance all night. In the morning, we laughed and shouted at the sunrise by the Huangpu River. And when eating in the Wu family, she rarely talks, but she will give me a pair of dishes ... that's it. Although I didn't know what I had done wrong, I already understood her choice.
On the morning of the fourth day of resignation, the pager rang, and it was actually from the unit.
On the way to the public phone, I kept thinking: I must be wrong, I must have misunderstood Wu Junqing, her pager must be broken, it must not be what I thought, I am really superficial, how can I miss Wu Junqing so much! I'm so stupid.
Call back, and the person who answers the phone is the boss.
The boss asked me when I would go back to my hometown. I can't talk. The boss really likes me and speaks highly of me. She thinks I have a bright future and hopes I can consider going back. The boss said, "Your parents are not at ease. If you ask them to come to Shanghai, I will tell them. They will feel at ease when they see me. "
Suddenly I feel that fate is terrible. When I was completely unprepared, it suddenly put the selected switch in my hand. At that moment, to be honest, there was no beauty at all. I only feel that I have a bomb in my hand, but my heart is extremely sad. Wu Junqing thinks she has manipulated her own destiny, but she doesn't know that I can change her destiny with just one word at the moment.
Seeing that I was silent, the boss continued, "Wu Junqing introduced me to someone. I looked at it and found that she was more introverted than her. I really don't like it. " If you give me an accurate sentence, can you come back? "
At that moment, I felt the mockery of fate and the ruthlessness of fate. He seems to look down at me coldly to see what choice I will make, but I seem to understand in my heart that what he really wants to say is: tiny human beings, do you really think you can control your own destiny?
Perhaps, I will never forget that brief moment in my life, because it was at that time that I finally felt that I had grown up. This is probably the price that must be paid for growth.
From the moment I experienced great sadness and joy, I really grew up. I am no longer a child. I have no right to be willful, because even if I am as small as myself, every decision at every moment may rewrite the fate of myself or others.
Since she thinks I'm a threat to her at work, and since she thinks it would be better for me to disappear from her life, let her be satisfied.
Wave and never say goodbye. I haven't seen you since, and it's almost twenty years.
I will write this story because I believe that each of us has experienced pain before growing up. Our pains may not be different, but our experiences are quite different. Mine is just a grain of sand among all sentient beings.
In retrospect, I am actually grateful for that incident. If I hadn't left that company (I can't even remember my name now), I wouldn't have entered the consulting industry later, nor would I have future development opportunities, and I might not have a complete and rich life now.
I believe that people who leave important memories in a person's life are destined to help him experience life better. Once, I hated Wu Junqing very much, because she gave me the first major setback in my life. Perhaps this level of betrayal is nothing to those who have experienced it, but it was once very serious to me who was still simple at that time, leaving deep scars. I can't believe any new people for many years and have taken many detours.
However, I am also very grateful to Wu Junqing, who is an important promoter in my life and indispensable to her. Moreover, she left me many warm memories, and because of the fragments of these memories, I made more important lovers and friends in my life.
In the process of my mature growth, I have been able to understand her betrayal and design, because later, I finally understood her pain. Young Wu Junqing suffered too many betrayals and lies. She didn't meet a real friend to give her a hand. She lives in a bubble of lies and doesn't care about dragging a new friend into it.
As a friend, I was so incompetent. I gave her too little. I don't want to help her. I can't even see her pain. Even friends must meet on the basis of equality, otherwise, even without this time, they will go further and further sooner or later.
Dreaming in the middle of the night, she may or may not have regrets. It doesn't matter to us now. Anyway, I believe she must have crossed the river of youth.
For me, the best ending is not that we meet and laugh one day, but that I hope she can forget me completely and never remember me again.
I firmly believe that no relationship is the best one than to regain it. This is what I want to say to Wu Junqing most.
Thinking about life, I finally believe that this world is the hand of fate, and all its arrangements are interlocking, closely linked and wonderful.
I know. I accepted it.
Note: Although it may be redundant, I still want to remind everyone that things are different and names are fiction.