Family conflicts, I really want to die now.

As far as you are concerned, your mother has never really understood your thoughts and needs, let alone looked at your efforts and growth objectively.

From your description, your mother is in a state of violence and dryness, and she is in a bad mood. Perhaps, she will have tears when she is alone.

Can only mention your mother, plus your mother's performance. Your father either left you or was at war with your mother. The way your mother treats you is largely caused by her bad mood. She is in a bad mood because there is no man's care and love.

You are still young, so it is a little difficult for you to understand your mother. Just bear it. You'll be fine. Death is not your choice.

Tell me your mother's contact information if it's convenient, and talking to her will help your current relationship.