Whether it is love or friendship, it seems that there are injuries and cracks. No matter how hard you try to make up, you will never return to the original appearance.
Xiaoxue and Ye Feng are in love in college. At that time, there were many boys chasing xiaoxue. Many friends don't understand why Xiaoxue chose Ye Feng, which is so mediocre. Xiaoxue kept smiling without a word, because she didn't know whether she was in love with Ye Feng or with the feeling after riding a bicycle in Ye Feng.
After graduation, Xiaoxue gave up a lot for Ye Feng, followed him to the mountainous area for employment, and then resigned with him, tossing and turning all the way. Ye Feng comes from a poor family, and Xiaoxue's family has always opposed their marriage. But people who are immersed in love have almost zero IQ and can't listen to anyone's advice at all. This relationship lasted for three years, and when an unexpected life came, they got married unprepared. Both of them are immersed in happiness. One thinks that marrying love is happy, and the other thinks that marrying love is happy.
Then, at the wedding, Xiaoxue saw the girl that Ye Feng liked for eight years. Women are sensitive animals, and pregnant women are doubly sensitive. She has a special taste in her heart. She doesn't mind the girl's arrival, but she doesn't mind that he never told her whether to invite her or not, and he has never been honest about it. What's important is that his eyes are always inadvertently projected on the girl at the wedding. He can inadvertently capture her photos. He is so tall at the wedding that he ignores the existence of her as a pregnant woman!
After the wedding, they quarreled, and Xiaoxue cried, blaming him for not being honest with her and not making an agreement in advance; Ye Feng can't understand Xiaoxue's fabrication, her unreasonable behavior, her suspicion and suspicion. One tries to explain and prove his innocence; An aggressive and determined wedding photo haunts her mind like a nightmare.
Two people calm for a period of time, as if returned to normal. More than nine months passed in a blink of an eye, and Xiaoxue ushered in the expected date of delivery. The light snow is bleeding in the middle of the night, and the first child is inexperienced. Xiaoxue was very nervous. Ye Feng's family rushed Xiaoxue to the hospital.
In the process of labor, while waiting for the palace door to be fully opened, a burst of severe pain attacked her delicate body. She was a little scared, but waited for her mother-in-law to snore and fall asleep. She was too painful to call her mother-in-law, and she didn't know how she got into the delivery room or how she was born.
After Xiaoxue left the delivery room, it was already five or six o'clock in the afternoon the next day. She was so hungry that she wanted to eat chicken soup cooked at home like other parturients. But for the next three days, she was in the hospital, and there was no sign of her in-laws. She eats dry rice and some fried food packed in the hospital cafeteria every day. I have to get up and go to the toilet at night, because there are too many cracks in the palace door, so I have a lot of stitches. It's a little difficult to get up alone. Besides, she had low back pain before. Xiaoxue always struggles to get up and move slowly, while Ye Feng stays in the hospital every night, but she always falls asleep and can't wake up.
Xiaoxue's heart is a little cold and she wants to cry.
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Finally, the day before discharge, my in-laws came. But Xiaoxue didn't know that she came to discuss the name of the child with her. When she couldn't talk for two or three sentences, her in-laws began to look pale and speak loudly. She is tired and unable to argue, so let it go, while Ye Feng, who is on the side, looks like a passive Nuo Nuo and has no opinion at all.
Xiaoxue may have been disheartened and said to Ye Feng: Then listen to your parents! Ye Feng was as happy as a child when she saw her concession. She breathed a sigh of relief, as if she could finally tell her parents, and quickly wrote her father's local name on the birth certificate. At that moment, her inner pain was extreme.
The night before discharge, her mother-in-law stayed to look after Xiaoxue. Xiaoxue is a little happy and thinks this is enough. However, unexpectedly, the mother-in-law stayed to help, and the child cried all night. The mother-in-law also directly accused her of being clumsy and disgusted. When I got up to go to the toilet, my in-laws told Ye Feng not to help me, saying that other people born after her could walk by themselves. Xiaoxue slowly moved into the toilet alone, and Ye Feng asked outside: Can you do it yourself?
Such concern, Xiao Xue feel ridiculous, his parents said don't help, he really don't help; His parents said that Xiaoxue's name for the child was not pleasant to listen to, so he listened to his parents and changed it to his father's name. Her heart is cold, really cold, this is the man she loves deeply, and she is crazy about it. For him, she gave up her good job and went to the countryside with him; For him, she married in the mountains regardless of her family's opposition; For him, she gave up her job and gave birth to his child; For him, she begged her parents not to accept dowry and not to put too much pressure on him. ...
In the second month, my mother didn't trust Xiaoxue and went all the way to the mountains to take care of her daughter and grandson. But my in-laws seem to take everything for granted, and I have never seen my in-laws take care of my children for the whole month. Including Xiaoxue's high fever in the second month, the two in-laws never came in to help, and the disappointment with her husband's family deeply lingered in Xiaoxue's heart.
With disappointment and dependence on her biological mother, Xiaoxue followed her mother back to her family for a year and a half. In this year and a half, Xiaoxue and Ye Feng quarreled constantly, mostly because of their in-laws, but the key point is that Xiaoxue has seen in his heart that Ye Feng is a child who is not weaned, and he is afraid of his parents.
In the name of the child, Ye Feng can't make decisions, but also listen to his parents; Next is the child's hukou. Xiaoxue hopes that the child can go to her hukou to facilitate the child's study. Ye Feng has been slow to tell her parents because of fear; Later, my in-laws kept letting Xiaoxue go back and said that she could help with the children. Xiaoxue is angry. However, what have they paid for more than a year? When she needed help most, her mother-in-law called her stupid. When she needed help, her in-laws said they wouldn't take the children. Now that she is older, she is urged to go home to accompany her children for three days. Her quarrel with Ye Feng became more and more fierce. She filed for divorce, but he was angry.
The next day, Ye Feng asked Xiaoxue from time to time if she wanted to take her children home. She knew very well that his father wanted him to ask, and he was afraid of his father. Persuaded by her parents, she went back. She has been back for three months, and her heart is still cold. She watches her mother-in-law play mahjong and her father-in-law play cards every day. Sometimes she can't control her temper and yell at her in-laws. She also explained the situation to Ye Feng, but Ye Feng also dropped it.
When she needed him to protect and love with courage, he chose cowardice again and again. Her heart is full of holes, already cold, and can no longer be covered with heat.
When the child grows up, many previous quarrels are solved one by one, but Xiaoxue feels that she can never go back to fall in love with the man who once made her crazy. Ye Feng always cares about Xiaoxue and her children tenderly, but she can never walk into her heart again!
Later, I met Xiaoxue. She looks haggard. We talked a lot that day, but I clearly remember her saying:
? A broken mirror is hard to round. Not loving is not loving. If love is broken, it can't be repaired. Even if it's fixed, it's not the same!