I never thought that my grandfather's favorite person would be my grandmother.
This may not sound right, but no matter what I think, there are too many people in front of my grandmother.
For example, my mother, my grandfather, has always preferred girls to boys, which makes him afraid of falling. He always hoped that the moon would never pick stars. When my father chased my mother, he came to see me because it was a long-distance relationship and sat on the bench for a month. Finally, the face saint only had one sentence, "Hum, don't be nice to my daughter, I'll break your leg."
For example, if I spoil my mother with discipline, then my grandfather will only spoil me like a deep pool. In his words, discipline is a matter for parents, and grandpa uses it as a coquetry. So my mother often loses her temper because of my grandfather's cover-up, and my grandfather is not annoyed. I'll coax this side first and then appease it, as if I enjoyed it.
And my grandmother, my grandmother has always been gentle and introverted.
When my mother and I had a big fight and my grandfather laughed in front of me, grandma always sat on the sofa and looked at us with a smile, her hands crossed on her knees. Either there is a half-knitted scarf or an old book lying flat, and even the smile on her mouth is faint, like an ink landscape painting, which is scattered when the wind blows.
So when my mother said, come back early, my grandfather has Alzheimer's disease, and he almost forgot about it, but only remembered my grandmother, I didn't believe it.
I took a long vacation and bought the latest flight back to China. Dad came to pick me up. I looked him in the eye and wished he would burst out laughing. Grandpa jumped out from behind me and said loudly, "It's just that Grandpa misses you and wants you to come back and have a look."
It's a pity that dad's sigh seems to come from the deepest part of his chest. "Don't worry too much. The old man is in good health now, but he forgets things. "
When I arrived at the hospital, just as I was about to open the ward door, my grandfather came out, his eyes flashed on my face, and he turned around and said to my grandmother, "Xiang Juan, let's go. Don't listen to that big sister's nonsense. I will go with you. "
Dad and I were blocked at the door, and grandpa couldn't get out. I looked in. My grandmother's always peaceful face looked complicated, while my mother turned away behind, not knowing whether to cry or laugh. Before I had time to understand the situation, I was gently pushed by my grandfather. "Elder sister, get out of the way and make way."
Suddenly, my tears also came out.
I was brought up by my grandfather. He always likes to hold my nose and call me "little girl", "bad baby" and "silly girl".
I didn't expect that one day, I would become someone else's "big sister".
02
My mother is always the best.
She quickly controlled the situation and let grandma take grandpa downstairs for a stroll, and my dad followed.
Then she took me to sit down and told me everything.
Grandpa just felt old at first, and his memory was getting worse and worse. Grandma realized that something was wrong when she found that he had left his wallet at the food stall several times in a row and forgot to go to the vegetable market.
The hospital was diagnosed soon. Grandpa shut himself in the study for a long time. When he came out, he told his parents and uncle, don't tell me yet, let me study abroad well, and he will treat me first.
However, the treatment result is not ideal. His memory decays rapidly. First, he forgot what he said just three minutes ago, and soon even the people around him forgot. "He still knows your grandmother, and he often feels that he was only three years old when he first got married, so he doesn't know me now, and he often asks your grandmother to accompany him to pick up the children."
"Your grandfather doesn't believe that I am his Tingting, and he still calls me Big Sister". His mother smiled briefly. "Or he thinks that your father and I are neighbors and live next door to them."
I didn't know how to respond, so I reached out awkwardly and took my mother into my arms. My mother didn't speak, her head gently rested on my shoulder, and only her breathing was wet.
I stayed in the hospital for a while and cried several times, and gradually I didn't dare to listen to the doctor's instructions every time.
Alzheimer's disease used to be a terrible disease. After losing memory, cognitive impairment and mental disorder will follow. I can't believe that an optimistic grandfather will become a patient who can't even speak or brush his teeth.
I had to hide in the ward and stay with my grandfather all the time, even though he didn't remember me.
Most of the time, he calls me "big sister".
"Elder sister, you also come to our Hunan? Wait a minute, I'll call her. " "Elder sister, which family are you from? I don't think you are married. "
At first, I will patiently explain "I am your little girl, I am back, I am sorry", but gradually, I began to make up with him. I'm next door. Come and get an egg and lend me the best soy sauce.
Grandma always laughs at me. I was happy to hear a little laughter in the ward, but I was also a little jealous.
Grandpa doesn't remember me, he doesn't remember mom, he only remembers grandma, his Xiang Juan.
03
Grandparents are old-fashioned marriages. As far as I can remember, they are always respectful. Grandma is very gentle and doesn't talk much. Although grandpa always teases us, she is very disciplined with her.
Two people don't talk much together. Grandpa always said, "Tell your grandmother to have dinner", never swore intimately, and never walked together.
As a result, grandpa was ill, but all this was done with ease.
I am the "big sister" in his eyes, so I am often left aside to watch him pester my grandmother. "Xiang Juan, do you have a crush on the cabinet? If you really want it, I will buy it, and I will use it in the future anyway. "
Grandma looked at grandpa and didn't know whether to sigh or say anything. After dinner, she patted his hand. "No, the baby will be born soon. I really just think it looks good and I don't want it so much. "
"Xiang Juan, do you think Tingting will forget me? She had a good time at her grandfather's house. I go several times a month, and she grows so fast that she will definitely forget it. "
"No, she has a good memory. You forget that she can't bear to let you go every time, and she has to chase the corner and finally be taken back by my dad. " Grandma is very gentle and patiently answers grandpa's repeated questions over and over again
And the most mindless question is always that-"Xiang Juan, if you want to go, I'll go with you. I'm sure I can find it, okay? "
Grandma always answers this question very simply and firmly, "I'm not going anywhere, right here."
I heard it so many times that I couldn't help asking my mother when I went home to change clothes.
Mother is cooking soup in the kitchen, in a trance in the steam and aroma. She smiled and said, "It's not really a secret. Your grandmother liked someone before she got married. When she met him, she went to get married. As a result, the man followed his relatives to other places, and there was no news at all, and the news was unreasonable. Two years later, your grandmother's family kissed your grandfather's. Although there was no publicity at the time, your grandfather probably knew about it. "
"Ah, grandpa is really crazy, so grandma, do you like grandpa these years?"
"You watch too many TV plays." My mother gave me a hand when she turned around. "I don't like where you think three children come from. Do you think that giving birth at that time was as easy and simple as it is now! "
I went crazy, waiting for dinner to go to the hospital, and grandma went home to rest. I accompanied my grandfather for a walk downstairs in the hospital.
Probably my grandmother gave him to me, and my grandfather cooperated especially and even chatted with me.
"Where did Xiang Juan go?"
"She went home to rest and will come back tomorrow."
"I know she wants to go, it doesn't matter, she will go." Grandpa looked at the sky and said to himself, and immediately seemed to forget what he said. "No, I have to accompany him. I am not at ease. "
I couldn't help it for a moment, quietly tempted, "What if she goes to find him and doesn't come back?"
Grandpa turned to look at me for the first time. I paused. I saw a small me in his eyes. He looked at me deeply, as if studying who I am, and as if he was just thinking about his own business. But he soon laughed. This is the smile I have known since I was a child. I am confident, cunning and optimistic. "No, I like Xiang Juan, and Xiang Juan likes me, I know."
04
I didn't expect grandpa to start, even grandma didn't remember.
At first, he looked at his grandmother in confusion from time to time. "Who are you?" But then he remembered. But soon, he began to know no one.
The treatment in the hospital has come to an end temporarily. On the day of discharge, I was originally pulling my grandfather, and he suddenly broke away from me and walked beside my grandmother. "Excuse me, have I seen you somewhere?"
Grandma just froze for a second, then smiled and held grandpa's hand tightly. "Yes, we are married and we are going home now."
Grandpa is probably confused, muttering something in a low voice, but he also obediently follows.
I followed, feeling my eyes red again.
After returning home, grandpa seems to be more relieved.
He still can't remember us, so I have to comfort myself. Grandpa seems to have a constantly restarting life, still shuttling between different time periods from time to time.
But he always repeats the same thing every once in a while.
He always says to his grandmother at some time every day, "Excuse me, have I seen you somewhere?"
Grandma's answer is always the same. I once laughed at my grandfather. "This way of chatting up is too old-fashioned."
Until one day, I fell asleep on the sofa watching TV. When I woke up, I saw my grandfather and grandmother sitting on the sofa by the window. My grandmother is knitting a sweater, and my grandfather is very stupid. Suddenly, I said to my grandmother, "Hello, have I seen you somewhere?"
This time, grandma suddenly smiled gently. She tilted her head slightly, looked at her grandfather and whispered, "Yes, you forgot. You saw me in front of the orange stand. You said I was wearing a light yellow coat and there was a red flower in the corner. Very beautiful. I bought an orange, you help me pick it up. You fell in love with me at first sight. You said it yourself, you forgot. "
Grandma is not young, but I don't know why. From her smile, I saw her dressed in a trance and bought oranges in the bustling crowd. Grandpa must have seen it, too, because he smiled. "It's beautiful."
"You ask me every day, you must have forgotten."
"I didn't forget, you look good." Grandpa answered with a smile. I don't even know for a moment whether grandpa was confused after his illness or really remembered it.
But I immediately felt that it didn't matter, because grandma gently took grandpa's hand and whispered like a little girl saying sweet words, "It doesn't matter if you forget. I remember everything, and I will help you remember it."
I closed my eyes, tried to breathe evenly, lay pretending to sleep, and couldn't bear to destroy time.
I don't know why this menacing illness came to grandpa, and I don't know how it will end, but I know that we will always be together, even if life changes greatly.
Grandpa will not walk alone in the empty world, because he can meet his girl again when he wakes up every day, and Qian Qian fell in love with her for the first time.
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