My name is Su Xiaojuan. My sister and I live in Qiantang, Zhejiang.
I don't remember how our sisters lived in the Red Chamber. All I know is that my 15-year-old sister has a lark-like singing voice. Her songs are euphemistic, which can make listeners stop and make birds hover.
My sister taught me to read when I was young, and accompanied me to practice antithesis poems. I can also play the guzheng well.
My sister never forced me to practice six arts, but blood stains often pop up on her hands. I feel distressed and always want to do more for her, so no matter how praised by the guests in the Red Chamber, I still practice hard every day and dare not slack off.
Because the last time my hand ached and cried, my sister held me in her arms and said something, which I dare not forget in my life.
She said, "We can't compare with others. If we can't strengthen ourselves, we will be trampled under the feet of those graceful guests downstairs and will never turn over in this life. Sister, I want you to be happy. "
I dare not imagine this picture, but I saw my sister's tears, which fell like pearls and made me remember this sentence. My sister is always kind to me.
Slowly, I know what I will step on, not my face.
Aunt Zhang next door rudely dragged Qin Xiao home because I gave Qin Xiao the flowers I picked early.
Aunt Zhang said, "Flowers are poisonous." I grabbed the flower branches and threw them into the ditch. I stepped on them and kicked them into the ditch. She really stepped on my heart and kicked it into the ditch.
Qin Xiao will look at me and smile under the back window and show me her embroidery, but try to avoid Aunt Zhang for fear that she will know that we are good friends. This kind of peach fruit is edible. How can it be toxic?
Why are all the guests downstairs kissing our ass, but Aunt Zhang next door won't let Qin Xiao associate with me?
I went back to ask my sister before I understood the status gap between a happy family and a good family.
My sister said, "You must be a good man. My sister can change your good record with her life. She has changed it for you with her life.
What I don't know is that my sister really changed my identity with her life.
02
My sister has a lover named Zhao, who is a great student.
My sister has been confiscating his tea money, and most of the money collected by Song Station has been given to Zhao Dage.
Brother Zhao has a good literary talent and often gives me advice on poetry. My sister believes that Brother Zhao will definitely win the bid, and being an official can help me and my sister get rid of the registration. Brother Zhao is willing to be funded by his sister, but he doesn't take his sister as an outsider. I have recognized this brother-in-law for a long time
Fortunately, Zhao Dage lived up to expectations, and soon he will be in high school, waiting to be admitted by his sister.
Sister closed the stage, packed up her private money, and waited to take off her registration and follow Zhao Dage. However, Zhao Dage's divorce for our sister didn't go well. I heard that my sister's reputation is so great that no one can pick up anything.
Brother Zhao discussed this matter with his sister in private, and I couldn't understand it. But I heard that the reason why the government didn't approve my sister's official position was actually my sister's entertainment in government agencies, because without my sister, I couldn't find the right person to accept the inspection by the superior.
Zhao Dage wrote one letter after another, but he couldn't find a better relationship at the moment, but in a blink of an eye, he received a notice to release the official and went to Xiangyang to be a manager.
I can't get away from my official position, and my sister can't follow Zhao Dage to take office.
When seeing off at the ferry, my sister said to Brother Zhao, "I'm so tired of this reputation that I can't earn a clue. I will win the future for my sister. If you cherish me, you won't let my sister divorce fail. "
Brother Zhao cried goodbye to his sister and said to her, "If you don't hesitate to die, whose life will I save?" If you wait for me, I will live in the same cave with you when I die. "
My sister went back to the Red Chamber to see Fujian, and gradually described herself as thin, and the days when she could get up and see flowers were getting less and less.
I advised my sister to cheer up, but my sister smiled and said to me, "Good sister, I can't get rid of this reputation. I will drag you into the official office for life." It is better to die early, and then your brother Zhao will mediate, which will definitely make your family better. " As long as you leave this fun place at the mercy of others, you have the right to choose your own husband and sister. Believe me, you have studied six arts and can handle people well. You will have a good future, and you must live well for your sister. "
My sister's breathing is unstable. After a short rest, she said like a dream, "A good book is just a piece of paper. What you want to fight for is the nobility in your heart. How low our heads are, how high our hearts can fly. "
03
I cried my eyes red and swollen, but I couldn't stop my sister's death.
There's nothing I can do. I wrote a letter to my brother-in-law, but it turned out to be a death warrant for my brother-in-law.
When my sister didn't fall, all the affairs were handled by my sister. When my sister was ill, I had to receive visitors myself.
A businessman was diving. He came to see me several times. I served tea once. I am a stupid person. I can't be a lover and I don't want to socialize. I just shirked that my sister was seriously ill and needed to be served, and refused to stay.
Unexpectedly, a few days later, my sister said that she would have sex with Zhao Dage, but she died. My soul followed my sister before and after the maid took care of my affairs.
Then, in my sister's mourning hall, I was taken into the office by the public. However, it was the shallow businessman who paid for the drinks with the official thick, because he hated me for shirking and didn't keep him, and his red mouth and white teeth slandered me for taking the official thick.
I didn't take it, so I was put in prison.
A few days later, an official took me out again.
The two gentlemen in the class are strangers, and one of them gave me a letter with four poems: "At that time, Dongwu famous prostitute town was poor in money and had to book it. Excuse me, is Su Xiaoxiao in Qiantang as romantic as the Great Soviet Union? "
As soon as I saw it was a love letter, I replied four sentences in class with the secretary's pen: "You live in Xiangjiang, my concubine is in Wu, and heartless people send love letters." If you came to visit in the past, would there be more? "
I'd like to hear my defense when I get back to the office. Finally, I actually took off my registration and got rid of the official debt.
It was a court judge who gave me a poem and brought news of Brother Zhao.
It was the day my sister left, and Zhao Dage also drove the crane to the west. He entrusted the money to his brother who was sentenced to hospital, asked him to bring it to our sister, and entrusted him to help me get rid of music anyway.
The judge of this court is Zhao Dage's brother-in-law, also surnamed Zhao, and my later husband.
I gave birth to a son and a daughter with my sister's expectation.
04
Postscript:
Death is not the opposite of life, but a part of life. My sister lived comfortably with her expectations.
In this sister flower story in Feng Menglong's three words and two beats, my sister fights for her happiness by dying. Look at the movie prototype girl turned out online, there is a little gap.
No comparison, no harm. Also a sister. Why is there such a big difference between ancient and modern times? Maybe times are different, people's choices will be different, but the love hidden in blood will not change regardless of the changes of the times.
It can only be said that my sister and my two-year-old brother who live in online saliva are really not related by blood.
Women in feudal society want to dig out some waves, mostly in music. Music is a government-certified prostitute. Why does this government certify prostitutes? It turns out that in this spring and autumn period, Qi Huangong set up a flower street in his palace, and let Guan Zhong gather 700 women to live in it to make money and pay for it. Later, when everyone knew about it, this trend spread.
This prostitute set up in Qi Huangong refers to the official prostitute, namely Le Shu.
In the old society, women's status was not high, and most women were kept at home and were not allowed to work. Without the right to do things, there is no right to speak at home, so if you don't meet your lover, it will increase your pain. What is more bitter than this is a woman who is a musician. Everyone can step on one foot and have no social status.
Then why do people still enter Le Shu? Family members who commit crimes and families who can't live. There was no family planning in ancient times, and there were indeed many children who were kept and not sold, and family members who committed crimes also accounted for a certain proportion.
But most women who can live a human life are in brothels. It is this woman who can let the literati leave pen and ink. Why? Because even a woman who can read a brothel is not a little talented. The more people you meet, the higher your EQ will be, so people who come here will not suffer anywhere.
Although the two sisters entered Le Shu, they were originally bureaucratic families with a high starting point and many people came to spend money with them, so they became famous. After all, I was born in a good family. Without those dusty trap habits, I can finally live as I please.
On the other hand, morality can never be used for kidnapping, and your standard is only what you think. Whether she will interpret life according to your standards will always be her own right.
May everyone get what they want.