Depression is quite common. Cui Yongyuan and Sammi Cheng both suffered from psychological colds. If you have any questions, you don't need to see a counselor. You need to establish your complete social support system. With the support of this system, there is little chance that you will die young.
First, strengthen contact with family and friends. Second, join interested clubs and organizations. Third, trust others, which is especially critical for you. Conversation can be treated. Four, keep a diary of personal difficulties, five, keep a pet, six, find a compassionate person, and seven, consider getting married.
I think you still have some basic problems to solve. You don't know your strengths, you don't pursue what you want to do in the future, and your life ideal has not been established. You may need to read some self-help books, but I suggest you read books on humanism, understand Maslow's five-layer demand model and accept some humanistic philosophy. Although you can't guarantee that you won't fall out of the pit, you will be taught how to climb out.