* * The first poem * *
On the boundless shore
How many people will continue in our footsteps?
Go on with the story we didn't end.
Even the phone is still.
The names we used to call each other.
Sad memories
Only in narrative
No amount of tears can pass.
Whenever the memory returns to the scene of meeting and knowing each other.
Found that I didn't keep up at all
Become pale with the passage of time
So I'm not sad.
-I'm happy.
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Feifei and I met online, and we met after chatting all night. The first sentence of meeting Feifei smiled and said to me:
"You really look like a movie star!" -
Feifei dragged me for a day, from her school to my school, from morning till night, Feifei was reluctant to leave. Feifei told me:
This is called "love at first sight".
Feifei and I suddenly changed from two strangers to lovers who stuck together all day. Feifei is as happy as a bird.
Feifei took me to show it to each of her classmates and friends, smiled and introduced to them that this was her "movie star" boyfriend, so two shallow dimples appeared on her cheeks.
From then on, whenever I think of Feifei's face, the two dimples that she laughed at will always appear in front of my eyes first. )
Feifei and I sat side by side. Feifei wants to hear a story about me and my ex-girlfriend.
Speaking of tears, Feifei leaned over and hugged me, kissed my face and said, "Stop thinking about her, now you have me …" So I hugged her, too.
(Later Feifei told me: She hopes she can make me happy! )
Feifei and I quarreled for the first time.
Feifei came to me. Feifei said that she came to me because she was uneasy about things at home. I said I wasn't her pastime when she was sad. Feifei is angry that I won't hurt her. She wants to leave. I said, then you go. Feifei burst into tears and grabbed my coat feet. Feifei cried and said, I love her the most in the world except her parents. She wants me to be kind and love her.
I took Feifei's hand, and I said, "Good!"
Feifei and I celebrated my birthday for the first time.
Feifei faces her hometown and brother for the first time. Feifei put away her crazy temper and was gentle and considerate in front of my classmates.
I know, the message Feifei wants to convey to me is that she loves me and she can take care of me.
Feifei and I spent Christmas together for the first time.
Feifei just bought a lot of dishes and threw them to me to squat in the kitchen, and then happily sat at the table waiting for dinner. When I cooked some half-baked dishes with unfamiliar hands and served them on the table, Feifei ate two bowls of rice in a row and then came up to me and said, "Delicious! Surprisingly, my husband's craft is not bad-"
Feifei and I broke up for the first time.
Feifei called me at midnight 12 in her school dormitory and said that she knew she was wrong. She will come to my school and find me at my place. I don't allow or believe it, because it takes more than 40 minutes by car from her school to my school, and there is no bus so late. Feifei doesn't care, Feifei hangs up the phone. When I was so anxious that I couldn't help calling her dormitory again, Feifei was already standing at my door and knocking at my door.
(That night, Feifei's courage as a girl who defends love deeply touched me, and the hurried and expected knock on the door still shook my heart. Up to now, every time I hear the sound of knocking at the door, I am happy to think that Feifei has come to me. )
Feifei likes to lie in my bed all day, curl up in the quilt and read novels, and refuses to get up when eating. She asked me to go out and buy rice myself, and then brought it to her and fed it to her bite by bite. After eating, she pouted and asked me to wipe it with a towel, and then continued to get into bed and read novels.
In the days to come, whenever I mentioned this and laughed at her laziness, Feifei said, "I just like to see you busy when you take care of me, because you spoil me the most!" " "
So I continue to spoil my Feifei. I never feel tired. I just feel so sweet in my heart )
I made a mistake when I was with Feifei for the first time.
I lied about meeting a girl and didn't tell Feifei. Feifei knows that she wants me to apologize to her later, but I refuse to apologize. I said I didn't regret that she didn't make a mistake. Feifei ran away crying. This time, I didn't catch up with her, and she didn't come back for me.
Feifei found a little boy who is very deceitful to accompany her to go shopping and comfort herself. She is also angry with me. So Feifei failed the CET-4 again. I pulled Feifei and the boy out, scolded the boy and told him to fuck off. I slapped Feifei angrily for the first time, and then walked away. Feifei is so sad. Feifei said she couldn't believe I would hit her. Feifei said that she was still reluctant to leave me.
I've been thinking: was that slap in Feifei's face or in my heart? )
Feifei and I are still together. We continue to laugh and fight. Until time flies, I graduated.
I moved my family to her school and spent the last year of college with her. Because I still can't live without her, and she can't live without me. Feifei said that as long as she comes to my house, my door and my side, she doesn't have to think about anything, she doesn't want anything. Even if she has another pimple on her face today, all she has to do is tell me and lie down on my leg and let me help her clean it up, and then wait for me to tell her whether she is fat or not today and whether she is beautiful or not. Every time I can't help holding her little face, she always says to me:
"You are not allowed to help other girls squeeze acne, but I applied for a patent!"
Feifei also graduated and moved to her new home for a year.
Stubborn and strong Feifei refused my help in finding a job and found a foreign-funded enterprise with less rest and high work intensity on impulse. We see each other less and less, and her people are getting more and more neurotic because of work pressure.
Until I saw her again one day, I found that she had become as unreasonable and elusive as a hedgehog with thorns. She told me that the environment forced her to become like this. Besides, she can't bear my love anymore.
Only then did I realize that she was not the Feifei in front of me, and I could never find my beloved Feifei again.
I was waiting for Feifei to call me suddenly one day, and then one night Feifei knocked on my door again and told me:
She wants to go home.