On July 6th and 7th, at the World Funeral Home in Hung Hom, Kowloon, Hong Kong, I and thousands of colleagues from home and abroad attended Master Huo’s funeral with a heavy heart.
I never thought this day would come! However, this day has come so truly! From Zhaoqing to Shenzhen and then to Hong Kong, I finally arrived at the Hung Hom World Funeral Home. While searching, I turned around and accidentally caught a glimpse of the familiar portrait of Mr. Huo in the middle of the auditorium of the funeral home. My heart was shocked, and I suddenly felt an indescribable pain.
Walking in solemnly, I saw that the huge auditorium was solemnly decorated with snow-white curtains. Along the corners of the auditorium was a circle of densely packed wreaths of condolences. The name of the unit or person is written on it; on the wall, there are also several huge couplets hanging, which say, "Mr. Tao Hui is eternal! - Theory and practice go hand in hand, education and influence shine in life - Wei Zhengtong pays homage to him." There is a saying: "My brother Tao Hui will be forever! - Aspiring to be a sage, aiming at the history of history, working hard, there should be no regrets in this life; with the spirit of a Bodhisattva, the heart will never be tired, the teachings will last forever, and the world will be bright - brothers Tang Duanzheng and Feng Xiaofangjing "Professor Tao Hui will go through the ages! ——Return to the roots and create new things, dare to unite hundreds of schools to achieve great things; work hard, but still have a regret and look forward to rejuvenation", there is a saying "Mr. Tao Hui will last through the ages!" - Tao Lue through the ages! , read the books of sages, understand the seals of the east and west, rejoice in life; conceal the sun and moon, inherit the will of heaven and earth, follow Confucianism, Taoism and Buddhism, and live in the world with Dharma - my brother Lin Anwu pays tribute"... Next to the portrait of Master Huo, there are two One couplet is, "The Dharma lives in the nine realms every day, and love penetrates every inch of the human world." The other is, "The immortal name of the Dharma lives, and I will see Tao Guang forever." The more carefully I read these two pairs, the more I feel that there is a strong meaning in them. A kind of wisdom and affection that seems to open people's eyes wide at once, and see the vast and far-reaching world; Master Huo's vivid heart seems to be beating thumpingly in the lines of this couplet. .
Open the "Memorial Collection of Professor Huo Taohui" and read it one by one. My heart rises and falls with the commemorative words of each senior to Teacher Huo; when I read the words of Teacher Zhang Jing Let’s talk about Master Huo’s final teaching to her - "Have courage and don’t be afraid of death! Only then can you inherit the cause of Fa Zhu. Didn’t I talk about the spirit of Chinese scholars? Be selfless and support history!" When the words "I'm not afraid of death" stood out, tears rolled down uncontrollably. I seemed to feel the powerful vitality in Master Huo's thin body! In the face of difficulties, in the face of illness, in the face of death, countless people have become timid, retreated, and fallen. However, Master Huo has been so stubborn and has continued to move forward. The power and position is just because I have a deep wish in my heart, which is a great love for Chinese culture and a great love for all people in the world. I forget myself, I don’t have myself, and all I want to achieve is others. ——"Don't be afraid of death!" Very personally and vividly, I was exposed to the inferiority complex, powerlessness, luck, compromise, and contentment that I would show in my heart in the past. Figure, to escape from facing one's own heart. It turns out that I am such a person! It turns out that I went the wrong way! Face yourself! Face difficulties! Head on! Don’t be afraid of being weak, don’t be afraid of falling, and never give up! ——Suddenly, I saw a new road. Although it was long, if I walked on it so firmly, I would be able to reach the other end and reach Master Huo's heart. Suddenly, the erotic song "Waiting" was playing in my ears. "Although you have gone far away, I feel that you are waiting in front..." Ah, Master Huo is waiting, it turns out that this is how you are waiting for me to go on the road, waiting for me to arrive! Alas!
When you turn to the latest issue of "Dharma Lantern", the front page is the "Wishes" written by Master Huo on the night of January 31 this year:
? ? 1. Wishes The cause of Dharma abiding will be carried forward all over the world; the great cause of modernizing Buddhist thought can be realized in my lifetime and begin to take shape;
2. I hope that Chinese traditional culture will be truly revived and its spirit will not be misunderstood or misinterpreted. Chinese studies are the foundation of the country The learning of learning, the learning of establishing people, and the learning of foundation.
Reading and being a human being are inseparable, bringing culture back to life. Only reading can cultivate one's temperament;
3. May I be healthy for the rest of my life, have enough vitality to realize my ideals, implement my original intention, sort out the most important classics, and teach Students who are ambitious and have the great desire to inherit history and culture;
4. May I be cheerful and not care about the kindness and resentment of those who hurt me, scolded me, slandered me, and slandered me in the past, yes Right and wrong. When people's hearts are bright, there will be no trouble in the world;
5. May I be like Maitreya Buddha, with a big belly that can accommodate it. All living beings who study, practice, practice and struggle with me can do the same;
6. May the gods bless me and may my wishes come true!
As I read one by one, tears rolled down again quietly. It turns out that Master Huo’s wishes are so great and his love is so deep! Behind his life-like temperament, he also encountered so many difficulties! However, he overflowed with real life cultivation, allowing me to see with my own eyes how a solemn person was manifested in flesh and blood in reality. This excitement and admiration, in the words of Zeng Zi, is that "the rivers and Han are washed away, and the autumn sun is violent, it is so bright that it is almost impossible to stop it"! I also seem to feel that life is about spending time in difficulties, facing difficulties, and turning difficulties into fertile soil to nourish your heart and make your heart become more broad, glorious, gentle, and powerful day by day. ! The whole world is talking about too much hesitation with reality and desires, but I have also witnessed the flesh and blood existence of "real people"! When I saw the article in "Dharma Lamp" that recorded Master Huo's last days of fighting the disease with pictures and text, I felt a violent tremor in my heart! Master Huo suddenly seemed like a kind grandfather next door. He looked ordinary in the hospital ward and was no different from other patients. However, his eyes would always project a kind of fortitude, a kind of warmth, and a kind of strength. When his eyes met, it seemed that he could see deeply into his heart. In an instant, all the flies and dogs in his heart suddenly disappeared, and were absorbed into his bright and broad heart, along with his My heart beat together.
The article said that Master Huo was diagnosed with cancer on June 2 last year. His disciples were stunned, but he calmly comforted his disciples and said, "keep a normal mind"; while he was hospitalized at Queen Mary Hospital in Hong Kong at that time , he still kept writing every day, but his family and colleagues tried to dissuade him, but he said, "If you don't work for a day, you won't eat for a day." During a course in Singapore in September last year, Master Huo's foot was seriously infected and it was difficult to walk. He used a wheelchair instead at the airport. However, during the next four days of classes, he refused to be supported and endured severe pain to walk into the lecture hall. In May this year, Master Huo's body deteriorated sharply during treatment at the China-Japan Friendship Hospital in Beijing. After a frightening struggle with death and finally victory, the disciples cried with joy. Teacher Caring said, "I thought you gave up," but Teacher Huo said weakly and calmly, "I have never given up." When a guest visiting Teacher Huo wanted to write his best wishes for Teacher Huo in the guest book before leaving, At that time, Teacher Huo said sincerely, "Don't write to me, but thank the hospital." When antibodies appeared in Teacher Huo's blood, it was difficult to find a matching blood source. Students from all over the country donated blood one after another, and finally obtained a precious and scarce blood source. After overcoming the difficulty, Master Huo learned about it, supported his weak body, and tried his best to say clearly one word "Thank you to everyone who saved me"... His tears gradually blurred, showing respect, shame, and... Regret, countless concepts in the past have been knocked down one after another, but it has truly touched a bright, broad, warm and powerful heart! What do you want in life? It turns out that I just pray that I can have such a heart! Teacher Huo passed away, and the unmotivated student who had always been out of touch with reality, sometimes distracted by concepts, sometimes confused by reality, and sometimes trapped by desires, finally came to his senses. During the funeral, I cried! I sob! I'm in pain! It seems that I have been searching in my previous life, and after a lot of hard work, I finally found Master Huo in this life, just like the disciples of Confucius were looking for their teacher. However, in just five years, we were separated again, and once we were separated, I didn’t know where to go. It will be thousands of kalpas and tens of thousands of kalpas before we can meet Master Huo face to face again. The pain of life and death turns out to be so cruel and miserable! Alas! "What's the point of dying? I support my body in the same mountain.
"However, what has disappeared is Master Huo's body, and what is immortal is Master Huo's spirit! In the words, in the recordings, in the pictures, what shines is the consistent light of Master Huo's life! It touched my heart in an instant, Feeling a kind of strength, a kind of thickness, a kind of state, and truly rippling in my heart, enriching myself, cheering myself up, improving myself, Master Huo is alive at this moment, and he is not separated from you - so It says, "The Immortal Name lives forever, and I will see Tao Guang forever." I have been crying and suffering for more than a month, lamenting the absence of Master Huo, and pitying my own poor fortune. Today, I finally feel the great pain of being separated from yin and yang. Even though it is impermanent, it cannot cut off the true connection between two hearts - because: "The Dharma lives in the nine realms every day, and love penetrates every inch of the human world" - Master Huo! It turns out you are here! Here!
Don’t ask for help from others, don’t blame God, but be solemn and independent!
In the quiet night! , looking up, I seemed to see Master Huo in the distance, still so confident and affectionate, looking back and smiling...