"I was forced to do something I didn't like, and I was a little ashamed psychologically, and I couldn't even get through the checkpoint."
She said, "Why can't people communicate sincerely? It seems that they have to bring some lies to survive in society. "
She told me about her sister:
My senior, who used to work in a department, now works as an intermediary. There is no basic salary for that job, but the commission is particularly high. It is to introduce people to the electronics factory at the bus station, and you can get a high commission by introducing a person.
There was another senior who had sex with my schoolmaster before, but that senior couldn't get past the threshold psychologically and felt a little deceptive. So I found a relatively easy administrative job; But every time two people eat, the senior who is an intermediary invites her to eat, because the administrative work can't support herself, and finally comes back to be an intermediary.
Miss Z said, "In fact, that factory is not deceptive, but it is not as good as what they told us. What kind of job will pay off after a period of time? In fact, there is no such thing, just to reduce the turnover rate of employees; I want to cooperate with my seniors for a period of time, but there is always a shadow in my heart and I feel sorry for others ... "
Miss Z is an intern in a newly-started company, and she has no basic salary. It is difficult for a newcomer like her to get the list.
Although I think my job is good and I want to challenge myself, the company won't even give me a normal meal. Without a list, you can't get a salary, and you can't even support yourself. Finally, I made up my mind to resign. I submitted my resume for a few days and interviewed for a few days, and there was nothing suitable for me to do. ...
Calculate that Miss Z has been looking for a job for three or four days. In order to comfort her, I couldn't help but say wryly, "You've only been here for a few days. I found a job that I can do first in nearly ten days. " When I said this, I was surprised that I could say it so lightly. I suddenly remembered when I was looking for a job. I don't really want to find a job that matches my major, but I just want to find something I want to do. ....
At that time, it seemed that many people were excluded, and people would be a little numb and nervous. I talked to a friend on the phone about my situation. She said: "If you want to enter that kind of unit, you have to have someone. Don't you think xx will go in? " When I heard this sentence, the emotion I had accumulated for a long time seemed to burst out, but I finally endured it.
It's easy to find a job, but sometimes it's difficult to find a job that suits you and makes you satisfied. ...
I seem to vaguely remember that my father once told me that "people can't live forever, and sometimes they still need to tell some lies."
I didn't quite understand this sentence at that time. I don't know why I gave it to Miss Z when I was chatting with her that night.
At the beginning, we said that "we can only achieve our ultimate goal if we don't forget our active attitude", but now it seems a bit melodramatic. In the current words, some "patterns" are not big enough (of course, the current pattern is not big enough); When we are young, we will say that we want to be inventors, writers, teachers and painters. ...
There was a popular joke on the Internet: "When I was a child, I often couldn't make up my mind whether to go to Tsinghua or Peking University in the future;" When I grow up, I find that I think too much, and some jokes are very true.
Mr. Z said to me, "I said when I was a child that I wanted to be an inventor when I grew up." Now I have dozens of national patents and several inventions. It seems so. I don't know if I am an inventor. Is there any specific standard for the word "inventor" ... "
In the past, we always said, "We should live the life we want, but sometimes we don't know or never really locate what we want to live, which is extremely ridiculous." I can only be vain in reality and feel sorry for myself. ...
Or busy without a goal, move yourself like a fool; Or use the so-called empty "expectation appearance" to escape the scars of reality, not to remedy, not to work hard, just to use excuses to find reasons to continue decadence.
Live as you wish includes not only the future, but also the present reality and the relieved past.
Just like a sentence in The Reader: Our lives are layered, and the next layer is next to the next, so that we always touch the old traces of the past in fresh experiences, and the past is neither completely intact nor retired, but vividly exists in the present reality.
I stayed up late reading a book about travel, in the late gap year. This is a young man who works hard in Guangzhou. In order to find what seems to be missing in his life, he started his own gap year, from the original planned three months to thirteen months, from the original planned destination country India to a trip across Asia, from Macau to Thailand, Yunnan, Laos, Myanmar, India, Pakistan, Xinjiang, Tibet and Nepal.
I have been thinking about what seems to be missing in my life during my walking journey. I want to really know myself and what I want. ...
What impressed me the most was the farewell speech given to the younger generation by a China businessman who was over half a century old. "Life, don't think too much, we are all mortals."
One is 15-year-old traveler Nomiko said, "If you keep walking, you are constantly experiencing different cultures and then constantly adapting to that culture, but if you stay in one place for a long time, you may find your position better, but you can't find the answer when you travel. It will only make you have more choices, even more confused, but it is totally worth it.
When I close this book, I think of the words of my predecessors and Naomi, and I seem to have a feeling of returning to nature. Perhaps the so-called "gap year" is not only to give yourself a late answer, but also to give the simplest definition of life in the form of a sermon.
If one day you live a life you hate, I think it only exists in the past ... past, present and future are a complete whole life. We constantly revise our walking trajectory in life, and there will be moments when we hate ourselves and days when we worship ourselves.