Before the Republic of China, the way of "reading" was not favored by ordinary people, and it was a patent that only large families could enjoy; For ordinary people, as long as they learn a craft, they can keep their future generations from worrying about food and clothing all their lives.
So, "I" followed my parents' arrangement to be an apprentice paperhanger.
During my years as an apprentice, I not only mastered a skill of making a living, but also taught me to learn the spiritual food of suffering, diligence and not complaining. Unlike craftsmanship, these things can be with me all my life, teaching me to eat less and lose more in the future. With a skill and good talent, "I" set up a business, became a family, and gave birth to a son and a daughter; Thanks to a beautiful and capable wife.
I thought that I would be happy all the time in the future. I never thought that my somewhat "wild" wife actually left her children and ran away with her brother who was far less than me!
I don't understand, and neither do I. It stands to reason that my senior brother is not as good as "I" in terms of talent, ability, face value and family wealth. Why would my wife leave her husband and elope with others?
Perhaps this beautiful and capable wife is too "wild". After listening to that man's rhetoric, my husband at home has been busy with crafts, and his mind has gradually been hooked by the outside world!
In that era when national thoughts began to be gradually liberated, the more beautiful, intelligent and capable a woman was, the more she longed for a romantic encounter with a "big city".
Even at the expense of being branded as "smelly" and "dirty" by the villagers.
if "I" don't keep a bowl of porridge, but take more apprentices, make the craft of "pasting" bigger and stronger, and open several branches, maybe my wife won't be easily fooled away by rhetoric?
however, a capable wife seems to have a hunch. She had long expected that there were more and more foreign things in the streets, and many large families even changed into lime and glass, and many craftsmen turned to other businesses; It is no longer possible to eat by craft alone.
when I worked as a temporary worker in a media center, I visited Zhang Shu, a inheritor of folk earthenware art, because of my work needs.
Zhang Shu is the tenth generation descendant of our local folk earthenware skills. It is said that when he studied with his father, the whole street was made up of artisans who made a living by earthenware skills, and the products they produced could still be sold to neighboring provinces even in that era of inconvenient transportation. It can be described as a glorious moment in the traditional craft industry. However, with the change of the times, soaring prices, high costs, raising children for women and other reasons, more and more earthenware craftsmen choose to go out to make a living, resulting in the original vibrant "earthenware street" almost abandoned.
when the craft is not enough to support themselves, some people will choose to die; When the craft is not enough to support the family, people will decisively abandon the craft and choose a business that is enough to support the family.
this is a responsibility, but also a human nature.
So, when the pasting skill gradually went downhill, in order to raise a son and a daughter who had lost their mother, "I" resolutely gave up the skill that I had worked hard for several years, put on a uniform instead of a foreign knife, and became a small patrolman that everyone looked down upon. Even "I" look down upon. However, with my "eloquent" skills, I managed to get a place in the patrol team, gradually working from a small patrol to a "third-class policeman" and then to a small leader, and I was able to hold my head high in front of the neighborhood.
A sudden mutiny made me see the darkest side of human nature.
With the sound of gunfire, shops of all sizes have closed their doors, as if to avoid the plague. But a paper wooden door can't stand being smashed and burned! For a time, both "braid soldiers" and ordinary people flocked to the streets in order to make a fortune in this turmoil. "Knock on the door, cry cry, check! Door plank fell down, rushing in ... "All robbed the red eye. The bustling street suddenly became like hell. The next day, the shop owners poked their heads out and went to the streets to see how much leftovers they had left.
nowadays, some people are used to peaceful times, but they begin to yearn for it, and even sing praises to turmoil and war.
Look, this is turmoil, and this is war!
It's like a damn fate, which magnifies the ugliness in people's hearts infinitely and plays tricks on those who are desperately living in the middle and lower levels. Even those who watch from the sidelines are not spared.
With the change of dynasty, the social status of the patrolman remains unchanged, and people look down on him everywhere. Even my brother was brutally shot by a "soldier", "I" can't get justice for him. Even the murderer's face is shameful!
When I saw this, I couldn't help going back and watching it twice. My mind kept echoing a sentence once said by an elder in my family: "No matter how the leaders change, it won't have much impact on us little people."
at first, I couldn't understand this sentence, and even I was very disgusted.
now, I can understand that no matter how turbulent the society is and how the times evolve, there will be events that we know are unfair but can't do anything about.
there will be no "absolute fairness" in the past, present and future.
if it exists, the so-called fate will not frequently play tricks on the middle and lower levels and struggle hard, only for the living.
I thought that when I met Lord Feng, "I" would be able to get rid of my misery completely, so that I could live a life of food and clothing and even wealth. Unexpectedly, fate makes people. I met Lord Feng for the first time to "recruit". I, a person who can't ride a horse, worked hard to win this position, but I haven't put on my new uniform yet, and Lord Feng blew it. Just in time, the patrol team was dissolved, and "I" went back to be a "third-class policeman". When I met Lord Feng for the second time, he called "I" and called a few brothers to take office with him in other places. This time, "I" kept an eye on it and asked him to report to the headquarters for "personnel deployment". Sure enough, this time Lord Feng blew it again. Fortunately, we were only deployed to get back to our original posts.
It's hard to achieve the middle position, but it has become a piece of meat. You should obey, cope with and convey it in time, and you should be warm, calm and gather people's hearts. Sometimes I have to do some formalism. If you don't do it, you can't do it. "I" can rely on these to live and raise children!
As parents, no matter how hard you eat or how tired you are, it's all for the sake of making future generations happy, so that they can go out and do other businesses to support themselves, and don't come back to eat their own hardships and tiredness. Parents are always reluctant to let their children bear the unbearable fate.
However, fate always plays tricks on such parents.
Because "I" have been fooling around all the year round, I can't stay at home, and I can't bear to marry another "vicious" stepmother for my children. As a result, my son is uneducated and unwilling to suffer from learning skills, and he insists on working as a patrolman with Laozi. It's a living! Two salaries and "my" savings are enough for him to marry. Only poor daughter, no skill, and won't say, can only marry a patrolman, eat wowotou together!
Parents scrimp and save all their lives just to change their destiny; Even if I can't change it, I hope I can change the fate of my children and future generations. Helpless, children live up to expectations, refuse to study hard, and refuse to suffer the pain of learning skills well; No one needs to teach bad things.
this is true in ancient times, in modern times, and even more so in modern times.
not only is it easy for expensive families to produce expensive children, but it is also easier for poor families to produce "expensive children".
Perhaps it is the lack of parents' company all the year round that leads them to gradually forget how poor their home is when they grow up, gradually abandon the burden they should carry on their shoulders, and gradually form sensitive and fragile self-esteem. In the end, they even completely lost the courage and belief to live hard, and turned to blindly pursue the nothingness of stability and lie flat in the greenhouse.
However, I feel guilty about my children, and in order to maintain the stability of my children, I have to drag my old body to go on a business trip. Although "I" thinks I am not lost to young people. Perhaps, it was this vigor that suddenly awakened the sleeping "unyielding" strength in his son's body, and he wanted to follow. "I" refused him, but he ran out quietly; At first, he lived a hard life and could send some money to his family, but he was sick and didn't want to spend money. As a result, he got sick and left me an old man and a daughter-in-law.
After my son's funeral, "I" didn't have much savings, so I "entrusted someone" to continue working in the middle level of the "original unit"; I met a new leader again, and I was kicked out because I had a beard.
many times, this is the reality.
there's nothing you can do!
words are hard to hear, but this is reality, and this is society.
No matter how long you have worked diligently in a company, enterprise or even unit, a change of leadership means layoffs.
who is absolutely sure that layoffs will not cut themselves?
Therefore, many people, in order not to be laid off, will always try their best to ruin their reputations and others.
what can I do if I am laid off?
those with outstanding abilities will soon find another job to make a living; The ability is average, and you can still move forward stubbornly after a while of depression; Those who have no ability can only bite their teeth to do jobs that are looked down upon by ordinary people in order to make a living.
At school, you can still shout "Never bow to life" in immature voices; However, as long as you go out of school, step into society and enter life, there are absolutely 1, 1 and 1 ways to teach you to bow your head.
This is not a fate invented by novels, but a fate that really happens in reality, or is about to happen in reality, and belongs to people. Moreover, it is a fate that everyone must face and accept.
Lao She's short story My Life. From the first-person perspective, humorous writing style and unpretentious language, this paper expounds to readers the life story of a little man who was reduced from a craftsman to a small patrolman and struggled to survive in the turbulent era of regime change, but was always teased by fate. It reflects that the ordinary people of that era have tried their best just to survive, and it is also an insinuation of the bitterness and suffering brought to the people by social unrest.