When I was in high school, I was surrounded by boys at my front and back desks. At that time, I couldn't hear anything going on outside the window, and I only read the books of sages. Emotionally, I am a novice. I don't understand what love is. I just think it is a scourge, which makes me very resistant. I don’t know when, there were some rumors saying that I had a crush on a boy at the table behind me. Later I found out that it was the boy who thought I liked him, so he told others about it. Faced with the false accusations and ridicule from my classmates, I didn't know what to do. Later, I lost control and started crying in the classroom. Finally, the head teacher was alarmed, and we were naturally arrested and lectured.
My heart was pounding and I cried. The cry of "Woo" echoed in the classroom, and the cry of "Woo" echoed in the classroom.
When I was in college, I was still very confused about my feelings. Because of her pure appearance, she was regarded as Bai Yueguang by many boys in her grade. There was a senior brother who later became the president of the club I joined. At that time, I don’t know why, but he often came to chat with me and gave me warmth. Because it was the first time I left my parents, I felt very warm when someone cared so much about me. I regarded him as a big brother in my heart, but I never regarded him as a love interest. Once, I heard a boy in the class say half-jokingly: Don’t you already have someone you like? You should follow the three virtues and the four virtues. I was puzzled again, and when I inquired about it, it turned out that my senior brother was telling others that I was pursuing him and that he was testing me. After my first experience, I didn't cry out about my grievances or explain too much, but I never had any dealings with that senior brother again.
When I was in graduate school, this happened more often. There are three boys in the class, two of them make me really horny. One is the squad leader, he is very handsome, but he likes to tease people (he said it himself). Every time in class or after class, he would rush to my side. I felt very strange and asked him what he wanted to do. He would say triumphantly and condescendingly: "Shouldn't you be happy to have class with me? Now I give This is your chance. I immediately became furious and really wanted to slap him to wake him up. From then on, I didn’t have any kind words for him.
There was another boy. , is a lawyer. Sometimes I would ask him for some professional knowledge, and he would smile brightly when I saw him. , I saw he posted a message on WeChat Moments: Taking the initiative to throw yourself into a woman’s arms will not only make people dislike her, but will make her even more annoying. I didn’t think much about it, so I commented below: This is not annoying. Right? He later replied: Can you be stupid? I realized now that he was talking about me.
I had mixed feelings about what this operation was and what went wrong. I just asked him occasionally. He taught a professional case and that was it, and he didn’t ask anyone why he was treated like this.
Since then, I rarely talked to the boys in the class, or even to other people. I have less contact with the boys in my class, and I am very afraid of being misunderstood again, and afraid of being insulted like this again. But even so, there are still some miscellaneous boys, some of whom I can’t even remember their names, because we work together on some study projects. , but without even saying a few words, people would think that I like him, and he would unceremoniously inform me that he already has someone he likes, and he should not like him anymore.
Recently there was another boy. I also encountered the same problem, which reminded me of the past and I was really helpless.
This series of confusing operations made me wonder whether I live in a normal world and why it happened to me. . I haven’t given any response or explanation to those things, because any language is pale in the face of these misunderstandings.
Is it true that boys have a drama in their hearts and are so narcissistic about everything? , I feel really tired and aggrieved.