Letter 1
It's late at night, facing this high wall and iron fence, I can't sleep, and my mind is as gray as ashes. A few years of college life seemed just around the corner, and I was in such a place right now. On the surface, I am calm, but who can achieve inner peace in this situation?
Two months ago, I was a college student at a key university. As a graduate who is about to enter the society and show his talents, my family and the country have high hopes for me. I am not eager to contribute to the modernization of the motherland and realize the value of my life.
My alma mater is the most famous and powerful university in Yunnan Province, and the employment prospects are very promising. I asked my brothers, sisters (fellow villagers) and teachers for details, so I didn’t feel the employment pressure of college students in many newspapers.
I feel really painful writing this. It can be said that this status of "the proud son of heaven" is given by the country, or it can be said that I have worked hard for 12 years.
But how could I ruin it all so easily? The four victims, like me, have parents, brothers and sisters at home. Like me, they have studied hard for many years in the cold window, and like me, they are full of expectations for the future.
How did I destroy them so easily in the first place? Renyun: Everything has a cause. He said: There are always internal and external causes for the development of things. The internal cause is the dominant one, so I am thinking hard every day, trying to find a reason and a reasonable explanation from myself, but at the moment I I am also very confused. I can only say that it was a coincidence!
I decided to take this path because of a quarrel while playing cards. Now I see it as a bystander, how ridiculous and ignorant this is! How sad and cruel this is! Is life so fragile? Is there nothing in this world worth missing?
No! That’s what I think now, and that’s what I thought before! But in those days, there was only distress and hatred in my heart, and many consequences were unimaginable. Before I had time to think about it, many things happened. Afterwards, I didn’t know how big the impact was, nor how much harm it caused to my loved ones.
I realized that my family and friends were not the only ones who were sad. I regret it, but the damage is done and cannot be undone. I want to say sorry to the whole society and to the relatives and friends of the four classmates, but will you accept it? Will you accept such a demon?
I went to a six-year primary school in a rural area. There was a very strict teacher who brought a small piece of wood to punish the students. Among many classmates, I was the naughtiest, but I was probably in the fourth grade. This teacher started to love me very much, even though I was still so naughty, because he found out that I was very smart.
So my interest in learning began at that time, thanks to this strict and responsible teacher. Teacher, thank you very much. You are my first teacher.
Oh, the memories of the past are always so sweet.
My high school teacher is a kind, caring and responsible person. I can no longer find any gorgeous words to describe him - it is difficult to express my inner feelings clearly and comprehensively. I believe everyone has had this experience.
Our head teacher comes to our dormitory almost every morning at six o'clock to urge us to get up and do morning exercises, because several of us are unconscious and often bedridden. One semester, I told my class teacher that I didn’t want to do morning exercises. I wanted to sleep more so that I would have enough energy to study. The teacher immediately agreed. Among all the students, I am the only one who has this privilege.
This teacher's lectures are very detailed. Privately, I always feel that it is too time-consuming and I feel there is no need to go into details one by one. But I finally understood that the teacher was not just facing me, but the whole class.
As the saying goes, each of the ten fingers has its own length, and everyone’s qualifications are different, and their levels vary. He is responsible for the whole class! Some people say that the little things are the most touching. There are so many little things like this that I can’t describe. I can only say that they touched me a lot.
There are many people who make me feel warm and guilty, but I don’t want to write them all down, lest they become like a running account. It would be very irresponsible to do so.
This short article called "Confession" not only wants to write down my feelings and thoughts to explain to all those who have been hurt, but also wants to warn the world not to commit crimes and think twice about everything. When you want to commit a crime, you have to understand that the biggest victim is actually your closest and favorite person!
Actually, I most want to say sorry to my loved ones. My parents have loved me since I was a child and have placed high hopes on me since I was a child. They hope that I will succeed and bring glory to my hometown.
They endured decades of hardship for me, but just when I was about to succeed, I committed the unforgivable crime. What a heavy blow this was to them. Poor bearer, I'm sorry...
Ma Jiajue
April 6, 2004
Letter 2
Fourteen An uncle and aunt:
Hello, I want to write this letter on March 10th. But I haven't had the chance yet. Today is March 16th. I am writing this from the Sanya Detention Center in Hainan Province. This kind of thing must have had a bad impact on the whole family, but I can't say I'm sorry anymore.
After receiving this letter, I hope you will immediately convey my wish to my parents - to advise them to leave me alone. I really don't want to see them again. Because I am no longer the person I used to be. I know that in the hearts of my parents, no matter how tall or old I am, I will always be the "twelve" I was when I was a child.
But I have really changed a lot. It is hopeless for a person to become mentally ill. I really hope my parents will leave me alone. As for corpses and funerals, the government can handle them. In short, the simpler, the better. Never do anything to the ashes. I'm never superstitious.
Uncle Fourteen and Aunt Fourteen, I really have a lot to say to you. I have always been grateful for your help to my family, and I have never forgotten it in my heart.
It’s just that I haven’t been able to tell you my love words, and I rarely write to you. I can recall so much when I talk about how much you helped my family. There are so many big things and I can’t count the small things.
You know, life may seem ordinary, but in fact many small things can happen in life. For example, in daily life, your family and my family are closely related. Some small favors are easy to forget afterwards, but I know that many things may seem trivial, but without the help of your family, it would be difficult or even impossible for our family. I don't want to help so much, but I won't forget it, and neither will my brother.
Although brothers in the same big family should help each other, it is not easy to do so. You can see this just by looking at other families in our village.
I remember a letter from my tenth brother when I was a freshman. It was written to encourage and comfort me. In the letter, he called me "brother" and I really burst into tears. At that moment, I remembered many past events. I remembered that I went to the fruit seedling garden near Yuanlu Village with Brother Ten to look for fruit seedlings, and I found a peach seedling.
When I got home, my father wouldn’t let me plant trees at home, so my tenth brother said, “Give it to me,” but I broke the fruit seedlings. I remember it being on the roof of my house. At that time, the "Bao Liu" family next door hadn't gotten up yet, and we were all still young. Brother Ten may not remember it for a long time, but one time Brother Ten and I fought and he had a nosebleed. I pushed him to a pile of sand in front of Uncle Sixteen's house.
I still remember that I went to Pinggu’s house in Zhao Village with Brother Ten, Thirteen and other children. Pingu loves us very much. Let us each choose a toy to come back to. Brother Ten and I snatched a toy car and it was finally mine. These things all happened when I was a child. Because of my cheerful personality, I don’t remember them for a long time.
Later, the tenth brother went to study with Uncle Zhong Naiyi and could not be together for long. When Brother Shi grew up, he had several friends near Gao Bin, but he still cared about me.
One time Brother Ten gave me his 80% new clothes, but I rejected his sincerity. Once, Brother Ten invited me to his room to play darts. I went, but with restraint. In fact, many times when Brother Ten and I are together, we are very restrained and can't let go of ourselves.
Looking back, I really feel the deep friendship between Brother Ten. I am very close to the age of my tenth brother. He has always wanted to be a good brother and good friend to me, but I feel that Brother Ten has always been helpless.
You can only be helpless about some things and have no other ideas. I think the reason why Brother Ten and I can't become true close friends is because I feel sorry for myself.
It wasn’t until he went to college that a poor rural man saw the world and became cheerful. Until then, I deeply blamed myself. I have seen the saying "A poor man has a strong ambition" since I was a child, but I have never introduced it into my faith.
Bamei is very sensible and has a good affection for my family. They often come to play. There is nothing I dislike (I say this as a stranger). I remember that Seventh Sister used to sleep at Eighth Sister’s house, let alone members of my family.
Speaking of Shai Gu, they are often placed in Bamei’s room. It must be very uncomfortable for people to sleep in it. But Bamei said nothing.
If it rains while drying the grain, the eighth sister, 14 aunts, and 10 brothers will rush over. After sweeping and loading the food, opening a pocket will make your skin very uncomfortable. Even I would often be lazy, but Bamei would come to help even if it rained.
Of course, these things are not big or small, but there is always a sense of warmth when I think about them. After I went to college, my eighth sister wrote me several letters, but I didn't reply properly. I feel really sorry for her. I wonder what she would think.
When I think of the years when Qimei lived at home, I feel that I must thank Bamei, who relieved a lot of Qimei's loneliness. I'm really grateful to her.
Brother Jiu is also very good to my family and will enthusiastically help me with anything. I remember when Jiuge accompanied me to Nanning in 2000, he was really kind to me. I didn’t know anything at the time, thank God for asking.
On one occasion, when I came back from a vacation, I found out that Brother Jiu was learning to repair motorcycles. I'm really happy for him. Because I imagined that doing this job would be very profitable. What else can Brother Jiu not learn?
Extended data:
In early February 2004, students majoring in biotechnology at the School of Life Sciences of Yunnan University were playing cards with classmates Tang Moumou, Shao Moumou, Yang Moumou, and Gong Moumou. A certain person had a verbal conflict and had the idea of ??killing four people.
On the evening of February 2, 2013, in the dormitory, he beat his classmate Tang Moumou with a stonemason hammer prepared in advance, causing his death. He tied Tang Moumou's head with a plastic bag and hid it in the closet, and handled the scene carefully.
On the evening of February 65, 2004, Shao was killed using the same method. On February 15, classmates Yang and Gong were killed again at noon and evening respectively. After committing the crime, Ma Jiajue took a train from Kunming to Guangzhou with cash and a fake ID card made before committing the crime.
On February 23, the Public Security Bureau of Kunming City, Yunnan Province immediately launched an investigation after receiving a report from a Yunnan college student. Immediately, the Yunnan Provincial Public Security Department issued a Class A wanted order, offering a reward for the capture of the suspect Ma Jiajue.
On March 1, the Ministry of Public Security issued a Class A wanted order for the fugitive suspect Ma Jiajue, and at the same time, he was publicly wanted nationwide with a high reward. On the evening of March 15, Ma Jiajue was captured and brought to justice by the public security organs in Hexi District, Sanya City, Hainan Province.
Reference materials:
Baidu Encyclopedia-Ma Jiajue