In winter, Yangcheng is covered in silver, and it is too cold to see my fingers.
After a trip of 10 hours, I stood in front of my house, exhausted, and saw Liu Yi feeding my adoptive father through the window.
Adoptive father's eyes are dull and his lips are tight. Liu Yi's eyes are as sharp as blades. She forced her adoptive father's lips open with a spoon. With a wave of his hands, the adoptive father gave a groan of pain and spilled food all over the floor.
My anger burned to the top of my head, and I kicked the door open, just like a glaring King Kong standing in front of Liu Yi.
My adoptive father was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease Harmo six months ago, and his condition was good and bad. I work as a network operation and maintenance engineer in an IT company in a first-tier city and have no time to take care of my family. My nanny lacks supervision and it is difficult to fulfill her responsibilities. Aunt Liu is the third nanny I kicked out of the house.
As soon as the adoptive father saw me, he immediately bounced up, his eyes flashed, his hands crossed into a "cross" and grinned. This is Diga Altman's killer skill when fighting monsters.
I hugged my adoptive father gently, and his shoulder blades trembled under my armpit. I turned my head and looked out of the window, and the fireworks to welcome the New Year came one after another, but my heart was desolate.
It's really cruel that relatives who live alone become strangers day by day. I made a decision to give up my high-paying job and stay in Yangcheng with my adoptive father.
My adoptive father is in good shape today. He got up early and turned on the opera channel. He sat on the sofa in the living room, squinting to listen to Kunqu opera. I moved my ass next to him, and he suddenly turned his head and asked me in a low voice.
"Did you talk about ... the object?"
My back suddenly became tense and my face was very hot.
My adoptive father seems to have forgotten my physical disability, which is a hidden pain that I can't talk about all my life. It pokes in my heart like a needle. And the person who caused my physical disability, I don't want to see again in my life.
But God is a lively Lord. A week later, Hu appeared in front of me.
Her eyebrows are thin, her eyebrows are raised, her eye pupil lines are tattooed, and she is wearing a black woolen coat. Her black waist perfectly shows her slender figure.
I pretended not to see, bypassed her and walked straight ahead, conveniently clicking a door.
She turned to me and shouted, "Vivian, you will always be my son. I gave birth to you in October, and my blood relationship has been cut off in my life. "
I turned and looked at her. "If you keep cutting, how can you give me to someone else?"
Her lips trembled. "So ... I also raised you to 8 years old. Isn't it worth 65438+ ten thousand yuan? "
I smoked a cigarette, stepped on the cigarette end and turned to leave. Behind him came the sound of Hu's high heels hitting the concrete floor, chasing me like a ghost, and I gritted my teeth and ran.
Everyone has memories of despair. Once triggered, the pain wakes up, such as a flood bursting its banks, which is hard to stop.
At the age of 6, my father had a new love and my family broke up. I awarded it to my mother, who projected all her resentment against my father on me and shouted hysterically at some resentful words I didn't understand.
After half a year, my mother went on blind dates frequently, and the second marriage was full of weighing the pros and cons. My mother dragged me away and scared away many people who liked her beauty.
She hated me even more, opened her eyes late at night and whispered to me, "Why aren't you a girl?"
On my father's wedding day, my mother forced me to laugh with her. She said that my mother and I must be happy, and we can't let dogs and men be happy. I couldn't laugh, so my mother patted me on the back with a hanger.
On my eighth birthday, my mother bought me my favorite Diga Altman and a strawberry cake, forcing me to drink a strange drink. I slept soundly that night, and my mother cut my lower body with scissors.
From now on, I can't go to the toilet standing up. Even if I squat, my urine will spill everywhere, and my crotch is always wet. My classmates called me eunuch, and my father never came to see me after he found out.
My world entered the cold winter overnight.
My mother forced me to have long hair, wear girls' clothes and cheat my uncles back home. Finally, a bald uncle named Geng is willing to marry his mother.
Uncle Geng knew I was a boy, but I didn't find out. I looked at him with a timid face. He stroked my hair with one hand and whispered to his mother, "I found a good family for Weiwei." It's good for you and me to send Vivian away. "
Mother's eyes are like black holes, holding uncle Geng tightly, eager to suck him into the body and fill the emptiness inside. She turned to look at me, her eyelids slightly narrowed and her look complicated.
2
When my adoptive father adopted me, I was 40 years old and worked as a porter in a moving company. He is unmarried because of poverty. He loves me very much and holds me in his hand.
Soon he discovered the secret of my body. He squatted in the toilet and looked at me in amazement. His lips trembled and tears swirled in his eyes.
All his savings are in an empty bag of old Tide washing powder. He spent all his savings to treat me. I finally managed to stand up and pee, but I still couldn't be a man.
On my 15 birthday, my adoptive father was 47 years old. Long-term heavy physical labor has slightly hunched his back. He gave me a Diga Altman doll half a man tall, hugged me and said, "Son, no matter how much suffering you have experienced, you should believe in light like Diga Altman."
The adoptive father is the light of my world, illuminating my closed and humid heart, which is very warm.
With the encouragement and support of my adoptive father, I was admitted to the university. After graduation, I found a well-paid job. I want to work hard to buy a suite in a big city and take my adoptive father over to enjoy happiness.
But only six years later, the adoptive father began to forget everything.
The last woman I want to see in my life came to me at this time, because her favorite uncle Geng lost all his money because of gambling, and he was injured in a rage and was detained in criminal detention.
The other person's right eye is seriously injured and may never see again. In addition to high compensation, Geng will also face jail time.
Mother can't leave a man, otherwise, the black hole in her heart will devour her.
So she tried her best to keep the surname Geng. She needs money to hire the best criminal defense lawyer. A week before I returned to Yangcheng, she called and offered to "borrow" 65,438+10,000 yuan.
After my adoptive father adopted me, I had little contact with my mother. I hate her. I even think she has psychological problems, so she has done such inhuman harm to me. And she knows I hate her. Every time she comes to see me, she just hangs a milk biscuit on the handle at the door.
I certainly won't lend her money, not a penny!
When I got home, my adoptive father was busy in the kitchen. He bent down to find something.
"Where is the fuel tank?"
I helped him to sit on the sofa and found a fruit basket on the coffee table.
"Who sent it?"
Adoptive father looked at the fruit basket and didn't speak for a long time. I thought it was his friend who came to see him, so I stopped asking. For the sake of safety, gas was not used at home for a long time, so I replaced it with an induction cooker.
When I was cooking, I found my adoptive father staring at the fruit basket with tears in his eyes. Which friend gave it to me? Make him so sad.
The adoptive father's illness is good and bad, and when he is awake, he still clamors to go out and find something to do, not to drag me down.
My mother called me like a death warrant and said that I had to get a lawyer quickly. After the lawyer's "golden 37 days" lawsuit, it is not good for the surname Geng.
I kept hacking her new number and said coldly, "Call me if you change it again, and I will change it."
"You are so cold-blooded, don't blame me for being heartless!"
I scoffed, you have been cruel enough to me, what else do you want to do to me? Later I learned that her ruthlessness was not directed at me. While I was away, she went to see her adoptive father alone and brought a fruit basket.
Three days later, the adoptive father disappeared.
three
That day, I was looking for a job related to my major in the talent market in Yangcheng. When I got home, it was already dark. Although it was spring, I was frozen and walked naked.
Pushing open the door, I found the room empty.
I hurried downstairs and searched all the places where my father usually strolled, but there was no sign of him. My heart has been hanging, my whole body is cold, my throat is dry, and the whole person seems to have been robbed of my soul.
I ran to the public security bureau to report the case, and the staff made a record according to the process. After that, I sat in a chair in the hall with my head blank until dawn.
After dawn, I dragged my heavy legs home, and three or five old people chatted in the sun by the flower bed downstairs. I hurried forward and asked them if they had seen their adoptive father.
One of them, Mr. Hu, who was smoking a pipe, told me, "I didn't see your father yesterday." It's late, I saw a woman enter your house. "
My back suddenly stretched straight, "woman? Do you remember what she looks like? "
"Wearing high heels, the eyebrows are very thin, quite thin."
I immediately took out my mobile phone and called Hu. I snapped, "Have you been to my house?"
"Yes, I just asked you for 65438+ million. Just like killing you, the money you spent on that old man is far more than that. I can't make the old man conscious. He is a burden, and I am your real mother. "
I sneer at 1, hand into a fist, drag? I'm her drag, too.
I was about to release my anger on the phone when the door was gently pushed open and my adoptive father came back by himself. His eyes are red, he falters, and his back is even more wobbly. I tried to control my emotions and whispered to him where he had gone. He only smiled at me for a long time.
This feeling of being found is like going from hell to heaven.
The adoptive father never said what happened. He ate a small bowl of tomato and egg noodles and went to bed. His small body curled up in the quilt and trembled slightly like a frightened white rabbit.
I called Hu, "I can give you 654.38+ten thousand yuan, but you must promise not to look for my adoptive father again."
"All right, all right, now give me the money."
Hu is like a leech. If she doesn't bleed, the ghost will stay nearby.
I don't want her to hurt my adoptive father and let him leave me with a psychological burden. If money can solve the problem, that's best. I thought about moving, but I was afraid my adoptive father wouldn't like it, and I was afraid that he would go out and get sick, and even couldn't find his way home.
Hu stopped withdrawing money, but it was more than two months, because the lawyer she spent a lot of money on didn't help her win the lawsuit, so she just went to the hospital in a hurry.
Geng was sentenced to five years in prison for intentional injury.
Hu called me and told me about her and Geng's past, how they fell in love and how Geng nourished her withered soul. She is addicted to her emotions and can't extricate herself.
She and Geng have no children, and I am her only relative. She begged me to listen to her inner pain. I really want to laugh. I don't know if she was so depressed when she hurt me.
I changed my mobile phone number directly the next day.
four
I once asked Hu why she did that to me. Just because I am a boy, is she a drag on remarriage?
Hu's arch eyebrows drooped, avoiding my burning eyes and burying his head.
"I'm just on the spur of the moment, I regret it. I really regret it. If there is regret medicine in this world, I will definitely buy it at all costs. "
There is no remorse in her words, and there is no emotion in her eyes. I have seen her cry for men countless times, but in my memory, she has never shed a tear for my own son.
She can't live without a man, but I don't understand nonsense. She really fell in love with Geng.
Hu didn't contact me after I changed my number. She disappeared from my world like a nasty fly.
The cold winter has finally passed, the sunshine in early spring is warm, and the air is filled with the unique fresh earthy smell of spring. I was holding my adoptive father for a walk downstairs in the community when my cell phone suddenly rang. It was the Public Security Bureau that found me. Hu was administratively detained for fighting.
I grit my teeth and hesitated for a long time. I settled my adoptive father and went to the police station to fish her out. I swore in my heart that this was the last time I had anything to do with her.
When I arrived at the police station, I was startled.
The beard was messy, the button of the black trench coat was torn off by the other party, and a high-heeled shoe was scattered elsewhere. Her expression is callous, and her dull eyes and dark beauty lines are particularly shocking. What makes me shudder is that her lips are covered with blood and her tongue is still licking the blood on her teeth.
The police told me that Hu bit the other person's earlobe alive, but there seems to be something wrong with Hu's mental state, which requires further mental appraisal.
"How can there be conflict?"
The policeman adjusted his glasses and glanced at Hu. "Ask your mother about this."
There are no joys and sorrows between people, and I don't know how horrible the black hole in Hu's heart is. Geng has only been in office for more than two months, and Hu, who is over half a century old, actually played dating software and hooked up with a married man, and was discovered.
The other party agreed to a settlement. First, it is necessary to wash one's dirty linen in public. Second, Hu's mental state is really bad.
five
There is a strange atmosphere in the mental hospital at night, with white walls and pungent smell of disinfectant, and the windows can't be opened.
Hu sat on the bed in a blue and white striped hospital gown, drooling on his collar and staring at me with a smile. I leaned close to her ear and sneered, "Didn't you say that you and Uncle Geng are true love?"
Hu frowned slightly, twitched his mouth and waved at me. The scream of "Yi Yi Ya" attracted the nurse on duty. The nurse pushed the door and told me not to irritate the patient, and handed me a bill before leaving.
After Hu divorced her father, she always had a black hole in her heart. This black hole needs a person to fill it. As for the man, it doesn't matter.
In fact, there is a black hole in everyone's heart. External redemption will only be swallowed up by the black hole, and only the black hole of self-redemption will disappear.
I finally took a look at Hu, deeply spit out the pent-up gas in my chest, and conveniently crumpled up the money and threw it into the trash can.
Yangcheng, I won't stay any longer, and some people won't see you again.