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I am a smart and steady female lawyer with an enviable family. I always thought cheating was just an excuse for playboy, and a good woman would never cheat. But after meeting Zheng, I realized how complicated the natural reaction of lust is. God knows, I have always been a single-minded woman. I dated my first love for seven years, married for three years, and had a very strong relationship for ten years. Husband is an honest man, down-to-earth, doesn't like flowers, is a bit silly and trustworthy.
The appearance of Zheng is really unexpected.
There is a new colleague in the company. He is a Chinese American, about forty years old, single, but he looks in his early thirties. I didn't like him for the first time because he looked so cool and arrogant. He is not very polite to all of us. I also have a strong personality. When people are cruel to me, I will double my performance with the color of "cruel". Don't let men look down on me.
Perhaps because of this, he suddenly looked at me with special respect, especially liked to sit next to me and always stared at me rudely. My colleague joked that he might have taken a fancy to me and I blushed. Who is he? I feel a little annoyed. But after being recognized as a talent, there is always a feeling of complacency. Oh, what happened to me?
Strangely, the more I hate him, the more I miss him. Do you think a woman is being molested by a man once, especially for a married woman who has only dated once? There are still people chasing! I only feel ambivalent about this mentality.
The company arranged for several of us to travel together for the first time, and I also made a long-distance call to tell my husband that I hated Zheng. My husband said, "I still think I am the best." After hearing what he said, I really made a subconscious comparison.
Frankly speaking, my husband is not as good as me in knowledge, appearance, wealth and achievement. On personality, my husband is honest and has his own advantages and disadvantages, but Zheng is humorous and knows how to calculate. There is always unspeakable excitement with him, and every moment is a challenge and expectation. There is no doubt that he is a charming man. He can move people's hearts in one sentence, which is also his profound flirting skill.
He doesn't talk much, and he doesn't have much to do. You can't cope with being captured at once. I can't help blushing at the thought of this. Why did I think of this? I haven't said anything, but it has always been my fantasy. What the hell am I doing?
I keep reminding myself that I am a married woman. I have a husband who loves himself and cooks for himself. He never hates women who don't behave like women.
What bothers me most is not thinking about him all the time, but that he has never done enough to make me so abnormal. I was sexually promiscuous in private and was not teased. What a terrible idea. I went to the bathroom to wash my cold face. I was so strange in the mirror that I couldn't wait to go home and hug my husband and escape from all this.
A few months later, Zheng and I were arranged to travel because of the need of the case. Before leaving, I looked forward to it inexplicably. I don't deny that I want to see him. Listen to his voice and look at his expression. I am "tortured" by him. After the work at hand was finished, a desire drove me to bend over to him. Did he put a spell on me? Seeing him is as unnatural as being seen through at a glance. He threw me a timely sentence: "Was the coldness just now because of me?" That smile again, that look is so annoying and attractive, as if it were a shoo-in.
This trip, without the mission of work, completely entered the state of life, which aggravated my fantasies and anxiety. I kept chanting like chanting: "I love my husband, I love my husband." Suddenly I turned around and found him not far behind me, listening to my chanting, and then left with a hateful smile. Awkward. Why does he always try to make me feel ashamed?
He solemnly asked me to discuss the results of our final investigation with him. There is no denying that he is serious at work, and I have always admired him silently, especially the white shirt he wears at work is beautiful and sexy. I blush at the thought of this. He noticed how stupid I was. How does he want to torture me? It can be inferred that he is an old hand in love, and his purpose is invisible. I was confused by him.
The complicated case was finally sorted out, which made us unconsciously talk about the fact that it was dark, and of course we went to dinner together. In the private room, he asked me very gracefully if I wanted to drink and play music. "Have you ever been so nervous?" I pretended not to think so, and stayed generous, indicating that I had no illusion.
After supper, he suggested going out for a walk. On unfamiliar streets, the night lights are dim. I suddenly have an impulse that I have never had before, as if I were afraid of the cold. I grabbed Zheng's hand and Zheng took me into his arms. That night, I slept with a man other than my husband for the first time.
Comment on Pang Fengshan
It's not so much that you meet a flirt as that you have a heart ready to cheat. In my opinion, for whatever reason, once you commit betrayal, these are just high-sounding excuses. You should admit that there must be some restless factors lurking in your bones.
To put it bluntly, you have a demon, and this demon is your greed. From a certain point of view, greed is an excessive pursuit of perfection, and liking perfection is a common problem for women. Your husband is practical and gentle, which is why you married him. But after all, he can't compare with Zheng's knowledge, appearance, wealth and humor, which are the charms that capture women's hearts. In fact, you are eager to have such a man all the time, but you either don't have enough confidence to look forward to it, or you don't have a chance to meet it. Now, once such a good man is around, how can you not be tempted?
Of course, you have been secretly reminding yourself whether to remind yourself or to cheer yourself up. The fact is that you failed to hold the last line of defense. Maybe you will feel guilty about it, which shows that you still love your husband. But what I want to say is, if you really love your husband, please take care of your heart and your body. Don't cuckold your man easily. It's unfair to him. Respect your husband, respect women's morality and respect.