Secondly, judging from the help you want, you still want to learn, which proves that you are not really tired of learning. It's just that you have taken too many long-term leave due to illness, and your knowledge can't be connected, which leads to a decline in your study. You can teach yourself, then go to cram school, and you will get better slowly!
Then, because your relatives, friends and teachers are criticizing you, the pressure you need to bear has exceeded the limit of your age. You can try to ignore other people's gossip, do what you should do, combine work and rest, release your pressure through travel, shouting in the wild, participating in sports activities and other channels, and don't give up on yourself.
Third, your parents also have problems. They spend too much time making money for their livelihood and ignore your feelings. In this way, you can try to take the initiative to talk to your parents about this problem and communicate with them more!
Finally, what you need most now is to rebuild your confidence, establish a correct outlook on life and values, release excessive psychological pressure, set a short-term goal, and work towards this goal. Strengthen physical exercise, improve physical fitness, actively participate in group activities, try to communicate with good relatives and friends around you, and consult a psychologist when necessary. You can listen to more decompression music at ordinary times. For the senior high school entrance examination, in the remaining time, you can review in a targeted way, put aside the psychological burden and deal with it easily. No matter what the result is, as long as you work hard and have a clear conscience, it is the best!
I hope you can get out of the psychological shadow as soon as possible and live and study happily! ! ! Bless you! ! !