First, with an ignorant heart, set foot on the three-foot platform.
July, 1996, it was an exciting season. Since I was a child, I have worshipped my father on the three-foot platform, determined to be like my father one day, so it seems that I have waited too long for this day.
With excitement, expectation and inexplicable happiness, I walked to my three-foot platform. Standing at the school gate, looking at strange land, strange people and strange buildings. ...
Heart, no longer calm! A kind old teacher has stood at the school gate to meet me. He took my bag and said, "Girl, let's go and take you to the dormitory." Follow in his footsteps and walk on the muddy path that has just rained. I can't lift my feet. Thick mud has covered my vamp. I want to take off my shoes and walk barefoot into the so-called campus.
The old teacher looked at my little feet and said apologetically, "The conditions in our school are poor, so you have to suffer." When I walked into a dilapidated floor room, the floor under my feet kept screaming "squeak, squeak". I stepped on it carefully and moved it gently step by step, as if it would collapse accidentally. Basically, the railing in the floor room is rarely still standing, which means it will never be too high. After a while, he stopped and said, "this is your dormitory, and the conditions are not very good." You three female teachers share a room. " I was confused at once. "Live here? Can you live? " He smiled apologetically and said, "Don't worry, the house is quite strong!" " "Two female teachers came out of the room after hearing the sound. One is a middle-aged man, and the other looks newly married, and the red wedding dress is still there.
They enthusiastically helped me make my bed and clothes. ......................................................................................................................................... After all the arrangements were made in ..........................., they took me to the so-called kitchen not far away to cook. The smell of smoke in the kitchen, the smell of firewood, the smell of smoke, the smell of dark and damp, and the smell of burnt rice on the hook all squeezed into my lungs. I never knew there was such a cooking method?
The elderly female teacher said, "It won't be long before electricity is connected, so there is no need to burn firewood for cooking." Oh, my God! Firewood is also used for lighting? No electricity? Are you going to cook like this in the future? Tears are spinning in my heart! My life on the three-foot platform began like this, without joy or excitement.
In the next few days, her children came and couldn't sleep at night. Her husband came, and the other one and I hid in the cold classroom. ...........................................................................................................................................
The most desperate thing is that the school teachers are basically locals, and they go home every Sunday, but I can't go back. Every time this happens, only a few children and I can't go home. Fortunately, old teachers often come to school to take care of students, cook for them every day, take them to play ball games, climb mountains and even go fishing in the river. Every weekend, I can hear his laughter and the children's laughter. I don't seem to be so scared anymore, but I am comforted!
Later, I gradually learned that this old teacher surnamed Xu is 56 years old. He has been a substitute teacher for almost 20 years, but he failed to become a regular teacher. Later, when there was an opportunity, I had to rely on the exam. He is old and has failed many times. Every month, 65 yuan's salary (my salary was 296 yuan), but he worked at such a low salary for 20 years, and a strange feeling stirred in his heart.
Finally, on a weekend, I couldn't help asking him: Why is fate so unfair, but I can live so happily every day? He smiled indifferently and replied, "I like children and I like being with them!" " "What a simple words, but deeply shocked my soul. I used to think that I loved the profession of teachers very much, and even chose this profession with a pious attitude. But after entering the harsh environment, my heart is full of resentment, despair and regret. ...
I keep asking myself, do I really love this job? After deep reflection, I strengthened my belief and put all my energy into the process of growing up with the children. From then on, I learned to cook with firewood, wash clothes in the river, light lamps with firewood, walk barefoot in muddy rainy days, and even bathe in a small washbasin. ...
I am no longer lonely, no longer resentful, no longer lost! I really set foot on my three-foot platform. ?
Second, with sincere efforts, we are stumbling and growing.
1In August, 999, with the birth of a child, I left the mountain middle school where I was deeply attached and transferred to a town middle school where my husband was located to teach in order to take care of the child who was a few months old.
At that time, my husband worked in that town government enterprise. Although it is also a township middle school, the conditions are different from those of the original school.
1August, 998, pregnant, took a correspondence exam, and successfully entered the liberal arts class of primary education in Yunnan Normal University. /kloc-in October, I started my correspondence career with my children who were only a few months old, and in June, 2006, I successfully graduated from 5438+0, and obtained the diploma of junior college. As soon as I got my diploma, I took the undergraduate entrance examination by correspondence, successfully entered the correspondence course of Chinese language and literature in Yunnan Normal University, completed all the courses ahead of schedule within two years, and got my undergraduate diploma in June 5438+ 10, 2003.
The days just slipped away. Because my husband is in the town government, I seem to get a lot of preferential treatment every year. The school leaders took special care of me. The head teacher never arranged it for me, but always arranged the best class for me to teach. Naturally, there are outstanding achievements every year and they are repeatedly assessed. I seem to enjoy all this, all this, I naturally accept and enjoy it.
But it didn't last long. In 2002, my husband, whose heart is higher than the sky, always wanted to give me a better life. So, when many employees resigned and went to sea, he stubbornly chose a person to go to sea, leaving children under three years old and me to start his way to sea with tears.
Since then, I seem to get more and more "preferential treatment". The school arranged for me to be the head teacher. Although I have told the leaders many times that the children are still young and lack of energy, all I can get is one sentence: young people, exercise more!
The bigger "preferential treatment" is that I was transferred to a class in the second grade of junior high school, and the school recognized that "there are four kings." The school leader said that I am capable and have achieved such good results for so many years. I believe I can "conquer" these "Four Heavenly Kings".
In this way, after stumbling for a year, the child cried, had no time to coax, was sick, had no time to accompany, was injured and had no time to take care of him. Every time I came home exhausted, I was faced with the mother-in-law's complaints, and the child fell asleep. ...
Fortunately, one year later, the "Four Heavenly Kings" got well, no more troubles, no more fights, and no more contradictions with teachers.
Later, in the entrance examination for the third grade, the average score of this class exceeded the average score of the county and achieved the first good result in the town. Looking at the report card, I was relieved, but full of guilt for my children and my mother-in-law.
Sadly, just when I felt a little gratified by my achievements, I was inexplicably transferred to a rural primary school far from home, and the other four teachers were sent with me. At the moment when the school was announced, my tears could not help falling. Many teachers were also surprised that I was "sent off", and I was dizzy and sleepy after going home for two days. My husband in other places called to ask me why. What is the reason? How do I know what the reason is!
Later, my colleagues came to see me at home and called me stupid. The two middle schools have merged, and it is obvious that a teacher will be sent to the primary school. I don't know to ask the school leaders to invite me to dinner and give me gifts, but these, I won't! No one has taught me this since I started working.
After I calmed down, I left my children and left home under the scolding of my mother-in-law, and went to that remote rural primary school, which was in September 2005.
That year should have been the time for me to participate in the first-level evaluation of middle school teachers, but the reality is that I resigned. No treat, no gift, I don't regret it! In stumbling, I grew up!
Third, with a firm heart, I thrive.
Half a year later, the old middle school changed leadership, and I was transferred back to the old middle school inexplicably. I don't want to ask why, I just want to work harder and do my duty well.
At the end of the 2006 school year, I was rated as "excellent" by the school performance appraisal, but the title evaluation was finally stranded because there was no vacancy. In 2007, I was rated as "excellent" again. In 2008, I finally got the title of middle school teacher. Although it was delayed for three years, I don't want to complain. In 2008, I took the computer skills test and got the provincial certificate. 20 1 1 school year, with remarkable teaching achievements, was rated as "excellent teacher" at the town level; 20 12 was awarded the title of "Excellent party member" at the township level. It was also in this year that I stepped into the management of the school and was appointed as the director of education by the bureau. Then I stepped into the management position. 20 13 won the "Excellent Essay Guidance Award" in the essay activity of "Love Reading"; In the same year, I was rated as an "excellent student" in the training of young and middle-aged backbone teachers. Also in this lucky year, I entered the famous teacher studio in Li Shuping, Yunnan. From that moment on, I really got a rapid improvement in all aspects, and I am no longer working alone. In 20 14, the paper "Imagination in Artistic Works —— A Brief Analysis of the Obstacle and Creation of Imagination" won the first prize in the National Scientific Research Paper Competition, and was published in "China Educational Practice and Research Guide"; In the same year, he participated in the "Putuo District Key Teacher Training Course" and conducted a 20-day full-time on-the-job training. In 20 15, I was rated as "excellent teacher at county level", that is, in this year, I really had the honor to know "Five-person-in-One in Soviet". With a firm heart, I began to thrive.
Fourth, with a heart of admiration, I began to follow in the footsteps of my mentors.
During the summer vacation of 20 15, the "five-person tour in Soviet" came all the way to our remote town and made a speech entitled "Far Broadcasting? The activity of "New Education Spark Teacher Public Welfare Training" overcame the bad traffic and the discomfort of altitude sickness, and came to this hinterland to give us a demonstration class and a lecture.
The activity is carried out in the form of "class+lecture+salon+seminar". Teacher's River Bed Begins in the River, Teacher Liang Zenghong's Night Tour in Chengtian Temple, Teacher Liu Enqiao's Young Hitchhiker, Teacher Ding's From 23 to 32, Composition Improvement Training and Teacher's Micro-video Writing Guidance Course all have their own exquisite presentations. They awakened my soul, and with a heart of admiration, I was fortunate to be a member of the Spark team.
Under the guidance of this team, I insist on reading books every day, writing articles every week and posting blog posts (occasionally I want to be lazy, but I dare not slack off with the warm reminder of Xiubing's teacher). Once a month, the tutor gives lectures online. There are also many professional books, special issues, masterpieces and gifts from tutors. With a steady stream of spiritual food, I stopped being confused and began to grow.
No matter how difficult the road is, I want to follow in the footsteps of my mentors until the end.
Five, with a uneasy heart, wading through mountains and rivers in pursuit of progress
In the early morning of July 30th, 20 16, with a little excitement and even more anxiety, I embarked on the training road of kunshan Spark.
When I learned that Spark would be training in early July, I began to get excited, but I was more entangled in excitement.
Tangle 1: It's a long way, and a woman has to turn many times to get to Kunshan. The most important thing is that I have never traveled far alone, and I am a little scared.
Tangle 2: I am out, what about the children?
Tangle 3: ask the leader, and the leader says: support, but only at the spiritual level! All kinds of expenses will not be reimbursed, and the safety is at your own risk.
Safety second, no reimbursement, going out to buy a plane ticket is my salary for one month. Trains save money, but it takes three days and two nights. How many days do I have to walk to get there? I finally decided to go, and no difficulty can stop my pursuit.
On the morning of 30th 10, in the rainstorm, I started from Jingdong County, Pu 'er City, and the first stop was Kunming, the provincial capital. According to the normal travel at ordinary times, the eight-hour bus arrives at the provincial capital at 6 pm.
It has been raining heavily for many days, and the road surface has collapsed everywhere, all the way. Lu Yu collapsed and stopped, waiting for the road team to leave the road and pass quickly.
At the most dangerous time, just after shoveling the landslide, when the blocked car slowly passed by, there was a loud noise and mudslides roared past the hillside. The car in front is about to be buried. Just then, the bulldozer of the construction team rushed forward, and the car was suddenly pushed and rushed out. The mudslide hit the bulldozer, but fortunately it was not buried, and the rear of the car was pushed, which was seriously disabled. Fortunately, no one was there.
In this way, I stopped and walked until 3 1 3 1 in the morning, and finally arrived at the station safely. I walked 15 hours on the road.
I left the station, found a hotel nearby and took a bath. It's already past two in the middle of the night. I am flying at 8: 30 on July 3 1 and I have to arrive at the airport two hours earlier (before 6: 30). It took me more than an hour to take a taxi from the station to the airport without traffic jam, which means I have to leave the station before 5 o'clock. Look at the time. It's past two. Then I went to the airport. The plane took off on time, stopped in Yichun, Jiangxi, and arrived at Shanghai Hongqiao at 1:30. Then I went to the station, bought a high-speed train and went straight to Kunshan. Take a taxi from Kunshan Station and arrive at the registration place. It was past four o'clock in the afternoon. For two whole days, I walked on the road for more than 20 hours and finally arrived safely.
I am very tired, but I can travel around. I don't feel hard, but I am full of expectations.
Six, with the heart of desire, down-to-earth growth in care.
Along the way, Mr. Liu Enqiao kept sending me messages and asked me where I was again and again. Then tell me how to go and how to do it over and over again. Everywhere I go, I ask the staff first. I can feel that from the moment I left home, Mr. Liu Enqiao never felt at ease. Later, I heard that Director Liu asked the Foundation for instructions in order to reimburse my round-trip air ticket. This concern can't be described in words. After settling down, Director Liu took us to dinner, and then I met my mentors Ding, Liang Zenghong, Yangliuhe. Every tutor is so concerned about me, and I am very touched and keep me warm.
Three days of professional training, for me, is a spiritual wash. I am surprised, impressed and determined! Before, I was just a frog at the bottom of a well, making noise every day and being complacent about how wonderful my cry was. I hope that one day the whole world can hear my "wonderful" cry.
I finally jumped out of the well and didn't let go of my throat, but I was fascinated by the scenery outside and impressed by all kinds of wonderful sounds outside. I dare not make any noise anymore, and I completely lost myself.
I am somewhat introverted, and I dare not speak more or express my thoughts during my study. There are thousands of words in my heart, but I can't express one thousandth, and I deeply feel my poverty. I lost myself like an ugly duckling and felt inferior. ...
Even for a moment, I wanted to give up my pursuit. It was a few words from Mr. Xu that gave me confidence again. He extended a warm hand to me in a friendly way on QQ, and I said with great inferiority, "Teacher, am I poor?"
He said: "Every enterprising young teacher is excellent, and every young teacher can realize his educational dream.
But he is composed of many elements, self-confidence, the first element! Success, build confidence, and go! "He also told me: Don't worry about a day, don't waste a day; Accumulate over time, and finally achieve something! I finally got up the courage to tell him how I felt. I told him: this time, I feel inferior and feel that I am the worst of all sparks.
He replied firmly to me, "I think you are the best!" " "He said:" 1, you have the heart to pursue; 2. You have the courage to pursue; 3. You have the pursuit of action; 4. You met the opportunity you sought. "
The lost heart once again found its own coordinates, although I know these words are just to encourage me, because I am really the worst of all sparks, I can't speak, write or express myself. ............................................................................................................................
With so much care and encouragement, I will surely grow steadily.
A thousand words of gratitude, buried deep in my heart, defend my faith with practical actions, and then go on firmly, so that I can gradually become a different China person in the storm!