Liu Shisan was born in Yunbian Town, is his grandson, and belongs to the heir of the small shop. The grandparents and grandchildren live together and run a small shop for a living.
There is always such a scene in the town: running after Liu Thirteen with a broom, cursing "you little bastard" while chasing. When he was in primary school, Liu XIII decided to stay away from Wang Yingying and leave the land of Shan Ye.
Liu has been carrying a holy book since he was a child. In fact, it is not a book, but he put it together with manuscript paper. Because it is written in this book, Liu Shisan will try his best to do it, and this book has its own unique significance.
The first page of the book was left to him by his mother: stop playing and study hard. When I grow up, I want to take an examination of Tsinghua Peking University, work in a big city, find a girl who loves you, get married and live a happy life. From the second page, childhood Liu XIII wrote down his own plan, line after line, like a poem that can never be finished.
Liu is very self-disciplined, and he hasn't reached the self-discipline he deserves at his age.
He has been diligent and planned since he was a child, and he knows what tasks to accomplish every day. But the score of the college entrance examination made him understand a truth: many things in the world can't be done without planning and perseverance.
Later, he went to an ordinary school, talked about a confused love, and found an ordinary job after graduation. Later, lovelorn and unemployment made him fall into the lowest valley of his life.
Liu, who had been clamoring to stay away from living in big cities since he was a child, was drunk by two pots of rice wine and drove his tractor back to Yunbian Town overnight. Liu Shisan didn't know how the thin man moved him and his heavy luggage. What he didn't know was that it was the late stage of liver cancer.
There is a line in "Coming Back": ideals push people forward, relatives drag people back, and then we spend our whole lives running back and forth between the front and our hometown. It's just that Liu Shisan didn't go back and forth between his hometown and the front line. From the day he left, Liu wanted to stay in the beautiful big city that his mother described to him forever, ignoring that there was an old man waiting for him to go home in his hometown.
Liu, who has returned to a small town, still wants to go to a big city because he made a bet with others and sold 100 1 policy within one year. This is a question of the dignity of a man in Zuowei Liu. He must make a profit from this gambling. If he loses, he will have nothing.
Support him to keep his own ideas, but the only hope is that Liu Shisan can stay and propose to start a business in a small town. Wang Yingying, who has always been energetic and strong, also has his own worries. She is afraid to walk alone in the last stage of her life. She was afraid that her grandson would have no home without her. She is afraid that Liu Shisan will wander around the world alone.
Death is the result that everyone will arrive. This is not the most terrible thing. The terrible thing is that when you are not ready to die and worry too much, life is counting down.
Later, Liu did not leave.
The town is still bustling, Wang Yingying will still chase Liu Shisan with a broom, and Liu Shisan's favorite dishes will still float out in the yard.
With the help of Wang Yingying, Cheng Shuang and Qiu, Liu XIII achieved the policy goal, but at this time he no longer cares about this figure. The most important person in his life, Wang Yingying, said that she would have a home and leave forever and never come back.
Wang Yingying's last words were: Thirteen, Xiao Shuang, you should live well and live beautifully.
The town at the foot of the mountain seems to be hidden in the mountains, covering the sky, misty, quiet and gentle. Yes, gentle. Go, Liu Shisan is sitting on the couch in his yard, thinking about Wang Yingying in the sky. Liu Shiduo hoped that Wang Yingying could still chase him with a broom and scold him loudly.
Yes, he misses Wang Yingying very much!
Close the book and the story will be over.
For a long time, my mood has been restless. My grandmother named Wang Yingying reminds me of my grandmother. They stayed in their hometown all their lives.
I wasn't there when grandma left, so I didn't see her for the last time. According to grandpa, grandma walked peacefully and the disease tortured her for many years. Walking like this is a relief. Adults say that grandma has gone to heaven to enjoy happiness, and I am willing to believe this.
Grandma has been gone for more than a year. To tell the truth, I seldom think of her these days. Sometimes I feel a little heartless and cold-blooded, and I miss my loved ones so lightly, as if the past has passed, but occasionally I suddenly think of something related at a certain moment, but I am not as sad as I thought.
I think it's because I don't love grandma enough. Because the feelings are not deep enough, I accidentally missed it.
By rights, I should love my grandmother very much. She accompanied my childhood. Since primary school, my brother and I have been left-behind children, my parents are working outside, and my grandparents take care of us. At that time, grandma prepared three meals a day. She can make big steamed buns and potatoes, so that we can never get tired of eating them.
Maybe it's because I always think that my grandmother prefers boys to girls, and my uncle's son is eccentric since he was a child, and he is always very kind to his younger brother. This is also a recognized fact, so no matter how long she is with me, I can't love with all my heart. There is always a thorn in my heart, firmly inserted there, reminding me that "grandma doesn't like you, she likes her brother."
People are so stubborn sometimes. Once you have decided something, it is difficult to change your impression of it.
Later, I went to junior high school, started boarding and went home once a week; I am in high school, and my studies are tense. I go home once a month; I went to college, and the distance was even farther. I go home once every six months. As time goes by, I go home less and less, and I have less and less intersection with my grandmother.
On the day I left home, grandma never told me that she missed me, and I never told her that I missed her. I don't know if we really don't miss each other, or because we are both people who can't express and reveal our feelings.
But all this is meaningless, because grandma is gone, and I will never have a chance to say it myself.
I still remember last year, when I approached the land where my grandmother slept quietly step by step, my heart gradually became heavy. I don't know what to say, but I always feel I have to say something. A pile of loess, a monument, the desolation around, the silence of the mountains, a summer mat hit my heart. I wonder if grandma will feel lonely here.
Silently staring for a long time, the words "Grandma, I'm coming to see you" came out of my mouth slowly, and tears came down unconsciously. I always thought I wouldn't cry At that moment, I found that the thorn in the little girl's heart had long since disappeared. She just didn't understand, and didn't know how to care until she lost it.
Now, when I read that I would chase Liu XIII with a broom, I suddenly remembered a scene when I was a child.
At that time, I was always very playful, playing at my friend's house until I had no concept of time. Every time it's time to eat, grandma will shuttle through the village, calling my name and asking me to eat. At that time, some folks always told me, Xiaowan, your grandmother asked you to eat. Hearing this, I ran back quickly. Grandma usually turns around and finds no one, so she goes back, because she knows I must have gone back. When I was a child, I didn't let my grandmother worry, and she scolded me every time.
At that time, grandma's call was like a spell, and I was always annoyed by it when I was not sensible. Now that I think about it, it is actually a very happy thing. No matter where you are, someone will ask you to come home for dinner.
Liu Shiduo hoped that Wang Yingying could still chase him with a broom and scold him loudly. Moreover, I also hope that grandma can walk around the village, invite me to dinner, and then tell me about it at home.
Yes, Liu Shisan misses her, and I miss my grandma, too.
The real death is that no one in this world remembers you anymore. Death is not the end of a person, but life really comes to an end when it is forgotten by everyone. Therefore, I believe that Wang Yingying is still here, and grandma is still here. They just went to another distant place, guarding us in the distance.
Wang Yingying lives in Liu Shisan's heart, and grandma lives in ours.