? Xiao Feng was lying quietly on the hillside, tears falling from her cheeks shining in the sun. In this quiet place, maybe the injured people always hope to get a little warmth from the sun!
This hillside lies behind the middle school. When they were in high school, they always took time to cultivate their feelings here. Now, everything has become the past.
He has known Juanjuan for five years, but they have been apart for three months. Just half a month ago, Juanjuan called him and offered to mend fences with him, begging him to give himself and each other a chance, but Xiaofeng refused after all.
He fell in love with her when he first met her in the second grade. This kind of love is willful for no reason. He thinks it may be love at first sight!
Although they are facing the pressure of college entrance examination in middle school, they will always pay attention to the quality of love. Xiao Feng, in particular, as a boy, always does something romantic to amuse Juanjuan. Because the school is a boarding school, he will help Juanjuan cook and wash dishes like most boys in love, and even sneak into the girls' dormitory to take Juanjuan's dirty clothes back for hand washing, and then secretly send them back after washing them. In life, he will try his best to meet Juanjuan's requirements.
In the third year of senior high school, when he knew that Juanjuan was going to Beijing to study at a university, the academic gap between them made him clearly understand what this ideal meant to them. But he really loves her, and he wants to do his best to protect this love. So he worked hard to improve his academic performance just like Ke Jingteng, the hero in the movie "Those Years: The Girl We Chased Together", just to go to the same university as his girlfriend in "Top Students". But he is not Ke Jingteng after all, and he is not so lucky. He failed in the college entrance examination that year. But he chose to repeat, and this time he thought he must succeed. Of course, Juanjuan is willing to wait for him in his favorite university. After all, Xiaofeng was his first love, a beautiful first love.
After repeating this year, their relationship is as good as before. Juanjuan told him interesting things in college, and said that when he went to college, they would do many romantic things together. Every time I talk about this topic, Feng Xiao is more determined in his heart. Only in the end, he failed again. In fact, it's easy to get a second grade with his grades, but he is bent on being with Juanjuan, so when he filled in his volunteers, he only filled in one volunteer. So in the end, he didn't go to school.
We all thought their campus romance was over, but it wasn't.
Juanjuan and Xiaofeng agreed to go back to their hometown and work in a small county after graduating from college, and then they got married. Xiaofeng believes Juanjuan's promise and is willing to wait for her. Only this time, he chose to accompany him so as to stay with Juanjuan.
He came to Beijing alone for her. Because of education and other reasons, he couldn't find a suitable job, and finally he did manual labor in a restaurant next to Juanjuan school. He often goes to school to find her, but she never lets him in. No matter how much Juanjuan likes it, Juanjuan only sends him to the school gate every time. He doesn't even have a confidant in Beijing, only Juanjuan is his closest relative. Whenever he calls Juanjuan to talk about the weather, he hangs up in a hurry on the grounds that she wants to review her lessons. Slowly, this kind of life has become normal.
It was not until Juanjuan's birthday that this state of life was broken. He bought Juanjuan a big cake with exquisite packaging, and a suit she took a fancy to when she went shopping last time. He came to the school gate with a gift after work. He knew that Juanjuan didn't like him going to school. For two years, although he felt a little uncomfortable, he did what Juanjuan wanted. That night, he made a dozen phone calls, but Juanjuan didn't answer. He was in a hurry and walked straight into the school. This is his first time to go to this university, or a university in Juanjuan. His heart is complicated. Because he had sent a courier to Juanjuan before, he knew her dormitory address. It turned out that she went out with a man in the afternoon and never came back.
At the moment, his heart ached. He subconsciously looked down at his watch. It was nine o'clock ... all he had in mind was anger and sadness. He stood at the school gate waiting for her. It was a cold night in late autumn in Beijing, but he just stood and waited. It was not until one o'clock in the morning that she came back in a luxury car. Seeing her sitting in another man's car laughing so happily, he almost despaired. He watched her coming to him with a gift from the man. He fought back his anger and asked her who the man was. Later, they had a big fight and never contacted each other again.
Finally, he returned to the small county town of his hometown alone and found a relatively good job with the help of his parents. During the five-month separation, he often walked up and down this hillside full of their beautiful memories and looked around. Maybe time is the best medicine to hurt feelings. Although he hasn't forgotten her, he finally calmed down and figured something out, and it seems that he is no longer obsessed with that feeling.
Until half a month ago, there was a call for peace from Juanjuan, and there were some waves in the originally peaceful life.
"I lived in the basement for two years during my days with students in Beijing. How I want to live in a house with windows, really, I don't want it to be good, I just want it to have windows. When I came home for the Spring Festival, you said that you had never been on a plane. I bought you a plane ticket with the money I had saved for nearly half a year, but I got on the train back to my hometown. I'm really tired in Beijing, you know? Two years in high school, one year in repeat school, and two years in accompanying school. I loved you for five years. In these five years, I love you without reservation. I know that the growing gap between us has made me almost unable to reach you several times, but I still insist on loving you, but what did I get in the end? I love you, but this love makes me tired, Juanjuan, let's do it, let's do it. " Xiaofeng turned Juanjuan down in tears. In his heart, he knew they couldn't go back. In particular, Juanjuan wants him to stay in Beijing and work hard with her, but he knows in his heart that he can't stand it in Beijing.
No matter from the feelings or values, I can't go back.
I think this should be his last visit! It seems that the best love is mostly submerged in the waves of reality. I still remember the line that the heroine said in the movie "You at the same table", "We finally lost to reality, and no one owes anyone". Perhaps this is the true portrayal of this campus romance!
Because of love, so rely on; Because of habit, I don't hesitate. Even if it is doomed to be missed in reality, it still brings pain to the lover. No matter whether you love or be loved, your heart is hurt and the reality is very difficult. How can you get this love back?