Let me analyze it and give you some comments and suggestions:
As a person, there are many things to consider when living in the world! You must make it clear, so as not to hinder your thinking and progress.
According to the analysis of philosophy of life, this situation is actually a positioning of people, and your positioning obviously needs the ultimate positioning, because you have been exposed to many books in the past, which give people wisdom and make people think about something invisibly!
Since man came to this world, he only had the initial contact with his parents, so that his parents were his world, and all opportunities for learning and worship were given to them. Usually people firmly believe in this truth and have been accepting their parents' words since they grow up. All the influences and evaluations of parents on themselves have become their own standards for judging themselves. If parents just deny or attack their children during this time, it will reduce their judgment of themselves and cause them to cringe when facing things. This will eventually lead to the imperfection of the child's personality growth, which is independence and immaturity! That's why the counselor will ask about your experience!
But with the growth of age and experience, people began to question some authoritative things. At first, the questioning of parents will gradually expand to the questioning of the whole authority, and finally the questioning of the whole world and the whole mankind. If your question is about human beings, it will naturally involve philosophical propositions. Questioning is the expression of your thinking ability. We thought all this was true and correct when we were studying, but now we hope to find out why it is correct again through our own brains. This is a process of acquiring thinking ability! This is also a reflection of whether people can get creativity! Because this time is called breaking, it is said that only when there is breaking can there be standing! Then when you have a high humanistic quality, you will go to extremes. Since what they say is not credible, what is credible? This road continues to ask people the ultimate question, so what is true? What is eternity? Who are you? How can I prove that I am who I am? This question has been asked for thousands of years. Only you know how to answer! If it's just this ultimate concern, I suggest you read books on philosophy. It's important to think more than just read!
All of the above are about people: "fate", that is, how to prove that I am still alive! But remember, the so-called people actually include "life" and "death", and only one of them is not a complete person! If all the above questions are about affirming life, then death is about denying life! The so-called right and wrong constitute a world, so if you don't get enough emotional support in the early stage, or if you don't get others' affirmation, or because of psychological defects, it's easy for people to feel a sense of fear when facing various things. The so-called real source of fear comes entirely from themselves, and their denial of themselves forms a system to judge yourself in your heart. In this system, you have no confidence in yourself and feel inferior, and then you go to autism. If you continue to develop, you will ignore yourself and don't know what value you have. The final negation is that you don't exist in this world and are going to die! If this kind of negation is manifested in real life, it is when you face something, in fact, before you do it, you have already made a judgment on the result of it! Because you feel that no matter what you do, it seems that it has no effect on the outcome of things! If so, you should understand that when you judge yourself, you can always play a role in the development of things, even if it turns out to be a failure, because your existence is a role in this world!
This kind of psychological production may be that you have a knot, which makes your original evaluation of yourself drop again! I suggest that if this is the case, you should complete a transcendence in understanding and a change in mentality. Don't compare this thing with others, thinking that you are always inferior to others!
If not, it's about your life orientation! If you don't want to be so deep, I have to ask you, what do you want? That is, the conflict between your body and heart! If you want to find meaning and value, think about it. How can you get meaning without pain? Find your goal and keep going!
Remember that difficulties are not terrible. It is because of all kinds of difficulties that your spiritual strength will be accumulated and sublimated, and you will be more calm and confident in the face of other things!
I hope these are helpful to you!