At this time, it was only after eight o'clock, and the street sweeper in the garden finished sweeping the road. Two or three workers who collect rice at the head of a lion's head have already sailed and swung into the river. There are several thin white clouds in the sky, and the blue sky covers the earth like a circular curtain. In the distance, Jingshan is shining in the morning, the pine and cypress are shining with golden light, the cool autumn wind is blowing on the river, and the silver waves are surging gently. There are not many tourists in the park, and the vast and quiet air is everywhere. On the south bank of the river, there is a policeman in yellow, walking along the riverbank with his hands behind his back, looking around from time to time.
Miss Yunluo and her friend Ling Jun walked slowly in the shadow of pine trees. Yunluo girl's expression is very clear and proud, as if autumn, blooming chrysanthemums are covered with frost. Young Ling Jun looks very burly, with two eyebrows like swords and deep eyes, which often reminds people of ancient chivalrous heroes and first-class figures.
They walked side by side and unconsciously reached the river bank. At this time, the lotus flowers in the river have already died, and even the lotus flowers have been lit. There are only some stalks and leaves left on the river, standing in the water and shivering in the cold autumn wind.
Miss Yunluo took out a small handkerchief from her wallet, wiped her face, looked up and said to Ling Jun, "I received your letter yesterday and read it back and forth five or six times. But Ling Jun, I really can't answer you! ..... I often worry that I don't know what result we will get ... Let's have a good talk today! "
Ling Jun hissed, "I hope you can finally allow me ... didn't you promise to be my good friend?"
"oh! Ling Jun! But what else do you want besides being good friends? ..... and in fact there are so many obstacles, what can I do? ……"
"Yun Jie! ..... "Ling Jun quietly cried, bowed their heads and sighed. So they were silent for five minutes. Miss Yunluo pointed to the chair in front and said, "Let's find a seat and talk slowly!" " "Ling Jun said," good! We really should talk, Sister Yun! You know I can't control myself now! ..... Sister Yun! God knows! I miss you all the time. I am often bored now, and I am willing to die! "
Cloud rose sat down in the chair on the left, put the umbrella beside her, and pointed to the chair on the right to let Ling Jun sit down. Ling Jun sat down listlessly. Luo Yun said, "Ling Jun! To tell you the truth, our future is just friendship-or if you are willing to be my brother, then we can still have the love of brother and sister. Apart from the above relationship, we have no more hope at all. Brother ling! You calm down. Do you think there is another way for us to go? ..... I really sympathize with you. Since you and I met, all you have learned from me is pessimism. Brother ling! You have a bright future, why don't you go forward? "
"alas! Go, go where? Everything seems strange. I tried to cheer up several times, but it still didn't work. I also know that I am completely confused-but Sister Yun! You are not responsible for me. Sister Yun, don't worry! ..... I may find a chance to wander outside and get shot, and everything will have an ending ... "
"Spirit emperor! Your words are getting narrower and narrower. I think I'm dead! I feel guilty. I'm really sorry to drag you into endless love-and it's not calm endless love. If I am unlucky, I will be buried in this cold sea bottom. Brother ling! How sorry I am! "
"Yun Jie! Why on earth didn't you promise me? Don't you love me? ……"
"Spirit emperor! That's not the case at all. I really don't love you, and I will never come here to see you today. "
"Yun Jie! Then you can promise me! ..... Sister! "
Miss Yunluo just stared at the stopped clouds in the distance with two eyes. After a while, she took a deep breath and said, "Brother Ling! Didn't I tell you? I will always keep my feelings for the barren hills! ..... My heart has been deeply hurt ... Lingdi, don't you know my life very well? ..... LingDi, let me be honest! I really don't deserve your pure love, really! Sometimes, my love for you can make me excited from silence, make me forget many remnants of the past and make me proud, but what good is it? Forgetting is only temporary forgetting! To think of it, we still have to restore the original state, add a lot of new poisonous swords ... Lingdi! I sometimes feel that I am really a stubborn woman, struggling to survive under unnatural moral laws ... but the power of this curse is always too weak to be considered ... "
Ling Jun holds the hand of Yunluo girl, and her whole body blood seems to be boiling. My heart seems to be holding a heavy piece of lead, my mind feels stuffy and my cheeks are as red as a fire. But I can't say a word. I'm just panting.
At this moment, the sun is shining in the middle of the river. On the other side, there is a boat with two young women sitting in it, slowly rocking, rowing and floating on the waves. On the jade bridge in the east, cars are coming and going, which is very lively. And Qiu Chan in the treetops, also dumb voice noisy endlessly. There are more and more tourists in the garden.
Miss Yunluo and Ling Jun left the river bank and headed for the hills in that area. Through a cave, you can reach the quietest place in the garden. They sat down in the teahouse by the water and made a pot of fragrant tablets to drink. Miss Yunluo leans back on the cane chair, like a tired girl. Ling Jun closed his eyes and slept on the sofa. It was quiet all around, and there was no sound at all. It always lasts a quarter of an hour. Ling Jun suddenly stood up, walked over to Miss Yunluo and whispered, "Sister! I'm telling you, I'm not a coward or an irrational person. I can understand what my sister just said ... but you must believe me, sister. I didn't think so at first. I just want to be best friends with my sister and love her with the purest heart. But sister! I don't even know when I fell in love with you ... sometimes my mind is calm, and I can't help but be surprised at the thought of this layer ... but what can I do? I have a broken iron sword, and I can't break this soft silk. "
"Spirit emperor! You sit down and listen to me ... the magic of feelings is stronger than anything, and you can sacrifice everything ... but a promising man like you should be different from the average person. There are so many ways to go in the world, why must we take this impassable road! "
Ling Jun sighed, stroking the small cliff on the mountain and said, "Sister! I'm worse than a stone. Even if my sister talks, I don't realize ... sister, I also know that there are other things in life besides love, but love is always important! I thought that if a person was hit hard in love, he might be too discouraged to do anything! ……"
"Lingdi, don't think so ... Lingdi! I often wish I was dead, or I could make you forget me, so cheer up and work hard for your career. "
"Sister! Why do you always say that? If you hate me, just say it! Why do you die because of me ... Sister, I believe I love you, and I can't let you die alone ... "
Cloud girl's tears dripping on the skirt, Ling Jun still sleep on the sofa with your eyes closed. Larks twittered among the leaves, flapped their wings and flew into the white clouds. These four areas are still silent, only the quiet sound of Miss Yunluo sobbing makes this silent airflow microwave.
"Sister! Don't be sad! I also know your difficulties, my sister's aloof nature, others can't understand you, so I should always know you ... but I always hope that my sister can forget the remnants of the past and go forward with me. If it really doesn't work, I don't have the strength to force it, and I don't have the heart to force it. But elder sister, you know, my spirit and body have been getting worse and worse in recent months ... elder sister means to ask me to find another way out, which is really too painful. I obviously want to go to the south, and now I want to go to the north. Well, I just don't want to do what my sister says. I believe it's just sin and pain, sister! I venture to say ... if my sister really can't promise me, my future is too dim. "
When Miss Yunluo heard this, her heart suddenly went crazy. Here comes the problem, she thought. What will we do at this time? Indeed, in some cases, a person sometimes has to temporarily hide his innermost feelings, try to calm down and say a few words that contradict his feelings ... Now Miss Yunluo thinks this kind of concealment is necessary. She smiled indifferently and said indifferently, "Brother Ling! Your future is not bleak. I have to take considerable responsibility for you and introduce you to someone who values you ... that's life ... isn't it? "
Ling Jun seems to have seen through Luo Yun's stubbornness. He hissed silently and said, "Sister! I understand very well that my question is by no means simple! Sister! ..... I ask you, do you want love when you get married ... Sister! I bet you said yes, too. But sister, love can't accommodate a third person at the same time ... Alas, can my problem be solved by my sister introducing a valuable person? "
This is really a difficult problem, Yunluo mused silently. She wanted to say boldly, "Brother! You should find someone you love to marry her! " But now he obviously falls in love with himself ... if we say, "You draw a clear line between spirit and matter. You just love the person you love in spirit, and at the same time, you might as well be a puppet on the stage and play a wedding comedy ... "But it's really cruel and immoral! ..... So although Luo Yun thinks so, she never dares to say so, and when she thinks so, she always feels a little hot on her face, and her heart is a little red and swollen, and sometimes she is ashamed to shed tears!
"alas! What a controversial issue this is! " Miss Yunluo was silent for a long time, and suddenly she uttered such a sad word, and the air suddenly became tense. The white clouds above them rose one after another, and the autumn wind kept blowing wildly. Miss Yunluo felt that her mind couldn't keep the house, as if the earth had changed dramatically, everything had lost its stable order, and everything showed empty panic. She held her neck nervously and her heart kept beating. She was willing to cover it gently like a flocculent canopy, so that heaven and earth would be destroyed from now on, and all disputes would be over. But when the waves in her heart subsided, she looked up and saw Ling Junzheng looking at the sky sadly. The sky is still high, hills, mounds and Hechi are all there, and nothing has changed. So she cried sadly. She knows that her dream will always be a dream, and the power of facts is enormous. She has no way to overturn what is already a fact, and she can only live with her head down under all these unnatural facts.
The sun moves from the east to the zenith and from the zenith to the west at a certain speed. The shadow of the sun has shone on the top of the mountain in the west, and some crows have returned to their nests. But what about their problems, or have they been solved? Miss Yunluo stood up and said, "Brother Ling! I tell you, don't think about this problem from now on, study hard to write a manuscript, don't think about your timid sister, let's keep friendship forever! "
"Hum! That's it. -Sister, don't worry, my brother will listen to you! "
They came out of the hole and slowly walked out of the garden. The setting sun has covered the western sky, reflected on the river, and various colors are emitted from the waves.
The police by the river have changed shifts. This one is taller than the one in the morning, and he glances at them from time to time. How long will you linger for this pair of ignorant people? ! ……"
Miss Yunluo seems afraid of people's sharp eyes. She hurried out of the garden gate and got on the bus. Ling Jun returned to her home.
Cloud girl sitting in the car, turn head to see Ling Jun tram has left. She took a deep breath and felt very empty. She believes that only the soul can't leave the body, and at the same time, feelings can't leave the soul. Then how can you be silent about the barren hills? But you can't maintain your feelings alone! Alas! In the empty heart, the horror of dispute disorder suddenly appeared again. She seems to be drunk, drunk, and only feels that everything in front of her is blurred. It was not until I got home that I seemed to wake up from my dream and felt disappointed again!
At this time, dinner has been served, and the family are waiting for Yunluo to come to dinner. She hid in the house, dried her tears, forced a smile and ate half a bowl of rice with everyone. In order to avoid being disturbed by others, she complained that she had a headache and wanted to sleep. She walked into the room alone, put down the curtains, closed the door, sat in front of the book and stared at the photo of Ling Jun. At this time, the autumn wind blew out of the window, and the leaves on the vine hit the window roots, rustling and everywhere was full of desolate atmosphere.
In the autumn wind, chestnuts, Miss Yunluo hissed, and her skirt was wet with tears. She read one letter after another from Ling Jun. Every letter seems to be filled with warm and mellow alcohol, which makes her excited and intoxicated. Unfortunately, when she wakes up from intoxication, it is still empty, and it will always be empty. Although Ling Jun's innocence has occupied her mind now, she knows very well that she has no solid barrier to resist the enemy's invasion, and she has no soft silk and tough rope to bind this elusive innocence forever ... She has tried to get rid of it several times and try to calm her troubled heart, but the incurable boring bacteria seem to have spread in every blood vessel and every cell, becoming the overwhelming force of dark sorrow. When Yunluo thought of boredom, he picked up a novel from his desk and read it line by line. But what's the impression difference? She has no idea what this line means. There are only one or two words, such as "misfortune" or "boredom", which she not only sees clearly, but also remembers clearly, and from these words, she associates many of her misfortunes and boredom. She still put the book down and covered the bed, thinking that she had temporarily forgotten boredom in her sleep.
Soon, Miss Yunluo fell asleep. But when the night watchman was in the middle of the night, she woke up from her dream, opened her eyes and looked around. Nobody saw it, and there was no sound. Only the gap between the curtains penetrated a ray of cold moonlight, shining on the bookcase between the static walls and the ancient porcelain vase on the bookcase, with two or three broken white chrysanthemums in it, reflecting the bleak moonlight.
Luo Yun looked at the thin shadow of Canju and couldn't help feeling sad and full of thoughts. Get dressed quietly, get out of bed, gently open the curtains, and suddenly see the moonlight like mercury in the empty court, and the sky is sparse. But the earth is dead silent, even the flies under the window are silent, and the universe is so empty. She sat beside the case in a daze, and the past came to her vaguely. In her memory, she seemed to wake up from a deep dream-she deeply remembered that she had played various human dramas, played various roles and tasted ups and downs. But now, still recovering and living a lonely life, things in the world are really more unfounded than dreams. ...
She thought of this and suddenly saw the moonlight move from the bookcase to the case. Ling Jun's photo on the box is clearly there. At this point, her whole body's blood vessels seem to be so excited that they are about to break through, and her cheeks are like a hot fever. "alas! How stupid! " She sighed softly. She felt that her behavior was really like a newly hatched silkworm moth flying into the fire, which really made her sad and ashamed. She pondered for a long time, and her mind was at a loss, as if she were standing at a crossroads. It was dark around, and she couldn't see the future. She just stood and let fear and hesitation attack her.
At this time, the moonlight has sunk in the west and the east has shone. Miss Yunluo is still struggling to go out into the world like a walking corpse. But now she has understood that everything in the world is illusory. She decided to be silent from now on and embarked on the road of death. She denied everything, even Ling Jun's pure love for her, which seemed not enough to make her lose heart.
From this day on, she didn't write to Ling Jun either. When Ling Jun's letter came, although she was full of enthusiasm, she just looked indifferent.
One afternoon, she came home from the office. The weather is fine, the willow branches on the roadside hang quietly, and the air is fresh. She accidentally stopped at the gate of the park, and the flowers in the garden were waved by the wind. Young men and women are whispering and strolling under rows of cypresses. These harmonious beauties have a very strong attraction. Yunluo also unconsciously went in. She walked slowly along the river bank alone. I saw fish swimming in the water in droves, and the fragrance of residual lotus was blown by the breeze from time to time. She sat down beside the rockery by the river, as if something was pressing her heart, and as if she were a newly weaned child, full of unspeakable love and sadness. She wants to try to calm down. The sword of reason that hates her is gradually blunted, and uncontrollable emotions are attacking and invading, and her whole body is too anxious to speak. Without thinking, she called Ling Jun and told him to come to the park at once. Hanging up the phone, she seemed a little ashamed and regretted not calling him. But she was busy walking to the lotus pond where Ling Jun was scheduled to meet, staring at the door, eagerly looking forward to seeing Ling Jun's body ... All her nerves were beating, and her throat seemed to be stuffed with cotton wool, and her breathing could not be adjusted. Finally, she lowered her head and quietly shed tears.
(Original Novel Monthly Report, 0929, 65438+1October, 65438, Vol.20, No.65438 +0)