"Do you remember," John could see from her calm expression, "do you know everything?"
Qingran hasn't spoken for a long time, and she doesn't want to mention these past events again. It's natural, and now it's not karma. It seems unnecessary to do it yourself.
"You always knew, didn't you?" John looked at her. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I tell you?" But look at the way he is very excited, clearly don't know is disappointed in Wan Ying, or disappointed in yourself, "would you believe it? She is so gentle and kind and good to you. Your mother likes it again. It's the right place at the right time. What's the use of what I said, besides ... "Obviously, in fact, she doesn't believe that a woman with such a good appearance can do such a thing. She hoped that she was wrong, or that the part of her memory that she had lost had not been fully recovered.
In fact, in the final analysis, everyone is at fault. Do you mean forgive or not? Wan Ying's hatred is also out of love. If love fails, then hate?
John stopped talking. Yes, if it was made clear at that time, he really didn't believe it. He doesn't like Wan Ying, but he doesn't think she is bad. He only regarded this as an emotional matter and never questioned her in character.
Love, the word, is very complicated to write. I remember being hit on the head by my mother when I was a child. He always felt stupid because of this. Maybe my mother beat him not because he couldn't write well, but because she couldn't get it out. In real life, love is more complicated!
"How is she?" Ask John clearly.
"Are you worried about her?" John asked this question because there was no hatred or blame in her clear emotions.
"She is poor, too." Qingran's pain is still jumping. How can she not complain about her? However, what's the use of this? She remembered what her father used to say, good for evil. Although I can't do this, I don't have to hold on to it.
"This is a matter of law. Whether it is sympathy or hatred, we will wait for the judgment of the law." John made a noise for a long time, but his mood was not complicated. After all, she has been silently with her mother for so many years. Whether it is true or not, she has been giving, even more than his son. For him, even if she finally did that, he felt sorry. Although she designed him.
However, how can he say this in front of Qingran?
Qingran's injury is not too serious, but she is worried about the instability of the fetus in her abdomen. She was observed in the hospital for a few days, but when she was discharged from the hospital, her mother came.
"mom? Why are you here? " I suddenly realized that I hadn't contacted my family for a long time.
"Hum, you heartless, you didn't even call. I won't come to see you. I can't wait for you to see me! " My mother turned pale when she heard that Qingran was in hospital. "What's the matter?"
I really can't say it clearly at the moment, but I looked at my mother very clearly and didn't know how to answer.
"Mom, let's go back and talk. Actually, the injury is not serious. Because I was afraid that the fetus in my stomach was unsafe, I stayed in the hospital for a few more days. " John is safe.
"Ah?" Qingran's mother was pleasantly surprised. "Smelly girl, I stopped talking." The last abortion made her sad for a long time and she was always worried that it would never happen again. I am finally relieved.
Clear but frown, secretly gave John a white eye, what are you selling!
"The car is already downstairs, shall we go?" John helped Qingran pack his things.
I looked at my mother clearly and thought, you really should come. Originally, she didn't want to go back with John, but she really had nowhere to go, and she couldn't go to filial piety any more. Besides, her mother knows nothing.
"Mom just arrived, you can't make her angry." John whispered in her ear, "What's the matter? Let's talk about it at home, okay? " What he said is very modest.
Qing ran helpless and went downstairs with her mother. At the elevator, she thought of Yi Lai. "Mom, please wait for me first. I have one more thing. " She is going to see Xiao Yi, who is preparing for the operation these days. She will ask, and she will be with him on the day of his operation.
"Have you forgotten something?" Mom asked.
"No, go find someone." Qing ran sent his mother to the elevator and turned to find Xiao Yi.
In Xiao Yi's ward, I'm very busy these days. His parents and sister are there. He was closely watched these days and was not allowed to run around, so he didn't want to have any accidents before the operation.
Can't often see sunny, Xiao Yi feel very depressed, even more unhappy to see John and sunny together, but because of John's identity, first, he is sunny's husband, and second, he is his brother.
It's easy to get tangled up
Clear but pushed open the door, Xiao Yi looked up and was overjoyed. "Qingran, why are you here?"
Come in clearly. "I was released from hospital today. I'll come to see you and let you know. " She sat next to him.
"Are you ready?" Xiao Yi is still not at ease. "Why don't you stay a few more days and let's go back together after my operation?"
"The date of the operation? I will accompany you that day. " Obviously looking at him, his face is still not very good. "Don't run around again. After the operation, you are healthy and healthy, and no one cares where you go. "
"Well, go back and rest for a few days and don't come with me." Xiao Yi looked sad, but she didn't force her to stay.
Qingran thought, "Isn't it enough for so many people to accompany you?" Now Xiao Yi is like the moon held by the stars. Since the old man admitted him, those who have been far away have come back and surrounded him in turn every day. Xiao Yi has returned to the time before he fled, and there is no time to be alone with Qingran any more.
"My mother came to see me and I took her home." Qing Ran reminded him that she was not going to Yi's home now, but her home. Anyway, she is not divorced, and it is not illegal to live there.
Yao Ying heard it nearby and suddenly stood up. "Is your mother there?"
It suddenly occurred to me that they knew! "hmm." She looked at Yao Ying dull answer.
"Where is she? I'm going to see her. " Yao Ying pulls Qing Ran, very excited. Han doesn't want to see her again, but the memory of the past is still in her heart. What's related to him is kindness, right? The most innocent feelings of her girls, with their testimony, how can they be forgotten?
Qingran's mother stood outside the car waiting, and John came over. "What about Qingran?"
"What did she say to someone? Why didn't she come down?" Seeing John coming, Yan ran's mother asked.
John knows what Qingran is doing. "She will come soon. Please get on the bus and wait. " He opened the car door.
"No, look, isn't she here?" Qing Ran's mother pointed to the door of the hospital building, and saw Qing Ran and a middle-aged woman with expensive clothes came out, wondering.
"Sister?" Yao Ying let out a cry in a trembling voice, and her eyes were red.
When Qingran's mother opened her eyes wide, she vaguely felt deja vu, but she never expected that she would stand with Qingran and look at John, which was even more unbelievable.
"Don't you know me?" Yao Ying has come to find her. In fact, how can she be sure if she doesn't know in advance? How can the vicissitudes of more than 20 years not leave traces on them? "I am Xiaoyao!" Yao Ying said eagerly, they all call her that.
"Xiaoyao?" Qingran's mother is still uncertain. Why is she here?
John looked at Qingran, but her eyes were inquiring and more unhappy. How did she get brought here? What does she mean by saying that? Obviously, the relationship with her is much better than that with her own mother. He has an unpleasant and sour feeling in his heart.
"It's me, sister! You really haven't changed at all for so many years! " Yao Ying took Qingran's mother and didn't pay attention to John next to her.
Qingran's mother was also a beauty. Why else would she have such a beautiful daughter? It's just that she doesn't like dressing up. She is very simple. Unlike Yao Ying, she always dresses herself up like a flower in the art troupe. So there are so many things in the future. But this is human nature. She loves beauty.
"Haha, you haven't changed at all. You are as beautiful as then." Qing Ran's mother looked at Yao Ying, and the superior life gave her the conditions for maintenance. People in their forties are the same as people in their early thirties. "Why are you in the hospital?" She looked at QingRan. Did she come to see it clearly? Don't, she and ...
Sunny mother looked back at John again, afraid to say anything more.
Pure heart snickered, "Mom, they all know."
"This child!" Qingran's mother gave her an angry look. Did she say that? It is uncertain how big the storm will be.
Yao Ying looked at John. "Why don't you go back first, I'll tell my sister and let the driver bring it back later?"
John looked at Qingran and his mother-in-law.
"Then you can go back first." Qingran's mother said to them, "Go back and have a good rest, and don't move around," she said to Qingran, and then she was still worried and said to John, "Clean up your house and don't let her do it."
John smiled. "Don't worry, Mom, I know." He thought to himself, even at ordinary times, I don't want her to do it, let alone now.
After the two old acquaintances left, John opened the car door, helped Qingran into the car and drove home.
How long has it been? She did not come back. She thought that when the elevator lifted her up, she had a feeling of leaving for many years. When she left, her mood was so different from that when she came. She seemed to be running away when she left in a hurry. During this period, she experienced so many things, as if she wanted to open a lot at once, especially Xiao Yi's illness, which made Qing Ran indifferent to everything.
When I opened the door, there was a smell of dust inside, which immediately reminded Qingran of the house she rented with Xiaoyi, and when she left, there was also a faint smell of dust inside. But not cold. The heating is burning, which is much warmer than outside.
The specialty of John brought by Qingran's mother from her hometown is Qingran's favorite dried tofu, which is as thin as paper. Every time John looks at her infatuation, she doesn't understand it, but then she takes it into the kitchen, heats it for her, and then turns on the water heater for Qingran.
"Wash first?" Everything happened to him as before.
"Don't you think you should make it clear first?" Sitting still, some things are unclear, and she doesn't want to do anything. "Before my mother comes back."
John's busy figure finally stopped. He walked over and sat beside Qingran. "I know what you want to say, but haven't I made myself clear to you? Will you give me another chance? "
"Do you think this is wrong? Wrong can be changed. " Obviously, everything is different. Experienced a lot of things, and gradually grew up and matured. Especially now, for the sake of the baby in my belly, she should also think about it. Otherwise, after the baby is born, I will live this wandering life with her.
"Obviously, in the past, I can make you willful, but now that we have children, you should consider our children, not yourself. Don't you want him? " It suddenly occurred to John that he suddenly became nervous. No, he can't take it anymore.
When Wan Ying said that the child was not him, his heart still ached slightly. He was so happy when he had his own child, but he didn't keep it. His desire for children is getting stronger and stronger. The less he gets, the more he wants.
When he heard from the doctor in the hospital that he was pregnant again, he felt nothing but ecstasy. The agreement he had signed was quietly hidden by him. At that time, he secretly decided that no matter what, he could not let the child lose again, including the child's mother.
"I won't lose this child again. Obviously, I can't bear such a blow. I can't lose it again and again. My heart for you has never changed. " John is never serious. "If you really like others, or have no feelings for me, I will never force you, but I know you are not like this. I am the father of your unborn child, and you still have me in your heart. Apart from your sympathy for Xiao Yi, the rest is close to your concern for your brother. That is by no means love. Do you understand? "
These words are not unheard of, but John said that what she said to Xiao Yi made her stunned, which she couldn't understand. Xiao Yi doesn't know her feelings for her. She knows that she is different from John. She may be angry, angry and jealous with John, but she will never be angry with Xiao Yi. It's just that I'm worried about my heart, his illness and his helplessness.
"What have I done to Xiao Yi? What does this have to do with us?" Qing ran thought that even if she had such feelings for Xiao Yi, it would be impossible. Besides, she really doesn't expect anything from Xiao Yi except caring. She gave in to him because he was ill. How can she refuse a patient?
"My mother is here, and I don't want her to get into trouble. I'll tell her after we finish the divorce procedure. " Qing ran said this.
"Let's all be quiet. Well, I won't force you, and you don't have to leave in a hurry. Anyway, this house is yours. If you don't want to see me, I won't come. Let's wait until the baby is born. " In any case, John doesn't want the child to be wronged. Maybe, after the baby is born, everything will be different again.
There are still a few months, and that is next year.
When Qingran's mother came back at night, she was crying, her eyes were red and she obviously cried.
"mom? Why are you crying? " Qing ran is very puzzled.
"Such a good child, unexpectedly got that kind of disease, alas!" Mother sighed.
"Haven't you found the bone marrow yet?" Qing ran asked, don't?
"Yes, this is better, otherwise, how can you let Aunt Xiaoyao live!" Qingran mother's eyes are red again.
"..." Clear but speechless.
"John's mother knows about it, too." I clearly remember my mother's eyes when she saw john dodge.
"Ah?" Qingran's mother was surprised. Why didn't she listen to Yao Ying? That woman is so fierce that she can't find Yao Ying desperately!
"Don't worry, she has gone back, and ... besides, she hasn't looked for anyone at all." Qing son chased what he told himself. Suddenly, the picture of Han's mother turning around silently appeared in her mind. She estimated that such a thing would never happen again. After struggling for so many years, she is the first person to wake up!
Qingran's mother opened her mouth and tried to say something but didn't say it. She obviously doesn't believe it, but can her daughter still lie to her? It was a long time before she said slowly, "Alas, she is also a poor person!" " "
Qingran's mother came to see Qingran because she didn't trust Qingran for so long. Now she sees that Qingran and John are at peace, and Qingran is pregnant with a child. She was happy for a few days, and she didn't want to stay in Beijing any longer. She was in a hurry to go back.
"You should pay attention this time. Don't run away easily. If you miscarry again, you will never want to be a mother in your life!" Mother still worried about the baby in her stomach and urged her again and again.
"Mom, please spend more time with sunny for a few days. I'm going out in a few days. When I come back, you can go again and take care of her for me for a few days. " John, please, grandma.
After hearing what John said, my mother was uneasy, so she settled down again.
When John left, he said to Qingran, "I estimate it will take about half a month." I'll put my bank card in my bedroom drawer. You can go shopping with your mother and buy some if you like. "
"No, I don't want anything." Qingran's mother refused.
Looking at him clearly, what took you so long? In her memory, even going abroad is not so long. Is that a long time? But she didn't ask.
One day after John left, he received a phone call from Xiaoyi. "Qingran, I'm going to have surgery tomorrow."
Clear heart jump, suddenly nervous, "is it? Tomorrow morning? How can you tell me now? " She looked at the time. It's already ten o'clock at night. Is it a little late to go now? "Then I'll go to see you now." Stand clear and put on your coat to go out.
"No, I'm calling you at this time just because I don't want you to worry too early," Xiao Yi sounded relaxed. "I wanted to call you tomorrow, but I couldn't sleep, so I had to tell you."
"Are you all right?" Obviously, I can imagine him sitting in bed and calling her, and the feeling of distress is coming again. "I asked about it. The doctor said that there have been many cases of this kind of surgery in this hospital, and the success rate is also very high. As long as you have confidence in yourself ... I will go now. " Qingran has reached the door and started to wear shoes.
"No, don't come here, or I will not be able to sleep. The doctor told me to have a good rest. Let's talk like this. Maybe I fell asleep while I was talking. " Yi quickly stopped it.
Qingran's mother also caught her. "It's so late. You can only make him worry about the past you. You are adding chaos. "
"Well, I'll tell you." Qing Ran leaned back on the sofa, listening to Xiao Yi rambling about seeing her for the first time, talking about his childhood, talking about his dribs and drabs in recent years, and saying that he didn't know today that he couldn't do anything without blood relationship. Only today did he know that his father cared so much about him. Although not biological, he added that the same kinship is unstoppable.
Obviously, her mind is twitching, and she doesn't understand. She didn't delve into it. She thinks that Xiao Yi must be very nervous before the operation, so she just needs to listen.
"QingRan, I have a sentence. Will you listen? " Xiao Yi suddenly asked.
"Listen, am I not listening?" Qing ran immediately promised.
"Don't listen with your ears, listen with your heart and do as I say." Xiao Yi made it very clear.
"Ha ha, well, I listen to you." Qing ran thought, what else can he say? You won't let yourself jump off the cliff, will you?
"Don't divorce him, you have a good life, no one will bother you again, let him take care of you for a lifetime." Xiao Yi's voice came from a distant place, but it was clearly heard in a clear ear.
"... fool! "Clear but heart sank. Is he worried about his future? Is he afraid that his operation will not succeed? Didn't he say not long ago that he would leave him and let him take care of her?
Although obviously don't want to rely on who to take care of, but such words from the mouth of the small easy to say, it is this time, she was cold, "why do you want to say this? Shouldn't you be taking care of me? Do you regret it? " Just blurt it out.
"Clear and obedient, I know, he loves you, I can see it." Xiao Yi still insists, waiting for a clear commitment.
"Are you worried?" Clear but raised his voice, "didn't I tell you? You can do it, you can succeed. Your father found you the most authoritative surgical team in the country, and the matching point of bone marrow is also the most consistent. What are you afraid of? I will wait for you. If you have anything to say, just wait until the operation comes out. " Qing ran hung up the phone, tears blurred his eyes.
She didn't give him the chance. He wanted to finish and explain clearly, and then he went to sleep. If he doesn't want to wake up, he won't wake up, leaving these people who love him and worry about him outside to wait for him to come out? Unless I die!
Mom is coming. "It's getting late. Go back to the bedroom and sleep. Aren't you going to see him enter the operating room tomorrow? "
My mother went to see Xiao Yi that day. He and Han had such an imagination, but much thinner than Han Yuedan, not mature, but like when he was young. I suddenly cherish it in my heart, and now I am very sad and I am crying in my heart. "Mom will go with you tomorrow."
Qing ran back to the bedroom and lay on the bed, but she tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. He hung up in a hurry, but he didn't call. What's he thinking? I can't sleep. What can I do without a good rest? She picked up the phone, hesitated again, thought for a long time, and entered a short message on her mobile phone. I want dove next Christmas! She sent it.
After waiting for a long time, the mobile phone "beep" rang, and I hurriedly opened it. "Ok, I'll buy it for you!"
Tears flowed freely, winding from the corner of my eye to the pillow towel, which made me dizzy. Close your eyes clearly, pigeon. Did you use this sad story prop wrong?
I can't sleep well, and my dreams are full of twists and turns. When he opened his eyes, the window was slightly white, and he suddenly sat up. It's early at first glance, but I can't lie still.
She got up and went to the bathroom, patted her face with clear water, and let the cool water stimulate her sleepy brain.
Mom came out of the bedroom. "Why don't you sleep for a while so early?"
"Mom, I want to see it." She is always uneasy.
Mother sighed softly. "All right, I'll go with you." Turned and walked into the kitchen, took out a glass of milk and some bread. "Eat first."
Qingran shook his head. "I don't want to eat. I'll buy some steamed buns later. I will eat with Xiaoyi. "
Mother nodded helplessly, dressed neatly, and they walked out of the apartment together.
When they arrived at the hospital, the ward was empty. Suddenly, Qingran's hand holding the steamed stuffed bun was released, and some vain feet were unstable. She leaned gently against the wall and looked at Xiao Yi's mother and sister in the ward. "Go in?"
Yao Ying shook his head. "I'm going to the disinfection room to prepare."
"Come back?" Obviously, I don't think he has eaten yet.
Yao Ying looked at the steamed stuffed bun in her hand. "I haven't eaten outside for several days. If I want to talk to him, I will wait outside the operating room and go in later. "
Qingran suddenly lost his strength and couldn't lift his feet. She sank, moved her feet hard, held the wall, finally stood firm and came to the elevator exit step by step. Surgery car came, sunny but just approached, somehow have the strength, fierce walk a few steps, "a little easy? ! "
Xiao Yi looked up in the operating car, wrapped tightly, leaving only a little face. When he saw Qingran, his eyes dropped. "Clear!"
Qing ran up to him and tried to grab his hand, but the doctor stopped him. She put her hand over her mouth, trying not to show any expression that would affect Xiao Yi's mood. She put down her hand and gave a far-fetched smile. "Come on!" She said to him.
"Well, come on!" Xiao Yi smiled and was pushed in.
At the moment when the door of the operating room was closed, Qingran finally sat softly on the ground. ...
In spring and March, there are still cool winds in Beijing. Young girls wrapped up in winter can't wait to put on thin skirts and can't help shivering in the wind.
Willow trees in Beihai Park hung on the water and kept swinging, as if they had finally drunk sweet water after a winter thirst. They stuck their bodies in the water for a long time and refused to come out.
A young woman, wearing a cream coat, stood by the water, and tender willow branches brushed her shoulders gently. She couldn't help looking back and saw the palace of Qionglou Yuyu in the distance, which was the palace of Qing Dynasty and Qing Dynasty. Closer, perhaps, is the palace of princes and ministers. Is he in one of them?
Qing ran frowned gently, looking for it in those undulating ancient buildings. Will he stand by the window now and climb the stairs to overlook?
Xiao Yi has never appeared in front of her since she left the hospital. He experienced postoperative torture and the pain of radiotherapy and chemotherapy. These times, he has been a person silently endure, don't let anyone see. Watching his parents grow old all night, he suddenly grew up.
Obviously, he might know that John gave him the bone marrow because he never saw her again.
When Qingran asked Yao Ying, Yao Ying just said that he was quiet and docile, and more filial than before, which made her even more uneasy.
Qing ran is not at ease. She always wants to see her. She is in good health and can't have any more psychological problems.
John came with a bag of hot chestnuts. Now that his company is on the right track, he can have more time to pester Qing Ran. Qingran has gone with him from initial resistance to later helplessness.
"Come, sit here, I'll peel chestnuts for you. They are just out of the pot and very sweet. " He spread his clothes on a bench by the water.
Qing ran dragged his waist slowly and picked up his clothes. It's very expensive. How can it be used as a cushion?
John grabbed it again and put it down again. "Listen, nothing is more valuable than my wife's stomach."
Gave him a clear white look. Recently, he has become more and more glib. A handsome face always has a bright smile, and a clear and firm heart begins to shake. I think, should I forgive him once? However, this is another story. Now he is taking care of his children, not himself. With this in mind, he accepted all kinds of flattery with confidence.
John also sat down together, took out a chestnut from the paper bag, peeled off the shell, sent the chestnut meat to Qingran's mouth, and Qingran reached for it.
"Open your mouth." He didn't give it to her, but put it directly into his clear mouth, full of fragrance, his clear face turned red at once, and his eyes looked into the distance.
Just standing under the tree, a man suddenly appeared, tall and thin, white and beautiful under the weak weeping willows, and clearly remembered Liu Yong's Lin Yuling.
She stood up and walked towards him. "When did you come and wear so little clothes?" She didn't notice.
"Just arrived." He looked at her deeply, as if to see her in his heart. But just for a moment, I turned my eyes to John in the distance. "I shouted-brother-he said, you are here."
He finally admitted it! I've thought it over, but it's embarrassing after all, right? That didn't go well.