Susie, Zhou Qing's best friend, told me that Zhou Qing was in love again.
At that time, I had fallen in love with Zhou Qing and broke up again. Now I have a new girlfriend. Even so, my heart trembled uncontrollably.
Susie blinked and asked me, "Do you still like her after all these years?"
I tried to stabilize my emotions and replied, "You can't understand her significance in a boy's adolescence."
2.
Before falling in love with Zhou Qing, there are many stories to tell.
That's my own story.
Zhou Qing is the front desk of my freshman year. Her skin is white and beautiful, her breasts are big, her personality is not made, she is careless, and she belongs to the kind of beauty that she doesn't know. To paraphrase a buddy, it is a suitable sexual fantasy object.
When I was in the same class, I played around every day, so I didn't understand it so early. I'm not in the same class after I graduated from liberal arts in Grade Two. Every time I want to tell a joke, I always subconsciously kick the chair at the front desk-when the fat man at the front desk turned around and stared at me, I realized, damn it, the front desk is not her anymore.
I suddenly realized that I like her like a buddy.
The elder brothers always say this Zhou Qing is beautiful, with good grades and cheerful personality. The only drawback is abstinence! There are many boys chasing her. Why doesn't she understand?
To be honest, I'm curious, too.
3.
I don't often see Zhou Qing after class, but I still stare at her.
I always subconsciously search for her figure in the crowd when doing exercises and squeezing the canteen. If she is nearby, I will speak loudly on purpose, or make fun of everyone to attract Zhou Qing's attention with our noise.
At that time, QQ space was popular, and many girls put selfies on the space, but Zhou Qing was the kind of girl who never sent dynamic messages.
It's not that she doesn't play. I looked at her and praised her. She is too low-key, besides, she doesn't need to show anything.
Finally one day, Zhou Qingfa sent a photo to celebrate her friend's birthday. In the photo, she deliberately painted herself black and made an ugly expression. I smiled at the screen of my mobile phone and decisively saved the photos. After a long time of restraint, QQ invited her and sent her a string: "Hahahahaha."
She also replied a string: "Ha ha ha ha ha."
That's all she and I had in high school. I was in the same class for one year, but in my three years, everything was her.
4.
In college, it took five hours by train in our city.
I thought it was all over, and Zhou Qing could only be defined as an adolescent sexual fantasy object by me. Unexpectedly, everything started suddenly.
I don't remember how we added WeChat to each other. She still rarely sends friends and photos, and it is still dark. I can't figure out how confident this girl is that she can send ugly photos exclusively. I immediately saved the photo and took this opportunity to send her another string: "Ha ha ha ha ha."
A buddy of mine also likes Zhou Qing in high school. Some time ago, he fell in love with a Sichuan girl from the same club.
When I first entered the university, everyone was confused and everyone was in love.
My buddy asked me, "You don't still like Zhou Qing, do you?"
I typed: "Fuck, am I that kind of person?"
Okay, yes.
I sent Zhou Qingfa a string of hahaha. This time she didn't reply to me, but gave me a smiling expression.
Enthusiastic, but with malice, not playing well ... Hehe expression.
Seeing this expression, I suddenly felt that the sense of distance was gone. As soon as my brain was hot, I said impulsively, "Haha. I liked you too. "
Zhou Qing seconds back: "I still like you."
I was stunned.
That day, I got up with bare arms and laughed wildly in the dormitory. My roommate who was having a good time playing LOL looked back at me strangely. Zhou Qing, Zhou Qing, you are too low-key! I like it. I have endured it for so many years and have never seen it at all!
You didn't say so!
5.
Here we go. We are all first love, and the distance is far away.
Senior one students teased: I believe in love again! I thought you should be together, but I didn't expect to go around and get together.
Maybe I should quote Hugh: "She's really nice."
She was studying in the self-study classroom when a boy came and poured her a cup of milk tea. She returned the milk tea without saying a word and changed to a classroom for self-study. All kinds of boys are trying to please her, but she doesn't want them. As my buddy said, the standard abstinence system.
She is such a person that she doesn't like accepting gifts from strangers of the opposite sex.
She doesn't like all kinds of ball games, but she insisted on watching the live broadcast with me all night to cultivate our common interest.
On my birthday, she took a five-hour bullet train to my city. Their dormitory has access control. She told me that she was a girl who climbed the wall at four o'clock in the morning just to catch the bus and see me.
What's more, I didn't expect her to come so early and accidentally slept until after twelve o'clock ... She waited for me downstairs from nine o'clock to one o'clock in the afternoon.
I am ... on the whole, I am also good to her.
For example, I will often take photos of her, make expression packs with funny words, and often send her expressions to flirt with her when chatting with her.
She is beautiful and has innate advantages, so I began to work hard to keep fit and lift iron, trying to add masculinity to my tall and thin figure.
She won the national prize, so I studied hard and won the national prize.
I jokingly called her "Miss" and she proudly called herself "Ye". If we are together, I will block her words with a kiss and make her blush. If it is a different place, I will send a spoof on WeChat: Believe it or not, I will kiss you.
6.
I also have some shortcomings, such as I used to have straight male cancer.
Just in love, still groping. In the process of ignoring me again and again, I found my own problems one by one:
I don't know when a girl is sad, she should be comforted. I still treat her as a boy, and I will only reply "Ha ha ha laugh to death" and "Ha ha ha you deserve it";
I don't know if she has dysmenorrhea, at least she should say "drink more water" and can only say "how painful it can be" and "can't behead";
I don't know. Even if she didn't listen to advice and made a mistake later, I should never say "I knew it" or "I told you so".
I don't know when I'm in love, I must avoid the third party. I want to tell her that "another primary school girl confessed to me", put photos of abdominal muscles in my circle of friends, and specially showed her screenshots of school girls' comments on "male gods" to attract her attention and successfully annoy her.
Zhou Qing is very diligent. She is the most diligent girl I have ever met.
At the same time, I am busy with professional courses, student union, GRE, TOEFL, student union and student assistant, especially enterprising. She is tenacious, independent and unyielding. She must be the best winner in any environment. She has strong self-control, and the plan she made will be carried out.
So, she is also very tired.
Her struggle came not so much from passion and love as from persecution of herself. She can't stand being the second.
Whenever she complains to me, I can't understand: since I don't like it, why spell it like this? Live the life of a wild crane and do what you like slowly, ok?
She said I didn't understand, so she ignored me. But I can't go to her right away and straighten her face left by pretending to be angry.
This lasted for a year, and I gradually realized how tired long-distance love was. What's more, when we first started to fall in love, we were all in different places and lacked emotional foundation.
At last, she said with a sad face that she was too busy to sleep for four hours and had to get up for early class. As always, I said she wanted it, and she didn't reply for a day. I guess she's busy. I woke up the next day and received her message: Break up.
I was confused when I was together, and I didn't even understand when I broke up.
I refused to accept it, so I skipped class and went to her city to find her.
She didn't return my WeChat and disappeared. I walked around her university, always getting lost.
I suddenly found that the place where she really lives every day is so strange to me;
I suddenly found that the feelings of the past year were completely based on the huge and illusory software of WeChat.
It suddenly occurred to me that I don't even know which building her dormitory is in.
I don't know if she is dissatisfied with my ignorance of her busyness, or if I am too narcissistic to be liked by primary school girls, or if I can't give her a solid hug when she is sad ... In short, we broke up.
I sat in the canteen of her school, thought for a long time and sent her a WeChat: I respect your decision. Thank you.
I love her.
I know, she really loves me.
7.
They say first love is a bad experience. That's not true for me. For her, maybe.
In getting along with her, or in her anger, I learned a lot: how to comfort a menstrual girl correctly; When going out to eat alone with female friends, you must not take photos and send friends; She asked which of the two dresses looked better, so she casually said one and secretly bought her a second one.
Without her, I still exercise and lift iron, and I still study hard. I am fortunate to have won a national award. Whenever I am about to slack off, thinking of her desperate saburo will rekindle my fighting spirit and make my blood boil: she is so excellent and powerful that I must not lose to her!
Sometimes, I don't know if she is my ex-girlfriend or my imaginary enemy.
I made a plan: I'm going to talk about love again in college, once when I go abroad for graduate school and once when I come back to work, and then I'll meet her again when I'm twenty-seven or eight and mature enough. At that time, everything was just right, so we could talk about a just right love and have a good life.
After half a year, I did have a new girlfriend, a female student of the board game club, a sweet and lovely soft girl, nothing like Zhou Qing.
The junior is very good and handsome. We traveled together and took a group photo. She put her arms around my waist, and the innocent girl looks fascinating. I like to touch her long curly hair, which is especially supple. She is also very talented. When she saw the piano in the glass room in the scenic spot, she would improvise a song, which attracted applause from passers-by.
My junior is a clever girl. She will send me a portrait painted by her own hand on my birthday. I can guess how hard it takes to paint oil paintings.
I fell in love with my junior seriously. As for the so-called "planning", I don't know whether it is my subconscious or just a random daydream.
Many times, I get along well with my junior. She sometimes loses her temper and deliberately ignores me, just like Zhou Qing. According to my previous experience of coaxing Zhou Qing, I coaxed her to change her mind.
I feel a little guilty about my junior. Because although I have had contact with my junior, I sometimes can't help but think of Zhou Qing.
I secretly glanced at Zhou Qing's circle of friends, but she still rarely updated, occasionally from black photos. At this time, I will habitually save it immediately, thinking to myself: laugh at her after saving it, hahaha.
I don't know when the "future" is, and I don't know if I am still secretly expecting that we will have a "future".
However, my feelings for my junior are all true. This feeling takes up most of my time. It is real, flesh and blood, living in my pulse and heartbeat.
When I broke up with Zhou Qing, my high school classmates all said angrily: I don't believe in true love anymore!
At one time, my junior was chasing "Why Shengxiao Mo", which tells the story of loving each other and finally meeting each other. In too many TV dramas, the hero and heroine love each other deeply, and their love will not be destroyed by any external force. They will never fall in love with anyone halfway.
I have asked myself more than once: Do I have to love each other until the end to be considered "true love"?
So, can my feelings for Zhou Qing and junior be regarded as true love?
8.
Suddenly one day, I found that I couldn't see Zhou Qing's circle of friends updated.
I haven't seen her in a black photo for a long time. I don't know what kind of mentality, I found her head and clicked in. I only saw a straight line in my circle of friends.
She blocked me or deleted me.
I'm a little sad, but I don't think so My junior is still sending me coquetry words and expressions, and I am patiently coaxing her-this patience is what I learned from Zhou Qing.
I like my junior enough to be coaxed.
When I came home during the summer vacation, I took my junior year to the city where I grew up. After supper, we walked along the street. The night wind blows gently, and it's cool. There are many street stalls selling cheap clothes, socks, toilet seats, barbecues, stinky tofu and hot soup. The unique lively atmosphere of this city.
I can't help but think of a year ago, when Zhou Qing and I were still together, we also walked down this street together. It seems like a long time ago. I don't remember what I said, but I was in a good mood.
My junior looked up and asked me what I was thinking.
Her face is sweet and rosy, which makes people tempted. At that moment, I was in a good mood.
I really like the girl in front of me.
9.
This summer vacation, Zhou Qing didn't come back. She is busy practicing. I met her best friend Susie in high school at a class reunion.
Susie sat next to me, chatting with me one build and one build. She told me that Zhou Qing doesn't play friends circle now. She felt that brushing WeChat delayed time, so she deleted all her dynamics and stopped using her circle of friends.
I thought to myself, she didn't hack me.
Sue Sue also told me that Zhou Qing fell in love again some time ago.
I can't tell you how I felt at that time. Mixed feelings. I feel that a page has been turned over in my heart.
Susie winked: "Do you still like her after all these years?"
I tried to stabilize my emotions and replied, "You can't understand her significance in a boy's adolescence."
She is the person I once secretly loved and loved. She let me feel the feeling and taste of first love, let me feel the bitterness of long-distance love bit by bit, and let me cheer up like chicken blood every time I want to be lazy. In the process of running-in, she taught me a lot about getting along with girls. ...
I have to admit, we can't be as infatuated as in TV series. I plan to meet again many years later, but that's just a beautiful delusion. Maybe when we meet again many years later, she has married someone else; In other words, my junior and I entered the marriage hall.
Looking back at the beginning, my love with Zhou Qing was too immature, too clumsy and too immature. It has its beauty, but it is inevitable to die young. I am very grateful, because of her, I learned how to love someone by making mistakes, correcting, hurting and healing again and again. I'd be a little sorry, too. If I were who I am now, the ending would definitely be different.
Forget it, don't expect to fall in love in the end, just hope that we are sincere enough at the moment of love.
That night, I hesitated for a long time, still pretending to send a circle of friends-
"The so-called true love is the moment when you fall in love. It is really true. "
Zhou Qing seconds praised.
Hehe, she is still secretly playing with her friends.