I took a deep breath and sincerely invited my subconscious to help me. Whatever Cary presents, I accept it, completely.
This is the first set of cards I drew.
Q: What do you see in the picture?
I saw three people sitting in the classroom reading?
Are you in there?
I'm inside.
Who are you and what are you doing?
I was the first to wear red. I also want to study, but I didn't spend any money. The librarian wouldn't let me read it, so I had to sit by myself.
Who is the man in blue next to you?
This is my younger brother.
What is he doing?
He is playing a game.
Who's the man behind?
That's my sister. My sister is reading. Because the money at home is only enough for one card, but only one book can be borrowed at a time, my sister borrowed her favorite book and read it carefully.
What's your expression and mood?
I was so sad that I bowed my head and wept. I also want to study.
If you go back to the picture, who do you want to say something to?
I want to say, mom, you have placed high expectations on your sister since you were a child, thinking that your sister is the material for studying, and my brother and I can only work in the future.
Mom, you also said that I have a hot personality and can bear hardships. Buy me a big four-wheeler in the future and let me pull bricks.
Mom, I don't want to pull bricks. I want to live a happy life without coolies, just like a scholar.
How did you feel when you finished this?
I suddenly felt relaxed.
What did mom say to you?
Mother said, son, I have always expected too much from my sister, because your sister is the eldest in this family and bears more responsibilities and burdens. I didn't expect my joke to hurt you so much. I saw your silent dedication to this family.
Over the years, you have been trying to prove yourself to me, and I have seen how good you are. Although you don't have a high degree or a good job, you have been studying and growing. I believe that through my continuous efforts, I will definitely live the life I want. Mom wishes you happiness.
Now look at this painting. What do you see? How do you feel?
I saw me, my brother and sister, and the three of us reading quietly in the classroom. I found my favorite book in a book wall and began to read it carefully. My expression is calm and my heart is happy and cheerful.
The second card drawn is a blank card, and the corresponding plate is deleted.
What did you think of when you drew this card?
I am at a loss when I think of my present state. I don't know how to do many things.
When you see this card, what do you think it shows?
I think it's reminding me to get rid of all the shadows left in my heart and some misunderstandings about my parents. My parents love me. Although they are not perfect, they have given me the best life I can give now. I should put down my mental burden and start a new life.
What do you think this card has to do with the theme you are exploring?
I think it's telling me that I put the mode of getting along with my family into my present life. I always want to exchange my efforts for others to see me. But others are not parents and will not fully tolerate my willfulness. Therefore, only by eliminating the shadow in your heart can you go into battle lightly and live a better life.
Third card, are you in it?
I'm in there?
Which one is you? What are you doing?
I'm the one holding the flag in the middle. The three of us are the leaders of a team and are undergoing a military parade. People on both sides of the road applauded us.
How do you feel when you see this card? What do you think it reminds you of?
I think he is telling me that if you want to be a leader in an industry, you must put down your expectations of others, make everyone around you satisfied and make everyone happy. That's fantasy and impossible.
Only by calming down and taking every step can we get the life we want.
Combining three sets of cards, I combed my heart. I see myself clearly, and I have a deep sense of dedication in my heart. Since I was a child at home, I have always been the one who gave silently, and I have been expecting my family to give me love and response. And few people see my needs and pay attention to my inner world. So I am lonely, helpless, sensitive and suspicious.
I project these unrequited loves into my interpersonal communication. Always pay blindly in exchange for the love and sight of others. When others ignore my efforts, I become crazy and anxious. The more you rob, the more helpless you are. The more you catch, the faster others will escape.
Through this exploration, I understand that I should be self-centered and love myself in the future. Down-to-earth learning and growth. Think more about what you like. For example, writing, such as tutoring.
It takes years to grow up. I believe that in the future, I will definitely become a leader in a certain industry and influence the actions and thoughts of a group of people.