Gu Shige's first love once wrote: I think it is impossible for me to fall in love with others in this life. It's not that they are bad, nor that you are too kind. It's just that my heart only knows you. It only remembers your quiet eyes and the radian of your mouth. Even though I am old, I am unambiguous. ?
First love is the most ignorant emotion and the most sincere emotion in everyone's heart. It is pure without any impurities.
Everyone has a first love and will never forget it. At that ignorant age, the first love gave us infinite hope. It was a love that had nothing to do with the world, ending in years and covering between lips and teeth.
The best years in life are probably the first love time spent.
Two people, in short, love each other, appreciate each other, don't worry about the passage of youth, just wait for each other.
At that time, love was pure and memorable, which could be called pure love of the soul.
That kind of feeling, is to meet, you panic, my heart beats.
First love is always beautiful in people's hearts, and the reason why it is unforgettable is because of the innocent time that can never be returned in later life.
In that ignorant age, the memory of my first love is unforgettable in my life, and that pure love will never be there again.
Today, when you have gone through the mottled years and weathered, do you still remember your first love when you were young?
02
In my sophomore year, I walked into the classroom and bumped into him just as he was about to run out of the classroom.
At that moment, my face was flushed with shame and my heart felt like jumping out. He pulled me up from the ground and was held by a boy for the first time. I feel very warm, as if I were sweating all over.
He said to me:? Ye Xiaojing, I didn't mean to. Don't blame me. ?
I looked down, afraid to look at him. Hmm? He let out a cry and returned to his seat. Sitting in a seat with a book in his hand, he didn't mean to read it at all. I can't stop thinking about him.
I didn't pay attention to him at first, but since then, my heart has unconsciously wanted to find him. As long as he is in the classroom, I feel at ease and sweet in my heart. But without him, I suddenly felt that I was missing something, so lost.
Then, I subconsciously ran to the playground to see if he was playing there. Many times, he is really playing basketball with his classmates, and many girls cheer for him. And I, always afraid to squeeze into the crowd, just looked at him from a distance.
I have always been a very quiet girl. I'm used to being quiet. I even talk like a mosquito. Sometimes I want to call him twice, but I can't pull the plug.
At that time, he played very well and was tall and sunny.
So he attracted many girls to cheer for him on the edge of the stadium. I wonder if he has a girl he likes. Every time I see him joking with other girls, I feel particularly depressed and then sad.
It was then that I discovered that I probably liked him.
A quiet girl like me, of course, he won't notice me. I thought it wouldn't have anything to do with him, but then the teacher arranged a seat and put him in front of my desk. So, I began to get acquainted with him.
At that time, the teacher said that there should be a one-on-one study assistance program in the class. Surprisingly, the teacher gave him to me. At that moment, I was a little confused. I really don't know whether to be happy or sad
He studied really badly and failed in every subject. What can he do to help? However, I helped him make a study plan seriously. Who made me like him?
At first, he refused to cooperate with me and asked him to make extra lessons. It was like losing his soul and he had no interest at all. I remember when I was tutoring him, he was always unhappy and shouted at me, so I cried many times.
When he saw me crying, he settled down and kept telling me that he didn't mean to. Then, he told me a lot of jokes that I didn't know where to read, which made me laugh through tears again.
After a while, he also accepted my counseling and cooperated with me. He was not serious in class, so I poked him in the back with a ballpoint pen.
That kind of situation, like Shen Jiayi in the movie The Girl We Chased Together in Those Years, likes to poke Ke Jingteng with a pen. Maybe every girl loves to express her love for boys in this way.
In this way, I maintained this relationship with him until the college entrance examination.
I remember when I took a picture of graduation photo, he stood beside me and whispered? Ye Xiaojing, will you forget me? ?
I was a little shy and surrounded by classmates, so I called him back. Don't be rude ?
Then I heard a burst of laughter from my classmates. Then the teacher came, and everyone took their positions, with cameras? Click? As soon as it rang, everyone's smiling faces in senior three froze.
After the college entrance examination, he didn't go to college, which was particularly disappointing, and I went to a provincial university that was not too bad or too bad.
I looked for him once, when he was on the court, and I thought he would be equally reluctant to part with me. However, when he saw me, he didn't feel reluctant to part with me, but said to me, What are you doing here? ?
I was speechless, my face turned red at once, and my heart was particularly uncomfortable.
At this time, he actually fierce me:? Still not going home? What is a girl doing here? ? Said, and threw the ball in his hand.
I listened, and my good mood collapsed instantly. I cried and scolded him: you bastard! ?
Then, I ran back sadly.
Later, I came to the university and told myself that I would never miss him again. In this way, until my junior year, one day I suddenly received a letter from him.
At that moment, I couldn't tell what it felt like. I gently opened the envelope, pulled out the letter and held it in my hand.
At that moment, I suddenly burst into tears.
In the letter, he said: Ye Xiaojing, I like you, always have! However, I don't deserve you, and I can't delay your future. So, forget me
This fool!
I wrote to him, but I never received a reply. I went to see him during the holiday and never saw anyone else. Since then, he has been in my world, and I haven't heard from him since.
03
Everyone has his first love, no matter how much time has passed, it will stay in the depths of memory.
When you are free, when you touch the past youth, those innocent first love stories will be provoked and become memories and nostalgia for the past innocent years.
First love, which brings us, will always be the most unforgettable. It's that simple and sincere.
In today's materialistic era, marriage and love have become extremely secular, and the first love stranded in the bottom of my heart is precious.
Love, at the moment, seems to be more and more instantaneous and materialistic. As a result, many couples who want to get married are facing many tests, such as houses, cars and bride price.
When I really experienced something, looking back, my youth at that time was really pure and beautiful. Now, I can't go back.
It is true that most first love can't be complete. Even if you love again at first, you will be separated for various reasons, and finally stay in each other's hearts and become nostalgic.
Everyone is growing up and will eventually experience different people or things, and eventually you will meet the person who makes you happier and more dazzling.
However, I will never forget the person I first fell in love with.
Just like Le Xiaomi's "Liangsheng, can we not be sad?" wrote:
From Tiannan to Haibei, and then from Haibei to Tiannan, when all the bustling world is mottled, I will come back. The most important thing in life is the initial feeling. No matter how prosperous, I always remember the handsome eyebrows of that stranger. ?
04
So, what is the first love like?
1, ignorant love, confused heart
When you meet someone, you are suddenly attracted to him. When you face him, you are at a loss and confused.
That kind of feeling is very ignorant, a little ignorant, but it must be sincere. That feeling is a daydream you have been dreaming about, and you have been looking forward to seeing him.
Even if he doesn't care about you, it doesn't affect your love for him. As long as he is here, you will feel at ease.
His every move, joys and sorrows, draws your heart, making you happy and sad, but also has a very pure sense of happiness.
2, always hazy attachment
In the hearts of boys, girls are always gentle women dressed in ecstasy; In the hearts of girls, boys are always handsome and handsome teenagers.
There are not too many impurities in such feelings, which are very pure. Maybe we don't need much contact with each other, but an occasional glance between two people will win the hearts of countless people.
Love each other's smile, voice, every move can leave a deep shadow in my heart.
Perhaps, at that time, I really didn't care about eternity, just wanted to have it.
Love blooms like a dream.
Gu Shige said in First Love: Without the simplest you, there would be a complicated me. ?
Perhaps, for the first love, that's it. Without each other's existence, that sentimentally attached heart never leaves, always pulling in dreams and blooming flowers of love.
First love, so soft and ignorant, believes in the eternity of love, which exists in the purest corner of my heart and will never be forgotten.
Every moment, every time we get along, we can find that long-lost happiness in the shadow of our dreams.
Even if there is no guardian in the future, those who have loved will have no regrets.
Don't ask for long-term companionship, as long as you look back and hold hands gently, that is the most beautiful.