If this inhalation action is done when you are usually anxious (or you think you will be anxious next), you will feel much more comfortable after it is finished; Then, this may be an obsessive-compulsive disorder. Crying because of improper communication with my father is a common problem, but it seems that this is the result of every communication with my father. Obviously, the role of "father" plays an important role in your life. It is preliminarily speculated that obsessive-compulsive disorder is related to father (or male elder at father level). Suicide thoughts, the problem is not just communication with family.
In addition, the comfort brought by this inhalation will weaken with the passage of time, and finally it will transfer and worsen the condition.
Personally, I suggest you do psychological counseling first (but the level of psychological counseling in China is uneven, so be cautious)