Psychological consultation
Too much alcohol addiction, moderate pleasure, too much harm to the body. First of all, try to give up drinking. If you can't just rely on your mind, you can try taking drugs. Get a job and try to have a relationship, so your attention will be diverted. You also said you would blame yourself afterwards. With realistic pressure and responsibility, your control will gradually increase. The hardest part is actually in the beginning You have perseverance and perseverance. I hope you can succeed.