Dieyi During my years in Changzhou, my girlfriends were all in pairs, and I was alone. This may have something to do with my family education. My parents are very traditional intellectuals, and I have been a good girl since I was a child. In my eyes, middle school students are simply doing nothing when they fall in love, and how many of them can make a positive result at such a young age?
Three years of study soon ended, and couples went their separate ways for the future. I stayed in Suzhou, where I worked as an intern and found a good job. Being in a foreign land and losing so many good classmates at once, loneliness and loneliness come to mind together. After work, falling in love should be a natural thing, I told myself, and began to pay attention to the opposite sex around me.
A Lang is a friend of my boss, and I know him because he often attends parties with him. The first time I met A Lang, he was clean, handsome, mature and steady, and a typical southern gentleman. When our eyes met, I was a little flustered.
My girlhood dream is to find someone I love very much. It's ridiculous to think about it now. How do you know what a person who loves you very much is if you don't fall in love? Only when I met A Lang did I know that my love was coming. ...
Allen and I don't see each other very often. For business reasons, he can only come to the company once every ten days. When he is away, I will work quietly and miss him quietly. When he comes, we will hold hands sweetly and walk through the streets, leaving happy footprints all the way. Everything about first love is so charming. He took care of me like family. I will pour everything about work, life and study to him. He always listens so carefully and has a kind smile on his face.
There was no formal confession, so we fell in love. Couples will inevitably have some intimate actions together, but A Lang has never asked me for anything. Although my roommate's girlfriend has lived with her boyfriend, I still insist that it can only be done with my husband.
It turns out that he has a wife and a son.
Love is not a fairy tale, always face the reality. Two years later, my colleagues saw that A Lang and I were close and kindly reminded me that A Lang was married and had children. I was surprised at that time, only to find that I had never asked him these questions in the past two years, and I didn't even know that he was older than me 1 1 year. Think carefully, A Lang is not wrong, because he never gave me any promise, never mentioned our future, and women's reserve made me not take the initiative to talk about it. Besides, for me who is less than 20 years old, getting married is still too far away.
When I confirmed all this from A Lang, there was only one decision at that time, and I wanted to go home.
There is always a lot of helplessness in life, and some things are unclear. On the night I returned to Xuzhou, I specially opened a room and wanted to give myself to him. It seems that I owe him for not doing so, because I love him so much. We all talked a lot in tears that night, until it was almost dawn and I fell asleep in his arms. When he woke up, he had already left. A note on the desk: I really love you, but I can't marry you. You will get married again in the future. I can't do anything wrong to you. ...
The day of first love became a dream, and it will never come again.
I insisted on giving myself to him on my wedding night.
After returning to Xu, I quickly found a new job with the help of my family. After that, others introduced me to several boyfriends one after another, feeling dizzy, and they all had no beginning or end. Then I met my current husband. I didn't deliberately compare Mr. Wang with A Lang, but Mr. Wang does have something like him. He is considerate and always feels warm and safe with Mr. Wang. So, I married him.
I gave my virginity to my husband when I got married. This made him unexpected. I have repeatedly refused my husband's request before. Mr. Wang once said with a sigh of relief, what are you afraid of? I love you. Even if you did something, it was before. I am noncommittal about what he said.
In such an era, I will meet an antique like me. After marriage, my husband is more gentle and considerate to me. In his words, you are family before marriage, and you are family after marriage, which is certainly better than before.