Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman's unjust imprisonment (the top secret truth of history that no one has explored)
First, some people say that Xiaoman cheated, miscarried and smoked opium. ................
First of all, clarify a concept: what is the real derailment?
Real infidelity is based on capricious thoughts, such as saying I love you here and I like you there. This is a state of infidelity at both ends.
But the patriotic king of Lu?
The answer is: no, from beginning to end.
Even after Shima died, he came to Lu again and expressed his desire to get back together. Lu Lian didn't want to talk to Wang, and he didn't say anything, so Wang cut himself off.
The marriage between Lu Xiaoman and Wang Geng, like the marriage between Zhimo and Zhang Youyi from the beginning, was entirely a matchmaker's words. His parents' orders were to repay his parents' kindness, so he obeyed his parents' arrangement, which also showed in Xiaoman's diary that he wanted to repay his parents' kindness.
Their marriage, like their birth, was completely out of their control from the beginning.
Second, in the whole life process, Lu Xiaoman hardly mentioned her ex-husband Wang Geng, and completely avoided talking about it.
So Lu Xiaoman's attitude towards Wang Geng is really well known. Is it because Wang Geng's serious and disciplined personality is incompatible with the romantic and lazy little man, and the typical workaholic is used to going out early and coming back late, and even weekends are hard to rest, so he can't spare time to accompany his wife, which leads to Lu Xiaoman's emptiness and loneliness after marriage, thus derailing Xu Zhimo?
In essence, although Lu didn't leave any pen and ink in her diary or article (I think it's a shame), she told her close friends and cousins privately. This is the root of Lu being slandered as "cheating, divorce, abortion and opium smoking". This history is deeply buried, and even today, people continue to vilify Lu Xiaoman as a woman who indulges in pleasure and debauchery.
Let's start turning a page in real history.
The following are the memories of relevant people in Lu Xiaoman.
1, taken from "The Menstrual Table I Know" by Zhuang Chi:
"Why does Lu Xiaoman hate Wang Geng, but really love Xu Zhimo?
Why did Lu Xiaoman divorce Wang Geng?
Why do you have to marry Xu Zhimo after dating him?
This is a question worthy of our consideration.
I learned the reason from my mother Jin Wu's account.
China is a country where feudal forces, systems and ideas have ruled for thousands of years. The feudal ideas that remain in people's minds cannot be eliminated at once, and the women who suffer the most are all in China.
In the 1920s and 1930s, marriage was still "the fate of parents and the words of matchmakers". Lu Xiaoman lived in those days, and he could not escape that kind of bad luck. Marrying Wang Geng is entirely the fate of Lu Xiaoman's parents.
Wang Geng graduated from the United States Military Academy at West Point and was appointed to the War Department of Beiyang Government at that time. Wang Geng is a native of Wuxi, and his family is average. However, Xiaoman's parents Lu Ding and Wu Manhua saw this son-in-law and thought that Wang had a bright future and decided to marry his daughter. ............................
According to my mother, although Wang studied abroad, his thoughts are still conservative and feudal. He lives a fixed life except going to work every day, and few young couples go out to play. The little man is not used to the rigid life in Wang Geng. Wang Geng seldom speaks, but always speaks in a commanding way, which is unpleasant.
What's more, Wang Geng regards his wife as a tool for giving birth to children, so he is not good at talking about love and emotional communication between husband and wife. Sometimes when Xiaoman wants to go out, Wang Yi must accompany him. He stands aside like a bodyguard and doesn't take part in any activities. Therefore, Xiaoman said: "Wang Geng is a wooden head!" Said "Wang Geng's eyes only care about career and promotion", Xiaoman sometimes loses his freedom because of the existence of Wang Geng, and casually jokes with friends. So Xiaoman feels that married life is very boring. More importantly, Wang Geng has no respect for Xiaoman. No matter whether Xiaoman is sick or not, he is in a good mood, holding a kind of "you are my wife, and you must assume the obligations of a wife". Their husband and wife life makes Xiaoman suffer unspeakable mental and physical pain. Therefore, Xiaoman and Wang Geng fell into physical injury and mental pain after their marriage. Later, Xiaoman met Zhimo. In the process of communication, Xiaoman learned what is "love" and "love" between husband and wife, and Xu Zhimo became more sympathetic and loved Xiaoman after knowing Xiaoman's painful experience. So Lu Xiaoman and Xu Zhimo fell in love, inextricably linked. When Xiaoman divorced Wang Geng and Xu Zhimo went to Europe to avoid suspicion, Xiaoman found herself pregnant. The little man knew that this was the result of Wang Geng's insistence on "husband and wife obligations". If she was born, Wang Geng would never agree to divorce. On second thought, Xiaoman and her personal maid secretly went to the Western Hills of Beijing, and found a German doctor to have an abortion, but it was very unsuccessful. Xiaoman was in a coma for two days and two nights before waking up. Because of his bad mood and no aftercare, Xiaoman suffered from abdominal distension, tachycardia, asthma and other diseases all his life. Moreover, German doctors can't have children after taking care of Xiaoman, and childbirth is life-threatening. The little man thinks that Wang Geng brought it to her, so the little man hates Wang Geng very much. Xiaoman divorced Wang Geng, and after he married Shima, Shima knew everything and felt more sympathy for Xiaoman. Without the slightest blame. Xiaoman was deeply moved by Zhimo's true love and loved Zhimo even more. Unlike Wang Geng, "love" is only to satisfy lust. Although Xiaoman and Zhimo had some unhappiness and little friction after their marriage, Xiaoman gave his heart to Zhimo. Unfortunately, Xiaoman lacks resolute action (going to Beijing). Later, Shima's plane crashed, and Shima took Xiaoman's heart away. When Xiaoman was dying, he still remembered that "you can be buried with Zhimo after death!" ..... Can Lu Xiaoman and Xu Zhimo be buried together? Let history and future generations decide. I think, in the kingdom of heaven, the hearts of Lu Xiaoman and Xu Zhimo have long been combined. "
2, Wang Yiling wrote' Recalling Lu Xiaoman':
"There is one thing, Xiaoman personally told Qin (Wang Yiling's wife). Today, in order to prove that Lu is by no means a romantic, we might as well make it public. She married Wang Geng for the first time because of her parents' orders, but it didn't go against her wishes. ..... Later, the reason why it broke down was precisely because Wang Geng was strong and could be greedy all night, but Lu Xiaoman felt that he couldn't adapt and told him to leave. "
These are the words of relatives and friends directly related to Lu Xiaoman.
It can be seen that Lu was suffering at that time.
Lu's pregnancy is not what Lu wants,
This is a completely unintentional unfortunate incident.
Lu knows exactly what it means if he leaves the child. For her, the appearance of this child can almost be equated with an insult and mockery of her fate. So she decided to risk her life and give up the child.
And she herself has correspondingly borne the cost and consequences of giving up the child, that is, her physical condition has plummeted since then, and she can't even enjoy the intimate relationship with Zhimo's husband and wife. As long as there is a husband and wife life, she will faint.
Chi Mo knows what happened to Xiaoman and her physical condition.
However, even so, it does not hinder Zhimo's love for Xiaoman and the deep affection in the love letter.
Therefore, Shima really loves Xiaoman, and Xiaoman is also very clear, so he would rather wear plain clothes all his life after Shima's death.
Therefore, all kinds of vicious arguments that vilify Lu Xiaoman sluts and mislead people into thinking that Xiaoman was pregnant and aborted for pleasure can be stopped.
After Shima's death, there were more people pursuing Xiaoman, including Song Ziwen of the Song family, but she didn't respond. Some people say that Xiaoman slept with Weng Wurui, and so on. However, after Zhimo's death, everyone alienated her because of their love for Zhimo, and only Weng Wurui gave her understanding and relief. This mentality of "looking for a little freedom and comfort in a lonely and cold world" made her choose Weng Wurui who had only feelings but no love. It was this Weng Wurui who gave Xiaoman a mouthful of opium and immediately stopped the pain when Xiaoman was struggling with the disease. In other words, opium is a way for Xiaoman to relieve his physical pain. Therefore, those xiaoman just degenerated for self-indulgence, and the rumors of choosing opium can rest.
Although this history was not publicly disclosed in the letter because Xiaoman was ashamed to say it,
But also left a clue in the diary of a nobody:
1. I don't go out these days, so I don't have time to write. Seeing him upset me and I didn't want to do anything.
-Why doesn't Wang Geng go out, and Xiaoman doesn't even have time to write something? Note that the word here is: no time to write.
I hate that he came back suddenly when he was writing something interesting yesterday. I wanted to spend a few comfortable nights alone and vent my sadness through a pen, but I didn't get it.
-Woodenhead is the king who works hard and only knows how to do his own thing? Why is Xiaoman uncomfortable as soon as he comes back?
I had a big fight with him today. I went back to my room and fell on the bed and cried, Mo! Why should I be ridiculed! It seems that I have done something shameful! I can't stand this life any longer.
Since there is nothing shameful, why not say it? That can only be something that is hard to say and not easy to make public.
Just like the life I live now, I suffer unspeakable pain both mentally and physically. Don't say that I can't get some comfort and pity from others, but it's not easy to ask others to understand me and know me!
-At that time, Lu Xiaoman was not pregnant, nor was she devastated by miscarriage. Why did she say that she suffered unspeakable mental and physical pain at the same time?
I find it very interesting in this silent air. I hope that no one will ever interrupt my silence and let me sit still forever.
Xiaoman, who is afraid of loneliness, enjoys being alone and prefers to sit still forever.
-According to normal logic, Xiaoman should have the most basic feelings of husband and wife even if he has no affection for Wang and has lived together for several years, but Xiaoman "would rather sit alone forever", and there is no trace of guilt and nostalgia for Wang between the lines.
On the contrary, every word reveals the helplessness of not being with Zhimo.
Throughout his life, Xiaoman's attitude towards his last marriage: at the expense of health, he tried his best to leave without leaving a trace of nostalgia, and there was no intersection from then on.
There are only two possibilities here,
In other words, Xiaoman is a slut who only cares about her own enjoyment, as those who slander her say.
Otherwise, the little man will suffer unspeakable pain.
The former has proved impossible from her personality itself, from her usual personality, from all the cultural celebrities and friends who know her, and from all the articles and diaries she wrote that bear her ideological spirit.
Then the only possibility is the latter.
Therefore, Xiaoman actually dislikes Wang Geng.
What's more, without what Xiaoman suffered in her previous marriage, there would be no extreme slander on her "pregnancy, abortion, smoking opium, and mistakenly thinking that she was addicted to pleasure in order to satisfy her selfish desires", and it would also create a tragic ending for her and Zhimo.
The opposite of resentment against Wang Geng is love for Zhimo.
Shima actually knows about Xiaoman.
In the name of "carrying on the family line", Wang was greedy all night, which made Xiaoman suffer "mentally, physically and at the same time".
Because it is justified to outsiders, what Wang did to Xiaoman in this name is supported, understood and recognized by everyone.
There is no respect for personal wishes, but naked natural lust and animal desire.
When she suffers from the pain of not being understood by secular people,
No one can understand her. Understand her
Therefore, Xiaoman suffered from "unjust imprisonment".
She was so humiliated that she didn't know what kind of pen and ink to use to describe her experience.
However, Zhimo knows everything and gives her the greatest understanding and relief.
This point is also described in Mourning for Xiao Mei Za: "Alas, I really don't know when your grievance is! No one can really understand you. If you don't understand, forget it. A group of people still come and absolutely wronged you. Bah, bullshit ethics, bullshit family, bullshit society, fuck you, the sun shines in the sky, and the water in these people's veins is cold! I can tell you now that as long as there is blood in my cavity, you will get my sympathy and help one day; I boldly accept your love, cherish your love and keep your love forever. If I rely on the grace of love, I can still send out a ray of light from my soul. This light is all yours. Please try to use it! "
"There are concessions and sacrifices, but there is a limit and an end to everything; You, a wonderful flower, have never died for a pair of parents and a husband who don't understand. You are responsible for God, you are responsible for yourself, and especially for your newfound love. You have sacrificed enough in the past, and you can't easily waste your one and a half minutes of prime time. The relationship between people is relative, and there is a reason to work. The soul is to be saved, and the body cannot be insulted by others forever, because even the body is spiritual. "
In the last sentence above, everything that the villain encountered was actually naked.
Although Shima didn't say it more clearly, Xiaoman's experience was clear at a glance.
Later, Shima once again stressed: Your heart is too soft, which is the reason why you have suffered all your life, but you should not be too vague in the future, because spirit and flesh are absolutely inseparable. Otherwise, why did Nora (the heroine of A Doll's House) abandon her home, bid farewell to her children and rejoin the desolate world? What she wants is her own personality and spiritual dignity, and she should not be allowed to insult and trample.
Shima said that insults and abuse are intolerable.
What is insult and abuse?
Not passively obeying based on one's own wishes.
However, for Zhimo, even if a person's body is defiled, it does not affect the nobility of the soul: "Now I dare not even look. I realized the truth of your noble soul from your distress and tragic. This is the reflection of God's divine light, and I can't help falling down. Now I can only hold my head back and offer you my limited true feelings and true love to announce my surprise and praise. "
So he is detached from Xiaoman,
Almost like a god, shrouded in the glory of divine love.
Zhimo played down everything in reality, because he knew that reality was like a script arranged by the director, and the actors would act according to his requirements. And this director is what people call "fate" in the real world, that is, the existence at the surface level.
Zhimo pursues a pure spiritual and spiritual height.
Unwilling to compromise with the secular,
Thus stripping the essence of appearance.
When people see the world,
The world is not unitary, but pluralistic.
Like a person, both external and internal.
So we can't judge people by the single behavior of this skin.
On the contrary, there are many wolves in sheep's clothing, hypocrites and people who are good at camouflage.
That's why people say,
There is truth behind the phenomenon.
There is substance behind the appearance.
Jin Yong also expressed the same idea in The Condor Heroes, and let the little dragon girl be raped at the beginning, but this did not affect Yang Guo's love for the little dragon girl and the nobility of her soul. Later, when Jin Yong revised The Condor Heroes in his later years, he deleted some other plots, but in any case he was unwilling to delete the plot of the little dragon girl being raped (there have been rumors that the prototype of the little dragon girl written by Jin Yong was suspected of Lu Xiaoman, and Zhimo's nicknames for Xiaoman in Love Eyebrows Zagreb were also Longlong, Xiaolong, Longle, etc.).
Jin Yong also wants to express an idea that even if a person's body is defiled involuntarily, it will not affect the nobility of the soul.
Xu Zhimo and Jin Yong happen to be cousins, and Jin Yong is also very familiar with Xu Zhimo's history.
Xiaoman's "unjust imprisonment" corresponds to Zhimo's "rehabilitating Xiaoman".
What injustice is this?
To sum up, it goes without saying.
This is the fundamental reason why Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman, regardless of the opposition of their relatives and friends, are determined to break through this "bullshit ethics" and get together.
History is sometimes like this. The more decisive the root history, the deeper it is buried, the harder it is to believe, but the harder it is to believe, the more true it is.
The naked truth is:
The essence of Wang's "love" for Xiao Man is lust and animal desire. Zhimo's love for Xiaoman is based on respect and cherish for a life, and it is a great and unreserved contribution. He gave everything not just to satisfy his own selfish desires, but to give everything and practice the belief of "love, freedom and beauty" on the spiritual level.
So the villain said in the villain's diary:
"The pure love he gave me forced me to give him a complete love that I have never given to others."
"He knows me, he can really understand me, and I understand him. I also know that he is a simple and naive person. The pure love he gave me forced me to give him a complete love that I have never given to others. "
When Xiaoman suffered unspeakable pain, he was full of knowledge and inexhaustible ambition, giving Xiaoman a "noble soul" and an innocence.
Therefore, Xiaoman painfully wrote "I hate not meeting and not getting married".
In other words, Xiaoman's so-called infidelity and Shima's stealing of his wife,
In fact, this is a story about saving one's beloved from a dirty ocean of hot water.
When the truth is covered up,
Only those who don't know the historical truth can grasp the superficial behavior and deceive themselves and slander themselves.
History has been distorted again and again in just visiting.
Every appearance has its essence,
Stupid people who only pay attention to reality and don't know the truth will seize the appearance as the essence of propaganda.
Let our ancestors be vilified.
When people see the world,
The world is not unitary, but pluralistic.
Like a person, both external and internal.
So we can't judge people by the single behavior of this skin.
There are good and beautiful human nature in this world, and there are also many wolves in sheep's clothing who are hypocritical and good at camouflage.
That's why people say,
There is truth behind the phenomenon.
There is substance behind the appearance.
Therefore, Xu Zhimo has never been mistaken for a playboy, affectionate and promiscuous.
Xiaoman is not that kind of bad appearance of debauchery, cheating, abortion and smoking opium.
On the contrary, this tragic color between them was written by the pen of "fate" and was experienced by the world. They are just performing, and at the same time, they achieve and sublimate each other in the process of performing.
They share the same beliefs and are both idealists.
This desire to break away from the secular world has become their common ideal.
But it has also become the source of tragic color.
But I will die without regret.
Otherwise, Tzu Chi will not confess to Shen Congwen, nor will he leave the hospital in Lu Xiaoman, nor will he take a small picture of mountains and rivers with him until he dies. Xiaoman will not wear plain clothes all his life and sacrifice the rest of his life to sort out and publish the complete works of Shima after his death.
Seemingly tragic, they achieved each other in tragedy.
Their love is really commendable, and history has buried the truth. However, the truth will surface one day, and one day history will testify for them again.
History must clear their names,
History has begun to clear their names!