What's it like to lose your mood?

Losing your mood is nothing to be afraid of. Not everyone should hold all emotions. Just like a joke, others will laugh, but you don't laugh just because you don't think it's funny. So treat it differently. Moreover, people will not completely lose their violent emotions. Just didn't meet the corresponding enlightening things, but it doesn't mean it was completely lost. Take fear as an example. I was afraid of the dark when I was a child, but now I can walk alone in the dark. I was afraid to leave my parents when I was a child, but now I have to support myself properly. When I was a child, I was afraid of my father drinking. Now my father has learned to drink, and he is no longer afraid of dying outside because of drunkenness. Too many things you've been afraid of disappear inadvertently until you think you won't be afraid. However, it's just dark, and I'm not so afraid of ghosts in it. I'm numb, so I won't be afraid of my father's safety. I'm so numb that you think this person is dispensable in your life. It turned out that I was suddenly afraid of "his death" at the moment of his death, which still made me very uncomfortable. In your condition, you're not out of control. In fact, it is better to be silent in some mood. This emotion is a kind of inner loneliness ... because loneliness is a kind of sadness, and the longer it is, the more desolate it becomes. And this desolation will last much longer, and the last four weeks will be more empty, and the desolation and loneliness of the whole body will devour people with emotions. It's not that I don't talk, but that no one can talk. It's not that you are not afraid of losing, but that there is no one around you to lose. Even if I lost myself, I watched myself disappear from this world alone in this silent corner. Don't let this emotion control you, it will lead you to the wilderness and death. Don't think that you are alone, you have your own dependence, and a strong heart can be your strongest fortress. Published on 2020-10-18 at 20: 05? Agree 6? Comment 1? Put it away? What if you like an uncle? Xiao Chen likes an uncle. During the affair, he asked me to go to a bar. With the strength of wine, I pointed to the glass of wine in his hand: I want to drink yours. He took a sip of his wine and kissed me. After three rounds of drinking, I pretended to be drunk and fell into his arms, but he looked very insightful and hugged my waist and said, I don't want to just play that kind of relationship with you. Be a good boy and take you home. At that moment, I was awake. I went to the partner company for a meeting that day. It's still early, I just want to go to the bathroom. Walking in with a mobile phone, I looked up and saw a man with a zipper on his pants and a mobile phone between his neck and face, listening to the phone ... embarrassed! My eyes went black, so I quickly said "I'm sorry" and turned and hid in the ladies' room. Slow down, tidy yourself up and go back to the conference room. Through the shutters, I vaguely saw a man sitting on the throne, and an idea flashed in my heart: not that one just now! When the door was pushed, my heart was half cold. The vice president is introducing you: this is Xiao Jiang of the cooperative company, and this is paid by our general manager. He said, "Yes, we just did it, didn't we, version?" I crustily skin of head and smiled very hard. I looked at the man's face and suddenly flashed the scene where he just zipped up his pants, and suddenly recalled the details. That blue and white striped underwear should be Balenciaga, right? People who will spend thousands of dollars on a pair of underwear should be able to quote a higher price, right? 1. After graduating from college, my seniors and I set up a studio, specializing in event planning and some brand design. That day, I happened to talk to Mr. Fu about cooperation. After such a big speechless event, the communication was unexpectedly smooth. Accidentally mentioned an election campaign, and the man suddenly interrupted him with a surprised face. "Do you know General Mao?" I nodded and said with a smile, "Yes, we graduated from the same school, both of whom are seniors several years older than me. The man looked at her, smiled vaguely and said, "You seem very proud of your alma mater. My school is really good, so I said with a little pride, "Not bad, mainly because the seniors who graduated from our school are still very good." He crossed his hands, put them on the table, raised his chin and said, "Let's call it a senior. I was stunned, and then the atmosphere of the meeting changed completely, as if the gap and temptation between strangers suddenly disappeared. Before the meeting ended, he and the vice president said, "You go to see the one behind, and I'll leave. After listening to that man's words, I shouted in my heart, I know, this business is mine! 2. I am a picky person about the environment and have my own set of identification system. For example, in an uncomfortable environment, my stomach always hurts when I eat, and I can always drink the smell of scale when I drink water. It didn't exist when he was on the website. I like the smell of his company's paper towels, the smell of clean water, the foam of hand sanitizer and even the height of the toilet is just right. I used to read romance novels at school, but I couldn't imagine what the president should look like. But after meeting him, I think the president in my mind is just like him, intellectual, quiet, elegant and tasteful. I also asked my other half to know that he has been in love for more than ten years and is not married. His girlfriend is a teacher, and he is quite strong. I asked how to be strong, and my friend said awkwardly, "I have been to the company several times a few years ago, but I still have to worry about what little things are put on our desks." I also think that one of our colleagues' high heels is too loud, which affects the work of other colleagues. " The little friend only said that here and gave me a wink, a look that you realized yourself anyway. Listening to these trivial things, I feel that his image in my mind is more three-dimensional and real, but when I think of his timid attitude towards his girlfriend, I want to laugh inexplicably. 3. After the scheme was confirmed, the project I was in charge of came to an end temporarily. A month later, the small partner informed that the overall effect of the activity was good. Teacher Fu invited the activity partners to have dinner together, and they must come. If you have family members, you can take them with you. Can you bring your family? I suddenly paused. It's a pity that I am single dog. Picking up the chassis, she smiled and asked, "Does your manager Fu also bring a girlfriend?" ? ""I heard that we broke up a few years ago. I don't know if it's true, but I haven't seen it this year anyway ... "My heart thumped. I broke up years ago, so it's been almost half a year ... I don't know why, but I suddenly want to eat. Everyone drank a lot after dinner, and a group of people went to KTV together. When the lights are dim, people release their nature and dance to the music. The sofa is already full of coats and bags. At first glance, there is no place to sit, and the private room is very hot. After he took off his coat, he turned his head and said something to me. It was too noisy around, so I didn't hear him clearly, so I gathered up to him and asked loudly, "What did you say, senior?" "He said," Can you take off your coat? Let me hang it together. "I took off my clothes and handed it to him, but my mobile phone fell out of my pocket. I answered the phone reflexively, but I didn't receive it, but I firmly held his outstretched hand and scratched him with my nails. The scene couldn't be more embarrassing. I quickly let go, but people were shy but couldn't help laughing, so I had to endure. Until he sat back, a man stood beside him, facing the candlelight on the table, seriously tearing my torn skin. I finally couldn't help laughing behind him. He didn't hear me, but he was still tearing his skin seriously. I lay on the sofa and laughed so hard that my stomach hurt. After this wave of laughter, I cleared my throat, approached him and sincerely apologized and said, "I'm sorry, senior." "He put his arm on his thigh, bent down and looked at me squatting in front of him, looking helpless." Have you finished laughing? Think of me? This man, who is 1.8 meters tall, has a coquetry voice at the moment, which makes my heart collapse inexplicably. This is the closest I have ever been to him, so close that I can even feel his breath when they look at each other. Finally, I made an excuse to look away and walked out in a panic. I walked along the long corridor, touched the back door of KTV and lit a cigarette. My mind rumbled, remembering that the man just now seemed to have coquetry eyebrows, and the originally sober wine seemed to reach his head again. At the beginning of the year, my senior sister got married and had children, and all the burdens of the company were thrown to me. The pressure was too great to relieve, so I started smoking. In fact, it doesn't relieve anything, but I always feel that when nicotine enters the nasal cavity, people will relax, and their brains will be blank for an instant without thinking about anything. A man was standing when the back door was pushed open. I subconsciously thought it would be him. Unexpectedly, it really is. Seeing me here, there was no accident on his face. He smiled faintly and said, "What's wrong with a cat here?" ? "I really struggled in my mind for a while, so I stopped hiding, flicked the ashes and said to him with a smile," Senior, smoking is not allowed inside. In fact, I didn't understand at that moment why I was afraid of everyone else, but I dared to be honest with him. When he saw the little fireworks between my fingers, his expression suddenly relaxed, as if he had found a companion. He took a cigarette out of his pocket, naturally pinched my wrist and lit it in front of his face. At the moment when the smoke slowly ran up, I suddenly felt that he was a little different in front of me. Elegant as ever, but smoking a cigarette, as if the whole person is full of stories. He looked at me silently for a while and said with a smile, "How can young people smoke?" . I sighed and said, "I'm worried. Although the company is small, it still supports several people. He said, "If you are so worried, why don't I accept you?" One mouthful smoke just took a deep breath, when I suddenly heard this, I choked out at once. I just patted my chest and coughed a few times before I recovered. But he remained indifferent and said, "I want to form a marketing team. I can take over your entire studio and talk about the terms slowly. "Choke, what am I thinking? ! I don't know whether he is talking casually or seriously. In business, even as a senior, I dare not take it seriously. Back in the private room, I sat far away from him and walked through the crowd, sipping beer. At that moment, I understood one thing. After all, people can't deceive themselves. I have been seduced by him for a long time. I decided to call my senior and listen to her opinion. If she doesn't want to go to her senior's company, then I won't consider it any more. Just draw a line with him from now on, lest you think too much all day. After talking about the situation, the senior looked a little reluctant and said, "Then we will be restricted in the future. If we want to take a private job and earn more money, it will be hard to get it. " Both of them were silent for a long time on the phone. My senior suddenly asked me, "Are you a little interested in General Fu? "? Supposedly, how much you don't like a person who works for others, how can you be shaken. "I was speechless. Senior was silent for a moment and said, "Manager Fu is also quite strange. I inquired about him and said he didn't want to do it because he thought it would cost a lot of money to set up a marketing team. How did he meet you and change his mind? There's really nothing you two can do, right? Why do I suddenly feel so worried ... "After listening to what my senior said, I suddenly woke up: Yes! He has been looking for a cooperative company. Why did he suddenly take over the team? Just thinking about it, I heard my senior sister say, "Hey, he broke up with his girlfriend some time ago, has it nothing to do with you?" What? Really broke up? ! Although it has nothing to do with me, combined with all his actions tonight, it's really hard not to let people think about it! Life is getting better every day, and I talked with my senior sister about whether to be bought by him. Advanced means, don't accept. The reason is that if you look for a backer, it's not the biggest mountain, so you might as well wait. Besides, it's still open, and it's not at the end of its tether. I have been with my senior sister since graduation, and I can get today's harvest and everything because of my senior sister, so naturally I will not be separated from my senior sister. He is also surrounded by capable people. I'm just an illusion to him now. After several contacts, I feel that I am quite reliable, but I really become a subordinate with concentrated advantages and disadvantages. I don't know what will happen. Besides, apart from the throbbing that night, he is really not someone I can trust 100%. It's one thing to want him, and it's another to entrust him with the future. 6. However, a few days later, his little assistant contacted me and said, Teacher Fu asked you, how did you come up with the idea of bringing the team in? I wanted to keep in touch with him for this reason. But the news really woke me up again. You see, it is obvious that this is a topic that we can talk privately, but he asked his assistant to ask me. This business-like gesture really hurts. I didn't intend to talk to him personally, so I replied to the assistant: I won't consider it for the time being, and I will cooperate again when I have the opportunity. The assistant said a lot of encouraging words. I understand. Business is business. The little assistant still wants to play emotional cards, but feelings can't impress me. After that, the intersection with him was limited to the circle of friends. 7. Time flies to September. I accompany my senior to the mall to buy children's products. On the elevator, I suddenly saw the Balenciaga counter. I have never been to this shop in my life. I looked at ordinary women's pure cotton underwear, and the logo of Balenciaga was printed on the wide waistband, but I fell in love with it inexplicably. I bought three pairs at one go. Senior sister is puzzled: "aren't you a loyal customer?" . I can't say why, but in my heart, I always put Balenciaga underwear, luxurious Mora aromatherapy and tuna sushi as a combination, which is a combination with a special foreign flavor and represents a certain sense of quality. Every time I see these three things, his face always pops up in my mind. Coincidentally, when I went home that day, I received his WeChat for the first time. KTV has been separated for two months. He said, junior, there is something I need your help, and it must be you. In the past few days when I didn't meet him, I thought about countless reasons and wanted to reopen the dialogue channel with him. Think about it and feel why. If he cares about me, he will come to me. If I am worth it. So, when he heard the news, I felt as if I had been depressed for a long time and could stretch. I smiled and replied, OK, let's meet. The advantage of adults is that how often they meet, as long as they open their mouths, your friendship will be picked up instantly.