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When I was seven or eight years old, children around me were fascinated by dolls, plastic dolls with detachable limbs, blond hair and blue eyes. At that time, girls were almost all alone, playing house with dolls, braiding her clothes every day and having fun.
I am also eager to have such a beautiful doll, change her beautiful hair accessories and wear many beautiful clothes every day. To this end, I also learned needlework from my grandmother, collected beautiful rags at my aunt's house, and prepared to sew beautiful clothes for the doll.
However, the family conditions were not good in those years, and there was a younger brother below. My mother will never spend another penny on unnecessary things again. I have been soft grinding for a long time, and it never helps. In the end, I can only have the cheek to play with other people's dolls, sew beautiful clothes for other people's dolls one by one, and then watch them be discarded at will in other people's hands, which is painful and helpless.
After graduating from college, I saw a doll wrapped in a transparent box while visiting a toy store with my entourage, and suddenly remembered my childhood wishes. So, that night, I chose the most beautiful doll on the Internet. Even if the price is a bit outrageous, I have no hesitation. I think I can finally fulfill my childhood wish.
I thought I would like it as much as I did when I was a child, but in fact I was only interested in it two days before I received the courier. After the novelty passed, I settled it in the corner of my desk and never touched it again. Then my mother cleaned up the dust.
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In high school, many people in the class began to learn guitar and sang while playing. People who can play the guitar will be regarded as goddesses at that time. At that time, I pursued literature and art, and I also wanted to own a guitar, playing freely and singing lightly.
I even want to carry a guitar and a pen, go to the endless prairie alone, go to the desert where the long river sets the yen, and then write a poem and play a song in those picturesque scenery.
But I still can't get the guitar that haunts me, because my mother said it was a plaything and wouldn't buy me anything. I had a cold war with my mother for a month.
When I was a sophomore, I bought a second-hand guitar at a low price from a senior who was about to graduate. After I got it back, I played it cheerfully for two days and borrowed two books from the library to learn guitar. But in the end, I didn't really study. I turned over the book for two days and then threw it aside. After a few days of novelty, I put my guitar on the balcony of my dormitory for two years. Later, when I gave it to my brother, the backpack was covered with dust, and my enthusiasm in those days was also brushed with thick dust with this guitar.
It turns out that no matter your preferences or your mentality, everything waits for no one. They all live in the present. If you catch them, you will feel happy. If you miss them, they will slip away quietly and never look back.
-03-
A long time ago, when Jolin Tsai was a simple girl who showed little sexiness, she was a unique goddess in my heart. I put up her posters all over the room, and I didn't want to eat them, so I bought her album. I watched her concert videos over and over again on the computer, and I saw that my mother knew her songs by heart. At that time, I thought, when I have money, I must go to each of her concerts. Later, I finally grew up and became rich, but she was not what she used to be.
In the concert of J 1 live concert in 2004, she wore a blue vest and shorts and a blue wool hat, running around like a blue elf, full of energy, and was a beautiful girl who was just sexy and invincible. After many years, although she is still active on the screen, it makes people lose the joy at first sight.
I still like the pretty girl who doesn't like to talk much, blushes and has a unique style and dance. Instead of a sexy woman with a little lady gaga style and always red lips, dancing with a group of guys like shemale on the stage.
When I get rich, the person I like is not what she used to be, so I still can't watch one of her concerts.
-04-
Maybe you've had the same experience. A friend who used to be very close but didn't contact for a long time got your QQ or WeChat from somewhere, enthusiastically added friends and sent greetings, but you happened to be busy or not in the mood to chat. After some pleasantries, you said: I'm really sorry, I have something urgent to deal with at hand. I'll talk to you later. Well, when you have time and interest in the future, when you think of this friend again, you will find that he has lost the excitement when he contacted you before and only replied to you faintly. Since then, your's relationship has only been praised by friends.
One of my college classmates, Dong, has been secretly in love with the class next door for two years, silently watching and helping, but never confessing.
In winter, the school boiling water room is very crowded. Adong went to the queue early, just to say "I'm in front, let me help you" when Ban Hua went.
In practice class, Adong finished the task early, just to say "this line is connected like this" when passing the class flower.
A week before the exam, before the library opened, Adong waited outside the door early, just to grab two seats. When Ban Hua came, he said, "Come and sit here. There is a vacant seat next to it."
In my senior year, Ban Hua didn't have breakfast during the physical fitness test. After running for two kilometers, his eyes were black. Adong ran forward with vigorous steps, caught Banhua, and then ran to the infirmary with Banhua on his back. Because of this incident, Ban Hua began to pay attention to Adong, who was overjoyed.
One night, Ban Hua asked Adong on QQ: "Do you like me?"
After a silence, Adong sent over: "Like".
Then let's date. I like you too. Banhua is a straightforward girl. She thinks that since she likes each other, she should be together. When I like you, it happens that you also like me. What a lucky thing. But she never expected to be rejected.
"I don't want to fall in love yet. I will graduate soon. I wonder if I can work in the city. If I was not in the same city at that time, I would be separated because of the problems in different places. "
Banhua said, "It doesn't matter, I can accommodate your work, and I will be there wherever you are!" " "
But Adong still stubbornly said, "If you can work in the same city after graduation, it's not too late to be together again."
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After graduation, they all stayed in the city where they studied. Adong asked Ban Hua to confess. He felt that they finally met the conditions of being together, but this time they refused as a class flower. She said, "When I like you, I really like you and want to be with you wholeheartedly. I can even put myself down to accommodate your work, but you still have no choice to be with me. " Now all your so-called conditions are met, but I don't like you anymore. "
You see, all feelings will not always stand in the same place waiting for you, whether it is friendship or love. It doesn't mean that I should put away my thoughts when you are free, but I will greet you warmly when you are free. I don't have to put away my lovesickness when you have no conditions, and then love you when you have conditions.
The real life is that when you are free, I lose my initial enthusiasm. When you have the conditions, I don't love you anymore.
The saddest thing in this world is that things have changed. Those young dreams, those friends who miss you, and those who once loved you will not wait for you all the time. They came, but you failed to catch them, leaving a whole body of regret.
So dear friends, do what you want and chase whoever you like! Take advantage of the enthusiasm now, and everything will be the same.
Don't delay, let alone worry too much, and enjoy the beauty of the moment. If you think everything is ready, everything will change! Poetry wine is still in its prime. Why don't you start at once? After all, nothing will always wait for you!