If you really want to cry, then my advice is not to endure it in the future. Actually, I think there are many reasons for you to put up with this. The most important reason is that you don't have a real object to comfort you. Of course, the object I am talking about here is not necessarily your boyfriend and girlfriend. Not necessarily your parents, of course. Of course, it may not be your other brothers, sisters or relatives. I mean, in your life, you have to rely on yourself. You have never been weak, and no one can open up and cry to the field of filial piety, because you have no such object to share, or you can only share joy without pain, because no one wants to fight with you. So when you encounter such difficulties and setbacks, your heart will only be sad. You can't cry, you can't tell, and you can't talk, because you don't have such a relative or friend who can fight with you.
But I tell you, sometimes crying is really good for your health, because you can vent such sad feelings by crying. My suggestion is that in the future, you slowly soften yourself, then slowly find someone who can let you talk about your inner pain, and then slowly you can let your tears flow out.