I haven't heard from this friend for a long time, and I miss her very much. I accepted her quickly, hoping that she could pass my verification.
After waiting for a while, nothing happened. I sent her a message in the verification: Sister Tian, I am Xiaohong, please accept me. Soon, she sent a reply: Who are you?
So many times, she just refused to accept my WeChat and repeatedly asked me who I was.
I think I have made it very clear that with our friendship of more than ten years, I don't believe she doesn't know who I am.
Maybe that's not Tian Jie's WeChat, or Tian Jie doesn't want to contact me anymore.
I no longer insist on asking her to accept my WeChat. However, to tell the truth, I am very lost in my heart.
I've always wanted to see her, but I don't have her contact information. I called the phone number she gave me many times, but it was always empty.
Although we haven't seen each other for several years, the memories between us are lingering.
Remember each other
When I was in the second grade of primary school, the primary school in our village began to be rebuilt. Students must move to a nearby primary school.
Our joining enriched the original cold campus and the number of classes increased. At that time, I was like a tomboy.
Sister Tian is a thin girl, very quiet, and seldom speaks in class, so she is not noticed.
My brother likes reading, and under his influence, I also like reading. Once, I brought a comic book of my brother to the classroom.
I clearly remember that it was a math class. I was so fascinated by reading that I didn't hear the bell for class. I didn't even know that the math teacher had entered the classroom.
I am short, sitting in a particularly conspicuous position in the first row, and my every move is under the teacher's nose.
Therefore, the math teacher can easily find that I am still absorbed in reading picture books. He snatched the photo album from me so violently and criticized me.
Then, he watched the whole class tear up a few pages of my photo album, and the rest he took out matches and burned.
I was trembling with fear. The math teacher is strict with his students. Whoever can't do the problem when climbing the blackboard bumps the students' heads against the wall.
Anyway, I did well in the math exam. But this time he caught me watching an album, and I was afraid he would hit me.
Maybe he was in a good mood that day. He burned my album and started class. I got away with it.
However, it was my brother's favorite album. I took it secretly, and now it's burned by the teacher. What should I do? He will hit me.
After school, I didn't dare to go home. I cried quietly on my desk. At this moment, a thin, soft voice came from my ear.
"Are you afraid to go home because your album was burned by the teacher? It's okay. My family has it. I will give it to you. " I looked up and saw a beautiful and melancholy face.
I am the representative of Chinese class. I often send and receive homework and know her name. She studies in general, but she is not particularly outstanding in her class.
"Really?" My desperate heart suddenly lit up. "Well, really, I have it at home. Come and get it with me! "
I'm willing to go with her as long as it keeps me from being beaten by my brother. Her home is close to the school. When they got to her house, her parents had not come back from working in the fields.
I was a little shy and didn't follow her into the house. When she handed me the photo album, I left without even saying thank you.
In this way, we became inseparable friends in the future, and after getting familiar with her, I will also go to her house to play.
After a long time, I knew she had a sister. Her parents are honest, hardworking and capable.
Every time I go to her house, as long as her parents are there, she will bring me delicious food.
There were also a variety of small frictions, but they soon made up.
We spent two happy years together. Because two years later, the school in our village was built, and we have to leave the place where we stayed for two years and go back to the original school.
Although we got in touch later, we spent little time together. Plus, I made new friends at school, and slowly, I forgot her.
Meet again
When I was in junior high school, I went to a township middle school, which is seven or eight miles away from my home.
I didn't have a bike at that time, so I couldn't go home every day. I started to stay at school.
On the first day of my class, I saw a familiar face. It turned out that Tian Jie and I were assigned to a class.
I haven't seen you for two years, and I've grown a little. She still looks so melancholy and beautiful.
At this time, I feel inferior because of my ugly appearance, and her personality has not changed.
Two sensitive hearts are together again. We became inseparable friends again.
Sister Tian is really as melancholy as Lin Daiyu. She is not good at talking, but her composition is good and she writes poems for me.
I was stupid, I didn't know she liked me. I only thought that she wrote so many poems to me, just because I admired her and liked her talent.
Besides, we are all girls, who would think of anywhere else? However, something happened later, which almost broke our friendship.
I remember it was our turn to look after the dormitory. At night, I was sleeping soundly, and suddenly a heavy body pressed on me, and then a soft and moist thing covered my lips.
I suddenly opened my eyes in horror and found Tian Jie kissing me. I was so angry that I pushed her away.
And use rude words to scold her, saying that she is too shameless, and don't be with me in the future. She blushed and was at a loss.
Before dawn, Tian Jie went home without saying hello. Later, she wrote to me to apologize, but I didn't accept it.
At that time, I was in a hazy adolescence and knew that both men and women could do such a thing. How could she do this to me?
I've been buried deeply in this matter, so I'm embarrassed to say it. After talking for so many years, I don't know if I did it right.
Our friendship has fallen to freezing point, and even if I try to talk to her later, we will never be able to regain our former intimacy.
By the first half of the second semester, Tian Jie had dropped out of school. After dropping out of school, she worked everywhere and kept writing to me about her working experience and feelings.
I have a quick temper, and I forget some things after I vent them. Therefore, time has gradually melted the estrangement in our hearts, and because of letters, our hearts have moved closer.
We haven't met since she worked for several years.
Meet again
Until my senior year, Tian Jie suddenly came to see me at school.
At that time, she was experiencing a low point in her life. She had no one to talk to, so she thought of me.
She was depressed and her expression was painful. She told me that she fell in love with her cousin, and they worked and lived together.
My cousin loves her very much and treats her very well. Knowing that she is afraid of mice, every time she works the night shift at night, he will repeatedly check the corner under the bed.
I'm afraid a mouse appeared and frightened Tian Jie who was alone at home.
However, they met with strong opposition from two families. Moreover, my cousin has been engaged to a girl in her village, and her home is close to Tian Jie's.
After learning that they were together, the family of the girl who was engaged to her cousin went to Tian Jie's house several times and repeatedly to make trouble, cursing and letting everyone know.
My cousin was forced to break up with her. Because of this, she bears the stigma and is notorious. Most importantly, her parents also lost face in front of her. This made her feel guilty.
I'm just a student. I have never experienced an accident in the world, nor have I tried the taste of love. I can't feel the same way.
I don't know how to comfort her, I can only be a loyal listener. When she finished, she realized that I could not understand her feelings.
So she said, I don't understand the feelings between her and her cousin. Yes, I really don't understand.
After that meeting, Tian Jie didn't write to me again and didn't look for me again, so we lost touch.
In the second year of teachers' college, one day my mother suddenly told me that Tian Jie was married to a village near my village. The boy's family was very poor, nearly ten years older than her.
I am very happy after listening to it. I can finally see her again. It's just that my mother felt sorry for her, saying that such a good child married such a family.
Although that boy is older than Tian Jie, he likes to brag, drink and do nothing. How can he support his family when the money he earns every year is not enough for his own expenses?
My mother's words filled me with deep worries about Sister Tian. I decided to meet her.
Mother only told me the boys' names, but she didn't know exactly where they lived in the village. I inquired all the way and finally found Tian Jie's home.
Tian Jie only lived in three straight houses, with no kitchen and no courtyard walls. She knew at a glance that her family was particularly poor.
Tian Jie was at a loss for my sudden visit. At this time, Tian Jie was already very thin and pale, and her eyes still revealed unspeakable melancholy.
We talked for a long time that day, and I had no story to tell. I spent most of my time listening to Tian Jie talk about her marriage experience.
As my mother said, Sister Tian's life is very unhappy. The husband can't earn money every year, and the expenses at home are all supported by her family.
Perhaps because of her previous experience with her cousin, her mother-in-law looked down on Sister Tian.
Sister-in-law, in particular, has no respect for her. I once threw swill at her, and once, I even hit Sister Tian.
Tian Jie's mother once came to see her husband's family because of her daughter's anger, and was scolded back by her eldest sister.
Tian Jie's family are kind and honest people. They have never had an argument with others, let alone scolded anyone.
So they can only watch their daughter being bullied by her husband's family, but there is nothing they can do.
I listened to her words, and my heart was immediately pulled tightly, which was very painful. I didn't expect such a weak Tian Jie to marry such a tough and unreasonable family.
Fate is really unfair to her. I feel sorry for her. But I'm still listening. I can only listen.
Because I think any words of comfort are powerless to her. Even if I don't comfort her, she can say it in front of me.
Perhaps this is also the most powerful comfort for her! We talked for a long time that day and had a good time.
She was just pregnant at that time, and she was longing for the arrival of a little life. The joy of being a mother for the first time made her forget all kinds of hardships in life.
Knowing her address, I always find time to go to her house during the winter and summer vacations.
Sister Tian gave birth to a boy, very naughty and lovely. She devoted all her energy and time to her son. Her son's arrival soothed her broken heart.
After work, life suddenly became busy. Every winter and summer vacation, I don't want to go anywhere, just want to have a good rest at home.
Therefore, I seldom go to Sister Tian again. Even if you go, you will come in a hurry and leave in a hurry.
Perhaps because of the different living environment and experience, there are fewer and fewer topics between us.
Last time we met.
After I got married, because my husband's family is far from where I work, we will go back to his family when we are free.
In this way, I won't have time to go to Tian Jie's house. There were no cell phones at that time, so we stopped writing letters because life was too busy.
My contact with Tian Jie is about to break. But what I didn't expect was that a few days after I gave birth to my son, Tian Jie asked her husband to ride a motorcycle and come to see me at her husband's house regardless of the distance.
I didn't tell Tian Jie about the baby, and I don't know how she got the news. She didn't trust me, so she had to ask her husband to accompany her to see me.
To tell the truth, I am very upset because my mother-in-law can't take care of people. Her arrival immediately lit up my gloomy heart.
At this time, we all have children and life problems that make us dissatisfied, so we talk about more topics. However, Tian Jie stayed in my house for a short time.
I invited them to my house for dinner, but they refused. It happened to rain heavily again, so I tried my best to keep them. However, they insisted on leaving and didn't want to eat at my house.
I can't help it They left their motorcycles at my house and went back by bus. Later, Tian Jie's husband drove to my house and took the motorcycle away.
We haven't seen each other since then. At that time, I already had a mobile phone, and I left my mobile phone number to Sister Tian. I still use this number.
telephone connection
With children, you have to work and do housework. I am busy every day. There is nothing else to consider.
Once I went home, I heard from my mother that Tian Jie committed suicide by drinking pesticides. Fortunately, it was discovered early, otherwise the consequences would be unimaginable.
I was shocked after listening to it. How hard did life suffer before Tian Jie was willing to leave her only son to die?
At that moment, I wanted to see her very strongly. However, my mother told me that you should not go to see her. She may go out to work after she recovers.
I don't have her contact information, but she has my mobile phone number. She didn't even call me after such a big accident. Maybe she doesn't want me to know!
I moved on with my concern for her. Until 20 10, I suddenly received several identical strange numbers, and at first I refused to answer them.
Later, when I saw her fighting so persistently, I took it. I just know this is Tian Jie's phone. I am very happy and excited to learn that it is Sister Tian.
I have a lot to say and ask, but through the mobile phone screen, there are thousands of words, but I don't know where to start.
I can hear that she has obvious resistance to her past life and doesn't want to mention it to me. I didn't chase it.
She asked me about her son. She said that her son was obedient in primary school and studied well.
But when I got to middle school, my grades dropped. Ask me what I can do to help him improve his grades.
Maybe she thinks I am a teacher and there are many ways to educate children. I gave her some simple advice. In the meantime, tell her I want to see her.
But she just won't tell me the specific address. She just said that she would rent a house to accompany her children wherever they went to school in recent years.
Since I don't want to see it, I won't. I'll call her if anything happens in the future.
In the process of talking again and again, I know her experience. She sells trotters with her husband, and she runs insurance. She works in a housekeeping company.
I imagine her doing all kinds of jobs. She must be very generous and beautiful, and her speech is still soft. She is still a lovely and depressed woman.
However, her mobile phone number often changes, and she can't call several times, and then she turns off her phone. I didn't know her recent situation until she contacted me.
She hasn't contacted me since her son was admitted to vocational high school. I called the last phone number she called me, but it was always empty.
At that time, WeChat was not popular, and there was no WeChat between us. Later, I changed several smart phones, and it was not until today that I discovered that the previous mobile phone actually had a way to receive her WeChat.
Why didn't I see it before? Maybe, somehow, our friendship has not been broken, right? But she didn't accept me. I really really want to see her again.
Time flies too fast. We are not that innocent and lovely little girl anymore. We have experienced a flower-like age, confused adolescence and a tired middle-aged life.
Although now, we are getting older and older. But I feel that our friendship of more than 20 years is only a short moment now, and everything flashes in my mind like a movie.
How many twenty years can there be in life? Sister Tian, we are from the same county. I believe I can find you as long as I can.
I want to see you again in my lifetime and relive our friendship. We don't see each other now. I miss you very much.