one
Xiaoyu is my college classmate, roommate and best friend. After graduation, she followed her boyfriend Gu Cheng to choose glittering Shanghai, and I settled down in a small town in my hometown.
They went to town with 5000 yuan, rented a small single room and settled down. Xiaoyu regards this place as the starting point of her dream and is full of fantasy and confidence in the future.
Shanghai seems to be full of flowers, but it is extremely cruel. Every day people come with hope, and every day people are eliminated.
The rent is paid at two yuan, and more than 3000 yuan has been removed. Their next step is to find a job quickly and figure out how to allocate the remaining 1000 yuan until they get paid.
Submitting resumes and interviewing, they shuttled through the major office buildings in Shanghai in the furnace-like weather in July. Xiaoyu successfully found a job as a designer. Although the salary is only over 3,000, it will always rise slowly.
On the day of finding a job, Xiaoyu went to the vegetable market to buy a fish and went home to celebrate with Gu Cheng.
In the small rental house, the two happily enjoyed hot meals and looked forward to the future together.
However, there is always one disappointment after another in life.
Gu Cheng didn't find a job for a month in a row, becoming more and more disheartened and grumpy. That's when the quarrel began!
Xiaoyu always says with a smile, it doesn't matter! You don't have a job, I support you!
Gu Cheng, on the other hand, thinks this is humiliating and mocking remarks. He thinks that men's self-esteem has fallen into the dust.
At that time, it was dark to release Buddha. Xiaoyu has to bear the pressure brought by work and the emotional hurt brought by Gu Cheng coming home in the dark.
Until Gu Cheng said: Why don't I go to the postgraduate entrance examination!
Xiaoyu rekindled hope: I will support you in whatever you do.
Therefore, Xiaoyu accompanied Gu Cheng to buy a lot of postgraduate materials. At that time, Xiaoyu felt that no matter what he did, it was best for two people to be together, and it was nothing to be tired and tired!
Rent, utilities, materials, living expenses, all expenses are on Xiaoyu, and she has to find a part-time job to maintain her basic livelihood. In order to save money, the subway was replaced by a bus. She went to the vegetable market after work at night to buy the cheapest vegetables and fruits for only one person. Only on the day of pay, will she pull Gu Cheng and say, Go! I'll treat you to a big meal!
The so-called big meal is nothing more than ordering a boiled fish, a green vegetable and a shredded potato in a Sichuan restaurant. And she thinks it is the most delicious food in the world!
two
A year later, Gu Cheng was admitted to graduate school as he wished.
Xiaoyu looked at the admission notice, her heart was hollowed out and tears fell on her toes.
Gu Cheng was not admitted to a school in this city, but Waseda University in Japan. It turned out that from beginning to end, Gu Cheng wanted to fly away alone.
This year, he just used her. He stood on her shoulder and climbed to the top, but he wanted to kick her away.
Xiaoyu sat feebly by the bed and said quietly, do you really want to go?
Gu Cheng didn't hesitate: I waited for a year, of course I want to go. This is my only chance to get ahead!
Xiaoyu sneered, dried her tears and said, I'll cook!
That night, she slept in her clothes. The man lying next to her was so strange that she wanted him to turn around and hold her as before and sleep in his arms until dawn. But it's impossible!
The next day, Xiaoyu went to work as usual. Only when I came back, the rented room was empty, and everything from Gu Cheng moved away, but the originally crowded small room was much more spacious at the moment.
He really left without saying hello. Maybe he has reached the other side of the ocean and lived the life he wants.
Xiaoyu curled up on the bed, disheartened. It turns out that people's hearts are as they say, and no matter how beautiful the past is, it is just a dream of Conan.
She told me faintly on WeChat: Gu Cheng left and went to Japan, leaving me alone in this huge city.
I was shocked: how did this happen? Are you okay?
Xiaoyu sent a smiling face: I'm fine, I'm getting promoted soon!
I know she is not good, but she is good at hiding herself, sadness, sadness, the past, but can't hide her eyes.
But what can be done?
three
In the war-torn youth, even if you are injured, you must fight alone, move forward with injuries, and strive to enrich every day that the world gives you.
From then on, I knew she had started a new life.
She moved out of a small rental house and moved into a small apartment. Only one person can manage life well.
In her words, I dare not lead a bad life, dare not eat, dare not rest, because I am afraid that if one day she falls ill in the rental house, no one will take care of her, even if she dies, no one will know.
Therefore, life gave her the ability to be independent and strong, and also gave her the instinct to learn to be friends with loneliness.
Xiaoyu didn't regard lovelorn as a lifelong fetter like other girls, and she didn't want to crush each other. One can also enjoy the fun of life!
She planted flowers all over the balcony and watered them every day. In summer, flowers bloom on the balcony, the house is full of fragrance, and the sun shines in, all of which smell of happiness.
She works alone, eats alone, reads and writes alone and goes shopping alone.
But I'm not bored.
During the break, she will go to the museum to greet a bunch of bottles dug out of the grave, or go to a concert that belongs only to her, and then cry bitterly.
She found a new job, her salary tripled, and she was quickly promoted and became a veritable white-collar worker.
Life is long. Maybe we will all meet some people who abandon you and betray you. They are often bruised all over, but we still have to shake off the dust and blossom in smallness with the belief of "facing the sea and blooming in spring", and then look up at the stars all over the sky. Life is your own, exquisite and rough are all in one thought. May you live so gently in the storm.