My first relationship started very early, when I was in middle school and just finished 16. My acquaintance with Wang Xiaowei, a handsome boy recognized by the school, doomed my emotional disaster. He is called a sentimental prince because he is not only handsome, but also talked about several girlfriends at school. I am young and ignorant, in the flower season of youth. Although I don't know what love is, I have some desires. Therefore, when Wang Xiaowei simply said that he liked me, I was very intoxicated.
Romance in school has romance, beautiful vows, no real daily necessities, and no trivial housework. At that time, we all wanted each other to live happily for a lifetime. One year after graduation, I just turned 20 and couldn't wait to marry him. Although my parents were worried and stopped me, I still went my own way.
My wedding was grand, both families were rich, and my parents gave me a generous dowry. The new house that Wang Xiaowei gave me is spacious and luxurious. Many people think we are a suitable marriage, and we are very satisfied.
Love is romantic and marriage is realistic. Neither of us is mentally prepared for family life, so in the face of real life, contradictions inevitably arise. We all like to play and can't do housework. First of all, it made his mother very disgusted. She thinks I'm nothing like a "daughter-in-law", and I feel very wronged. I did nothing at home. Why do I have to be a slave as soon as I enter his house? The disharmony between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law became the first reason why marriage ran aground.
The triviality of life soon wiped out the original enthusiasm. I felt a lot of pressure after my son was born. I was still immature at that time, but I had to take care of my children. Although my parents helped me, I still feel very tired. Wang Xiaowei doesn't know how to love me or take care of the children, which makes me complain about him. The indifference between husband and wife has gradually become the main reason for the final breakdown of our marriage.
Our real life is not as romantic as we thought, and we all feel disappointed and tired. His bad temper has also been exposed, and there are more and more quarrels between us. Later, there was a situation of "lovers talk too much", and he even attacked me easily. My mother-in-law often accuses me. I have no choice but to take my children back to my parents' house. Because I don't spend much time with him, he spends a lot of time making love outside.
I started chasing around, playing cat and mouse with him, and finally I lost. He openly took the girls home, and her mother-in-law warmly entertained them in front of me. I can't take it anymore. I was forced to die, and all I got was their contempt. At this stage of marriage, I still haven't filed for divorce because I want to safeguard my parents' dignity. This marriage is my own choice, and I will swallow all the bitter fruit. I even want to change this situation, regardless of my own dignity, and convince Wang Xiaowei calmly. For the sake of my children, I hope he can give us a chance to be a good wife and mother, but he says he is not interested in me. I humbly asked my mother-in-law for help. My mother-in-law said that my son could not find a wife.
The marriage lasted for two years. When the child just turned one year old, Wang Xiaowei filed for divorce many times, and I had to leave this rich and indifferent home sadly. I only took my own clothes and left everything to them, including my son.
After the divorce, I realized that I never knew Wang Xiaowei, and maybe he didn't know me either. In this way, we made do together and hurt unforgettable years.
I have lost my first marriage while many friends are still immersed in sweet love. For a long time after the divorce, I was so frustrated with my feelings that I didn't even dare to mention the word marriage. I didn't think I saw the sun in a gloomy world until I met Xiao Lin.
Maybe only love can heal the wound of love. Yi Shu's heart was hurt by love and saved by love.
My marriage has put a lot of pressure on my parents, who have always attached great importance to face. After the divorce, I didn't want to be with my parents and insisted on going to the south. I want to find a quiet life in a strange place, which is also a cure.
I went to Shenzhen and got a job as a clerk in a company. With my efforts, I quickly gained the appreciation of my boss and was promoted to department head. I am very devoted to my work, and I hope that the busy work will make me forget the pain. As long as I am free, my thoughts of my son will surround me. I have to contact Wang Xiaowei to hear his voice. He always seems so heartless that he never answers my phone calls. Even if he did, his attitude was indifferent, saying that since I have left this house, I should stop interfering in their lives and let his new girlfriend think that we are separated. These words are very painful, but I just bear them silently.
Although divorced, he is still young, good-looking and surrounded by many suitors. However, every time I tell them that I am divorced and have a son, those seemingly enthusiastic suitors are discouraged and disappointed. This behavior makes me more and more disheartened about my feelings, and the word "divorce" seems to have become my indelible mark. These two words have become a flaw in my emotional world and are not accepted by people.
During my two years in Shenzhen, I was like a wandering bird, unable to fly high with injured wings. When I was physically and mentally exhausted, I went home. On my way home, I met Xiao Lin. Maybe this is a godsend. On the crowded train, I was so thin that I fainted on the ground. A pair of strong hands grabbed me and took me to the soft sleeper compartment. My kind-hearted man is a young man. He asked me with concern, do you want some hot water? I nodded gratefully. Along the way, he helped me buy food and took care of me. After getting off the train, he sent me home again. We exchanged phone numbers and names. This man is Kobayashi.
Xiao Lin is going back to his hometown to start a business. He often calls me, hoping I can give him some good advice. So we gradually got to know each other. I told him frankly about my past. I thought he would be surprised, but he said, at that time, you were too young to understand. Find a big brother in the future and promise to be good to you.
Xiao Lin is eight years older than me. She worked hard in Shenzhen for many years, and talked about love twice, both of which ended in failure. He went home to start a business and found a happy home. He asked me to help him find a girlfriend. I promised to introduce him to three of my friends, but he refused. Just when I was angry at his critical attitude, he told me that I had found the right person. Let me meet his girlfriend and help him refer to it.
We waited for his girlfriend in a small coffee shop. After waiting for two hours, my patience is running out. Just then, a flower sender came up to me with a big bouquet of roses and said that my boyfriend gave it to me. I was puzzled. I was even more surprised when I saw the cards in the bouquet.
It's from Hua Xiaolin. He wrote on the card: please allow me to love you and your precious son; Please give me a chance to take care of you forever and be a big brother who loves you forever. For a moment, I was at a loss. This seems to come too suddenly. I didn't know he would do this to me. I asked him incoherently if he had spent April Fool's Day and wanted to play a joke on me. He looked at me affectionately and firmly said that he was serious.
I am an injured person, and I only dare to approach him carefully. However, he is not stingy with my efforts and meticulous with me. I was surrounded by his love, warm and finally recovered. Faced with such a hot feeling, I am no longer disheartened, but have to love.