How many times have I resolutely walked on my balcony, enjoying the leaves falling in late autumn in front of the window, quiet and calm.
In recent years, my uncle died of illness, my aunt's company was badly run, and the debt destroyed her nerves and made her crazy. Between death and half-life fate, human feelings are warm and cold, tangled. I resolutely found that this world is completely different from my cognition of the world when I was a student.
Resolutely from the cold north, unlike Shanghai, the temperature is suitable all year round. Like most China people, they came to Shanghai because of their livelihood. With his own efforts, he entered a local private enterprise. The company's department is a small society. Opposite it is an Anhui girl from Jixi, and next to it is a native Shanghai girl. This year, with the help of her parents, Anhui girl successfully paid the down payment and bought a 70-square-meter house in Shanghai. Mortgage for 30 years, 8,000 yuan per month. Even so, she is very satisfied. The Shanghai girl is busy decorating the house because she wants to rent it out quickly.
Resolute, often deep in thought, is like falling into a quagmire, getting deeper and deeper. In order to break the dead silence, he often feels the pulse beating under his neck with his left thumb.
Resolutely push yourself to the wall, the harder it is. As time went on, he began to question the meaning of his existence and his ability. The inferiority caused by shame haunts this almost useless head every day. What can he do at this time? He began to think about the meaning of a person's existence and began to examine the meaning of what everyone did. After some thinking, he will find that he didn't think anything and got nothing. He sank deeper and deeper into the mire. After a while, he found that-the sun is still rising, life will continue, and life will continue. After repeated helplessly, he was exhausted. He is tired and doesn't want to go on like this. But he couldn't find a solution. The meaninglessness of life and the difficulties of reality are perfectly intertwined. He found suicide the easiest way. One-time can completely solve all the troubles and make this noisy world quiet instantly. Compared with the hustle and bustle of life, death is simple to the living, just lying there quietly. People who are suicidal are generally reluctant to communicate with others and prefer a quiet environment. It's best not to see anyone. There is no such thing as human beings. Others accuse suicide of being irresponsible.
With the idea of suicide, the heart is generally lonely. Sometimes I will search online and search for keywords such as "suicide" and "jumping off a building". The first search is such a sentence-although the world is not perfect, we can still heal ourselves. The following are the hotlines of major cities in China, including Beijing, Nanjing, Wuhan, Chengdu, Shenzhen, Hangzhou, Guangzhou and Chongqing.
Having experienced the dilemma between career and life often makes people start to think about what the meaning of life is. On the other hand, knowing why people are alive may make you understand something. On the question of what is the meaning of life, you can read Mr. Hu Shizhi's article What is the Meaning of Life. Hu Shi was once asked by his old classmate Zhu Ziping about the meaning of life. The original text is: "Hill, you study philosophy. If I raise a wife and children like me, will I be a lifelong person? "
Mr. Hu Shi answered this question: "What is the meaning of life?" Actually, this question is easy to answer. The meaning of life is discovered and created by everyone: noble, despicable, expensive, dirty, useful, useless, … all by their own actions. Life itself is just a biological fact. What's the point? What is the difference between giving birth to a person and giving birth to a cat or dog? The meaning of life is not how to live, but how to live. If you are willing to bury this six-foot tall body in a dream during the day, that is the meaning of your life. If you are angry, cheer up and make up your mind to seek the meaning of life and create the meaning of your own, then every day you live will be meaningful, everything you do will add a meaning, life will be endless, and the meaning of life will be endless. In a word, life is meaningless. If you can give him something, he will have something. Instead of thinking about the meaning of life all day, why not try to do something meaningful in this life?
As for the meaning of life, Wang Anshi, a great statesman in the Northern Song Dynasty, also discussed it in his later years. Wang once said: "Knowing the world is like a dream, and nothing is empty. It also seems to have a dream, and it has achieved the merits of river sand dreams. "
Ideologically, a person's struggle is always weak, and he is often curious about the suicides of famous people.
Haizi is one of the poets who firmly like him. Every time I read the beginning of "From Tomorrow", "From tomorrow on, be a happy person, feed horses, cut firewood and travel around the world; From tomorrow on, care about food and vegetables ",and resolutely think about the poet's mood all the time. This song "Facing the sea, bloom is warm in spring" is written from tomorrow. What should I do today? What is the difference between today and tomorrow? He believes that Starting Tomorrow is ostensibly full of expectations for the future and wants to make changes in the future, but it reflects reluctance to the present. "Caring about food and vegetables" means caring about economic issues such as "rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea", and we can no longer "dance and write poems" all day. The poet once said to a restaurant owner in Changping, "I'm here to recite poems to you. Can you give me a glass of wine?" The boss replied, "I can buy you a drink, but don't read poetry in my restaurant." The boss doesn't need Nietzsche's romance. The orbital moment of 1.4m 4 finally measured the height of Haizi's life.
People should generally feel this way psychologically before committing suicide. Life is like a prison. Although it is invisible, it is everywhere. The Count of Monte Cristo, a beloved novel. Edmund Dontais in the book is a resolute idol. His hero was imprisoned in Fort Yves prison 14 years. Long-term psychological depression will cause changes in appearance, which may be one of the reasons why his enemies Fernand and Tanggula did not recognize Dantè s after he was released from prison. Hanging is probably the oldest way to commit suicide. As a sailor in the past, the future Count of Monte Cristo, Don Tess, hated pirates, who were captured and hanged on a sailboat. He didn't want to die like this. He wants to end himself with a "hunger strike", and hope or desire should be a good medicine to cure suicide. Tang Taisi's hope is Father Faria, who put forward a plan to help Tang Taisi escape from the prison in Fort Yves and put it into practice.
Idol didn't become a good prescription in the end.