Visit my mother who is ill in bed; As the enrollment examiner of the middle school affiliated to Beijing Dance Academy; Go to the "Xiaogang Feng Studio" of Beijing Film Factory to sort out, weigh and choose the main work of the studio; Participate in the 2000 creative production work conference of China Film Group; Editing the new film "A Sigh"; In the evening, the drama "The Cloudy Moon" premiered to pay tribute to Xu Fan; Quit halfway and award the "11999 Top Ten Golden Songs" award; The rambling romance is over. After a busy day, I took Xu Fan home.
Documentaries constantly have Xiaogang Feng's own narration, telling some of his thoughts on life and movies, which is very real:
I may be a person who is afraid of leisure, so sometimes I think that when people are old, what you fear most is that you are not needed by everyone. You are a person who just stays at home, which may be a very terrible and painful thing.
Every day, all kinds of things, upper edge, lower edge, upper four, upper two, make me feel a little busy every day, ha, busy.
I was born in 1958, which was the age of steelmaking. After I was born, natural disasters followed. After the natural disaster passed, my parents divorced. Their personalities are very different. My personality is very similar to my father's. My father is a passionate person, and he is also a person who has no cover, that is, a person with high transparency. I think he is also very talented, but very disorganized, just like us.
My mother, I think I am greatly influenced by her, even this old lady is kind. She divorced in her thirties and has been taking my sister and me with her. This kindness, I think, is still very important to me.
In order to survive, we must first find out where we come from and where we are going. I come from an ordinary citizen's family, and I will eventually embark on a successful road, which will determine many ways I treat people. On the one hand, we are very active inside, and we must constantly proceed from our fundamental wishes, and we must attack; On the one hand, we are very passive. In fact, we depend more on how well you please others. I think this is different from the children of these cadres and those of noble families.
In this movie circle, there are actually two kinds of people who are naturally superior. One is that their parents are far ahead in this music world. After they were born, the influence of their parents has been helping him since childhood, so that they can spend three points and get very good results. Another is the children of officials. Although they didn't set foot in this industry and entered it late, the influence of their parents filled many of their talent deficiencies. Of course, there are a group of people here who are really talented, but they also have good backgrounds.
But I think people like Zhang Yimou and I were born to hack it themselves. Not many people help you, and you can't refer to others.
I'm not fit to take part in all kinds of competitions. Everything counts. Everyone plays poker together, and my score is lower than others. All the serious exams, I will come down after the second test at most. Compared with a group of people, I will always be compared by others.
Speaking of why you have to be busy every day, can you postpone something? In fact, it is possible in theory, but I dare not in practice. It has something to do with my heartless childhood. You have felt helpless in this society since you were a child. What you think you have done is not necessarily yours. You need to actively strive for and work hard, but you should have special endurance in your heart.
I still have a lot of energy, that is, I will take one or two big steps in three to five years. But I think that if I take eight more steps, this fear in my heart also exists.
The children of ordinary people are different from those of officials in nature, that is, they degenerate at an early age. Children of ordinary people lie and tell lies. Why? Because he can't bear the consequences of expressing his true views. Therefore, it is doomed that we are cautious in dealing with people, and it is easy to put ourselves in each other's shoes and think from each other's perspective. When such a thing comes out, you are happy, others are happy and others are unhappy. How unhappy he can make you.
Next, Xiaogang Feng attended the 2000 creative and production work conference of China Film Group.
Leader: Please ask He Qun to speak first. Come on, you go first, you go first, come to any group. You are closest to the microphone, and you have chosen the right place.
He Qun's speech: If you have to say something, you will get angry easily. (Say something happy) What's so happy about that? The happy thing is to go home and be happy. I really don't know what to say. I still can't figure it out these days. I have to say it again. Because more people may make it clearer, I think it is still a matter of distribution. After watching the box office, the lowest is 135 yuan, and the highest is Xiaogang Feng's "No Play". (Not "Don't play, don't play, don't play" doesn't count this year) "Be there or be square" doesn't count, ("Don't play, don't play") is definitely the highest, right.
Why? Because of the local protection, it has produced such good benefits. (Laughter).
I feel that this kind of local protection and distribution of this kind of thing is a very unfair situation for China films. Because the box office gap is too big to compare. (Laughter).
I don't think this is a real market at all. There is a lot of falsehood in it, including a lot of selfish things. It is impossible to distribute (online) good China films.
Don't say it today, you'll be ready when you're done. People can still shoot, right? A person can't shoot. It doesn't matter if I don't shoot. I went to Beiying to sell cabbage. I hope everyone can buy my cabbage. (Laughter).
Leader's speech: Your first question is at least one-sided;
He Qun: I have a question because of my one-sidedness.
Leader: Now, Xiao Gang, you go first. At today's meeting, you are. From the beginning, Minister Tian said that he would study movies, and so did we. Now you must consider the box office and study the box office records for three consecutive years, so I don't think it matters if Xiao Gang comes today. You're not afraid of him, are you? You talk.
Xiaogang Feng: I think He Qun is right. Let someone else talk. (Give the microphone to someone else)
Leader: Although the box office has fallen so badly now, I think the box office of Xiaogang is still ahead. You should talk, Xiao Gang. Because a lot of people are talking about it this time. Everyone is talking about the box office of Xiao Gang. Of course, I know you also have many grievances, such as becoming a celebrity and becoming the target of public criticism after three plays. But I don't think it matters. You should say that you have to say that you are a very straightforward person and you are not afraid. You can talk about your (ideas) and your box office experience, which is the experience of making movies.
Xiaogang Feng: I just like movies. I want to make movies, because I think we are alone. Making movies is different from other directors. First, I'm not from the film industry. Second, start making movies, including being a director. From the first movie "Beijingers in new york", I went to the loan auction by myself and kept looking for money everywhere, so I accompanied investors to drink and coordinated the relationship between several investors. I knew it was not easy to get money this time, and I, from the beginning, belonged to Sanping. Let me make an exception. I still cherish this opportunity, because if you screw up once, there will be no next time, so this time you took a turn and made this New Year film. This new year's film is actually to meet different needs. One movie meets the needs of the government, audience and investors, and the rest can meet your own needs.
(narrator)
Movies are mainly to meet the needs of public appreciation, and I basically follow such an idea. This is regarded as contemptible by the majority of filmmakers in China. In my opinion, this is natural. My value rises because of the audience's recognition, so I care about the audience's views and comments. As for a small group of people in the circle ... in fact, you make movies to satisfy the low tastes of different people. For me, you may satisfy the low taste of the audience, a small group of so-called artists, or a small group of foreign judges. Anyway, it is to satisfy the low tastes of different people. Who dares to say that my things are high or low? I think this is less.
Just like I firmly believe that I have no bottom, but I have no bottom for the interpersonal relationship around me. I also firmly believe that I can shoot anything well. This thing is that you have a feeling in your heart that no one can stop you and no one can stop you. What can stop you is yourself, that is, if you don't do it seriously, you will lose everything. I don't think I did it too well, but too many people did it too badly, I think so. It was because of their mistakes that I won the victory. I'll say this from now on. If you leave me in Hollywood, what am I? Because there are too many people who make a living, there is another kind of person who doesn't make a living, but he is also very serious, just not serious enough, that is, his brain has not yet understood. There are still many people who don't understand. I'm in the same business as them. If I drive a little, I'll take advantage. Here it is.
I think there are many people in the film and television circle, and the people I like to contact are also more open and honest. Ge You, we can be together for so many years, in fact, there is a very important factor, not that Ge You has no personality and I have no personality, but that we both know how to give in to each other and are willing to have something with us, whether it is creativity or life.
Yu Shizhi said Wang Lifa's teahouse, that I always say good things and always say hello to you, and win a favor that everyone likes, that is, make fewer big mistakes, how high your heart is and how good your grades are, but you are a low-key person, which is a good way to protect yourself, because I later found out that it has nothing to do with whether others respect you or despise you. Actually, is he? Ordinary people think, hey, Xiaogang Feng, you are a director, what are you? In fact, you know in your heart that this ability to resist blows is very poor. Every aspect of society can stretch out a hand and crush you like an ant, which is one of the main reasons why I am busy.
This is 40 years of hard work, not bad. Anyway, I didn't live in vain, and now I won't be wronged if I die. This is how I feel. However, if God says, boy, I will let you live a few more years, I will definitely tell God, and then wait, old man, and there will be a big prize.