My name is Jane Song. I may look like a girl, but I am a real boy.
I like a boy in our class who is also my stepmother's brother. Although he looks ordinary, I like him and dare not confess.
In high school, I waited for him silently. Accompany him through several lovelorn times. The reason turned out to be that he talked to me every time he met happy things and unhappy things. I am afraid of thunder. He always comes to my house in the rain, watching me shrink into a ball of laughter, and then comes over and gently coaxes me. They always ask him if he is a disgusting homosexual, just using them as a shield.
Once our classmates got together, he politely helped me pull the chair open. Some girls in the class saw it and immediately booed: "Jiang, do you like our little Jane?" Go if you like! We help you! Don't give up our Jane just because of Aunt Jiang and Uncle Jane! "
I am also looking forward to looking at him, hoping that he will answer "yes."
As long as he dares to answer, I dare to tell my dad immediately that I am coming out, and the object is still my brother.
"Yes ~" Jiang said with a smile.
Watching everyone booing, my brain is hot. What? He said he liked me, too? !
Jiang gave me a look: "Okay, okay, I'm kidding. Xiao Jian is my younger brother, the younger brother I have always loved. Just kidding. "
Girl: "cut ~"
My heart aches. It turns out that I was just joking. I drank a lot at the party and drank a lot at home. Jiang lives alone outside, while Jane's father and Jiang's mother are on business trips, and no one cares about me. I don't know how much I drank, but then I broke a piece. Crying and cursing: "* * Jiang! I love you so much! Will you love me once? Why did you make fun of me ... gave me hope, and it finally went out! Meowed ... "
When I woke up the next day, I was still on the ground, with bottles piled up next to me. In the dream, he came home and saw me hug me. The last scene is still in his mind. The reality is that I am lying alone beside the bottle.
It is very cold in winter. I lay on the ground all night without turning on the heating. Not surprisingly, I caught a cold. Back to the room, lying in bed, ready to ask for leave from the teacher, but I have no strength, my forehead is very hot and I fell asleep. I woke up again at night. There was a clash of bowls and spoons in the kitchen. I think dad and aunt Jiang are back. At this moment, the door opened and a dog head got in.
"Jane two dog, come here." Song waved to Er Gou. Two dog threw herself directly on the bed and gave Jane a dog meat blanket. Jane was rolling two dog when footsteps came from outside.
"Are you awake?"
"Brother."
Jiang: "Well, you didn't come to class this morning. The teacher called you, but you didn't answer. The teacher asked me to come back and check the situation. I saw that you had a fever. Why not go to the hospital? "
"I don't want to go."
"Come, this is the porridge I cooked for you. Eat while it's hot. By the way, I will go abroad to study in 1 10 days. "
"How long have you decided?"
"This morning. You know, I have always wanted to study abroad. "
"I ... see, I'll wait for you to come back."
"hmm."
After graduating from high school, I was ready to leave Jiang for abroad.
Jane Song also intends to confess to her brother. This farewell may be several years, so I have to confess it quickly. It happened that the day he went abroad was the 13 14 day they met. Jane's father and Jiang's mother will fly to Chongqing on business the day before.
That day, he deliberately wore a red suit and held red roses in his hand. Red Rose: I love you passionately.
Brother, do you like red roses? I send you red roses. Can you like me too? I am not greedy. I'll be ready soon.
He came to the airport and saw a girl talking and laughing with Jiang. The smile on his face would die in an instant, and he was not qualified to ask Jiang Tingfu who that girl was. Yes, he is just his brother ... he is not qualified to ask questions ... He stepped forward and handed the flowers to Jiang Tingjun.
"Elder brother ... this is ..."
"hello! I'm Furong! Like your brother, I went to study. I don't know anyone else, so I have to trouble your brother to take care of me! "
"Well ..."
"Brother, take good care of yourself abroad, and I will wait for you to come back."
"Well, I will."
The radio sounded to remind people to board the plane, and Jiang Tingfu was holding a simple song.
"You also take care of yourself."
"I will."
"Jiang Tingfu! Let's board the plane! "
Jane watched them leave and suddenly shouted, "Brother! Will we meet again? "
"I will."
After Jiang went abroad, Jane's songs were all about tea and food. I want to chat with his brother, but there is a time difference. It's daytime in China, and it's night there.
One day, Jane's father came to Jane's room. Jane's university is only ten minutes away in this city, so she won't move to the dormitory.
Jane Song went to school, and Jane's father looked at the unfinished business on his desk. Laughed: "This little guy forgot to clean up again."
Jane's father went to get the book, and a pink envelope fell with a bang.
Jane's father: "Let me see which girl has a crush on our smelly boy."
"Dear brother: It's me, Jane. I like you for a long time ... Can you look back at me ... Please don't think I'm dirty, I really like you ... "
Jane's father looked at it, and it was really written by Jane's song. The words can't be wrong. Angry, suddenly fainted.
Jane is looking for a book in the classroom. "It's broken! I didn't get that book! And my love letter to my brother! "
Soon, the phone rang, and it was Jiang Mu.
"Jane! Your father is in the hospital! Come here! "
Jane hurried out of the classroom and stopped at the hospital, wondering if her father had found the love letter!
When I got to the hospital, sure enough, the book was on the bedside table! Jane's father lies beside him.
"the key! Kneel down for me! "
"dad! I just fell in love with someone! That man happens to be a boy! I think I'm not wrong! Why should I kneel! "
"the key! He is your brother! "
"That's just your idea! I love him ... I like him for a long time ... Dad ... Please help us. Please ... "Jane knelt down and cried to her father.
"You! Get out of here! Cough! "
"dad! Don't be angry! I will go out. "
After Jane Song went out, Jane's father thought about it and picked up the phone: "Hello ..."
The next day, Jane Song came to visit Jane's father. He saw Jane's father didn't seem so angry yesterday. He felt that he should calm down and said to Jane, "Dad, I really like my brother. Even if you disagree, I want to be with him. I only have him in my heart and I won't like anyone anymore. "
Jane's father: "Jane, does it have to be Xiaojiang?"
"It must be him." Four words, powerful. This seems to have touched Jane's father's heart.
"Well, you haven't xiao qiang's confession? Now, you call Xiaojiang and say you like him. See if he wants to be with you. I wouldn't object if I wanted to. If you don't want to, if you don't repent, I will send you to treatment. "
"Very good." Jane is full of confidence in her brother.
After making a call:
Jane: "Brother, are you busy?"
Jiang: "Zhang Shao, what's the matter? Jane. "
Jane: "That brother, I like ..."
There was a commotion across the river, and he didn't catch what Jane said. Jane learned the news of Furong's disappearance by telephone.
Jiang: "I'm sorry. Lotus is gone, I'm going to find her. "
Jane: "Brother, is she more important to you than what I said to you?"
Jiang feels that his younger brother is really headstrong. He is simply a living life. How can it not be as important as a proverb? What should he tell her parents if something happens?
Jiang: "Jane, that's a kind of life."
Jane: "Brother, I see, you go." Jane Song choked up and hung up the phone.
Jane's father: "How?"
Jane: "He ... must like Hibiscus."
Jane's father: "I'll give you three days to think about it." Do you still love him? " Three days later 10, I want to know your answer. "
Simple song: "OK ..."
Jane returned to their old high school these three days and sat in Jiang's seat. Recalling the bits and pieces between them, he remembered his favorite roses, especially red roses, which were warm and unrestrained. He walked past the basketball court where he used to play and the office door where he was punished together ... He walked through many places and he was everywhere.
On the last night, he had a dream, in which his brother said to him:
"Jane, I'm getting married. With hibiscus, you will bless me, right? "
He smiled and said, "I wish you and your sister-in-law an early birth."
He looked at this scene from the perspective of a third party, knelt down with tears and said, "Fuck your early birth! I love you! "
When I woke up, there were tears in my eyes.
10, Hospital:
Jane's father: "Do you still love him?"
Simple song: "I love ginger"
Jane's father is not surprised by this answer.
"Well, I found you a place for treatment, the place with the best treatment effect."
"dad! I'm not going! I love him, I am not wrong! "
"come on Take the young master to the hospital! "
In this way, I was sent to the so-called hospital. There are many boys and girls here.
The first day, they hypnotized me. It was useless.
On the tenth day, they gave me an electric shock and saw my brother's photo. I put up with it.
On the 25th day, they put my brother's photo in front of me. Then use a knife, pull out my nails and sprinkle with salt. I can bear it.
On the 35th day, I saw a boy. He said he would protect me and be my roommate.
On the 50th day, they all said I was crazy.
On the 60th day ... they did it to me ... for seven days, day and night. My brother's photo is next to mine. They treat me like an animal. I'm just a tool. Brother, where are you? Help Jane, will you?
Day 68, I can't stand it. My roommate apologized to my dad and asked me to go out.
On the 69th day, I was declared cured and discharged. I dare not go near my brother. Ha ha ha ha ha ha ...
On the 75th day, my brother came back. I dare not touch him because I am dirty. ...
On the 79th day, he saw that something was wrong with me, grabbed me and asked me what was wrong. I ran away. He is clean, but I am already dirty.
On the 85th day, he got engaged to Hibiscus.
On the 99th day, he got married and I attended his wedding. He asked me if I would bless him. Is it funny? It's exactly like the scene in that dream.
In the evening, the so-called roommate appeared in my room. He told me that he had escaped and that he would take me out of here. Go to a place where there is only beauty.
On the100th day, he took me to the seaside. Strangely, there are roses by the sea, all of which are white.
My roommate said that this place needed a ceremony for him to perform with a knife. I agreed. I looked at my favorite white rose. It is noble, beautiful and humble. I slowly dyed it red.
I became his favorite red rose, my roommate, lying here with me.
In front of us is the tombstone he set up for us. It may really be a tombstone. I'm surprised. Aren't we going to travel? Why do you want to erect a monument?
On the first day, seagulls surrounded me all the time, but they refused to come down and cut me and kept singing.
The next day, a tramp passed by me and he found me. He didn't dare to say anything, for fear that he had caused it himself.
On the third day, the sea breeze blew strongly. Look, there is a whale jumping around in the sea. When the whale fell, everything was born. Whales give back to nature. What do I want in return?
On the fourth day, the "red" roses on my body became more and more delicate, and I was very happy.
When my father and Jiang found me missing, it was the first day 105. I watched them looking for me everywhere, and I was very happy because they finally cared about me.
On the fifth day, the police found me under the sea of flowers, but the red roses above my head were so bright. A murder weapon was found nearby with only my fingerprints on it. I saw them crying and I wanted to hug them. Tell them that I only played hide-and-seek with them and found out that I had passed through their bodies. Am I dead? Impossible ... "He" won't lie to me, he said he would bring me back ... It's just a trip ... He can't lie to me!
My father once said something inexplicable: I shouldn't interfere with you and Jiang ... I shouldn't send you to any hospital ... I killed you indirectly ... I'm sorry, my father! Jane (female name) ...
I once heard Jiang say, Jane … you said you would wait for me to come back … where are you? My baby ... don't make fun of me ... come back ... "
"How is that possible? He likes me? Maybe … he just wants to comfort me … my brother, how could he fall in love with me? "
I saw a report on TV that this city found a body at the seaside this morning. The victim's name is Jane Song. According to the forensic judgment, the victim stabbed himself into the abdomen, but he did not die. But he built a monument for himself and buried himself among the roses.
It turned out that I had already died in that sacrifice ... and that roommate ... was also my own fantasy ... By the way, how could anyone kindly help me?
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