The club was founded on 2011in 2004. The publicity took some time. At first, only two or three people came at a time. Xin Wei came to the party for the sixth time. Compared with the hundreds of parties that followed, she was an old hand.
Not much to say, above:
During this year, Xin Wei often participated and was a qualified member. I'm thinking about how to cultivate her into a backbone. The word "training" was said from the perspective of that time, when I was the vice president. At that time, the management system was still improving. The titles of "member, backbone and president" were all self-talk, but we were serious about doing business. I believe these ideas will be realized soon.
20 16, she listened to the lecture at my home, and I spoke as a teacher. And coffee shop parties. 2065438+February 2006, Xin Wei's home was the last stop of the driving club around the island. After that, she participated in two activities organized by me, as follows:
Since then, Xin Wei's participation in the club has decreased, which is related to her situation. She should be pregnant. At that time, she got a work permit, and the couple rented a house. Life was not easy. In addition, I quit the club for personal reasons, so there is no record of my successor. The club has been developing smoothly, and its scale has gradually increased. A gathering of several people turned into a gathering of a group of people. These are another story. Today's protagonist is Xin Wei, so let's talk about her.
I met her again in Chinatown on June 20 16, which was held to bid farewell to the backbone of a community. By this time, I had completely quit the club. I wouldn't have gone if I didn't want to see the old backbone. There is a link in the activity to share the books he has read. Xin Wei has brought a book, Qian Qian Pig, and is studying financial management. As mentioned above, there are no photos. That's a real pity.
After that, I knew nothing about Xin Wei joining the club.
20 17 moved into a new home. To commemorate it, I published "Exploration of Utopia" on 20 18 1, opened an "ideal bookstore", held a new book launch conference at home, and came to many old and new friends, all of whom took photos. I don't remember Xin Wei, and I don't have any photos, but later she said she had been there-look at my brain!
Then I lost contact. In the first half of the year, the activities of bookstores were quite frequent. Every month, I invite old and new friends to my home to deliver my books. There is a bookstore party at the end of the year, and I eat out. I have pictures, but I can't take pictures without her.
Since the second half of 2065438+2008, due to various reasons, the activities of the library have gradually faded. These are all later stories. Today's protagonist is Xin Wei. Let's talk about her.
She is on wechat, she is in the bookstore group, and she has been very quiet. Then the epidemic came and dragged on for two years. The party activities in the bookstore are completely gone, and the publicity outside has stopped. The rest of the group are old book lovers. With these years, we are old friends.
1October, 202 1, 1 1, Xin Wei WeChat contacted me. I thought her WeChat had been changed a long time ago and has been used. She said that she had a serious illness recently and couldn't attend the delegation. She immediately sent me her "Diary of Illness"-107 page, which recorded that from 20191month to March 2020, she was dying of brain stem bleeding and was hospitalized. The diary was written three months after discharge.
As far as the diary itself is concerned, I was really shocked by its exquisiteness and completeness! In what name is this written? How do you write about people who are dying and are still clumsy afterwards? I read it under the pressure of mood and curiosity. I've never seen anything written by her. This diary is really a swan song, which is commendable! Not only for relatives and friends, but also for medical research, especially for those who cherish and love life!
In fact, the shock to me is not to appreciate this work, but to wash my mind. I began to confess. One night, I confessed my folly to my lover and told Xin Wei what had happened. Please refer to the letter to Xin Wei dated February 20021. Since then, my heart has become transparent and people have become clear. It can be said that she is my benefactor.
Xin Wei's health is still very poor. As can be seen from the communication of WeChat, most of her messages were sent to me by voice, and she didn't speak fluently. She used to speak slowly, but now she speaks more slowly and intermittently. She said that she has been doing physical therapy for two years, and her hands and feet are still hemiplegic to varying degrees, but her appetite and brain thinking are normal. It's hard to say, but she can't hide her joy. She said she wanted to see me and had been waiting. How wonderful this feeling is. She wrote a lot of people, relatives and friends in her diary, without mentioning me, but she contacted me as soon as she recovered and sent me my experience and expectations in her words without thinking.
The doctor said that the blood tumor in her brain is still unstable. If it breaks, it will break. At that time, it was very dangerous The incidence rate was very high in the first two years after rehabilitation, and then decreased year by year. Maybe I'll be fine for the rest of my life, but this time bomb is always there. Now, she lives a simple and happy life and cherishes every day. She has a husband like a god, and from her diary, she is worshipped. She is very happy. Since Xin Wei is a Christian, she should be.
On February 9, 2022, I asked for leave to see her. She is busy recovering every day, saying that many friends come to see her and her schedule is quite full. I'm busy at work, too, and I haven't been able to get in touch, but she keeps saying that she's looking forward to seeing me. Ask for leave at 4 pm and live in Dover. I remember living in this area when I went to her house on the island. She said that she was in the next building, and now she has bought a house and has two children, a man and a woman.
I didn't bring anything except a red envelope for the children. Hungry, Xin Wei said she wanted to have dinner with me. I thought I would take her out to eat when her home was not ready. Just eat and talk. I didn't mention it to her, so I asked on the way. She said there was food. Let's go
She was in the back room when she came in, and it was her child who heard the sound. She is very lively and doesn't know strangers. She's too big! I gave them a red envelope at random, and then another one popped out. Behind it is Xin Wei, who helps the pedestrians out of the room. His health is more serious than I thought, and the idea of going out to eat is absolutely impossible.
Seeing three children, I panicked and couldn't help but say loudly, "Here, here, why three?" Didn't you say two? "She said," two, and a neighbor. "At this time, her husband also shouted in the back room to explain that the god-like husband, I finally saw it clearly. I asked, "Did I give it right?" They smiled and said, "Yes, yes. "
Xin Wei is old. He hasn't seen her for five years. With such a disease, how can he not be old? My hair is loose, I can't laugh, I say my muscles are still stiff, and I have a hard time laughing. She said that when she looked at me, she was a ghost, so her eyes were always sorry for me. After thinking for a long time, she lowered her head and said with a frown that it was not what it used to be.
She said that time flies every day, and she can't do anything but walk back and forth and get well regularly. She wanted to do something, but her husband wouldn't let her. She is an only child and her mother has been taking care of her for a long time. Soon after she returned to China, she hired a servant at home. Her fingers on her left hand are not neat, but she can also bring me a box of snacks and bring the boxes on the table one by one to the middle while chatting. I can see all this. She seems to be doing it unconsciously. It's good for her to move her arm, so I won't stop her. The right arm can barely be lifted, there is no strength, no manual work, and no minor work can be done.
She said that she went to the hospital for reexamination this morning, and the doctor mentioned whether to consider surgery. When she heard this, her head got bigger and her family got bigger. Maybe it's psychological expectation. It's been more than a year, and it should be fine, but the doctor's advice is no, the tumor is intact. The risk of surgery is three possibilities, and the probability is the same: either you die in the process, or the tumor is removed but you become a vegetable, or you do nothing and keep a time bomb; There are also successes, but doctors say that there are very few cases like her in Singapore, no more than five cases, and the confidence in surgery is not enough. I was in a dilemma and advised her to cherish her life and see what she wanted to do without regret. When one day she feels finished, she will consider surgery.
Xin Wei has been thinking about her diary, saying that there are some inaccuracies in the timeline-how can the memory of death be accurate? She wants to rearrange and summarize what is not allowed, and write it as a day, not a day. I said it was unnecessary, and the accuracy of the date was not the focus of the diary value. Instead, I suggested that she add a "quote" at the beginning and a "tail" at the end to improve the structure and make a booklet. Frankly speaking, it is worth publishing, but we mortals, publishing is thankless. I think of Zhou's Notes on Niu Niu, which said that his child was diagnosed as terminally ill at birth and would not live long. Notes record the process of children from birth to death, comparable to Xin Wei, but I think the patient's own writing is more valuable, which is not available to any great writer.
Since we should cherish life, we might as well tell others about ourselves. She joined the church, so to speak, her parishioners; She also joined a club, which can be said to be a book club. Nowadays, people need chicken soup for the soul. Some of them share their own success and glory. I don't think it is superior enough. We are ordinary. We should convey our own suffering and the spirit of still fighting it. This is what she is doing. If we are lucky, we will consider publishing it later.
Her mentality is not what the outside world says. I said I just want to live a full life, with no regrets. Think about it, if you are going to share it, it will exercise your eloquence and match your posture, which is good for your health recovery. People can also move well with the blood flowing forward. Maybe their brains will spread in all directions, and the blood tumor accumulated before will slowly spread. How wonderful people's will is, this is not a comfort, it is true.
She listened intently, maybe I spoke too fast for her to follow. There are many interruptions between his lovers, always Doby Xin Wei. It is said that she has been teasing and making her laugh for the past two years. The doctor said that this is good for the patient. Xin Wei giggled, some of them were not jokes, but her husband's playful complaints, saying, "The most unfortunate thing is that I married you!" " "There is not a day on my weekend when I can have a comfortable sleep!" Her husband's chubby square face was blown into a round face by meat. His voice is always high, with a smile on his face, and he never falls down. It's amazing that I can hear happiness when I say these words. I laughed too.
When the food is served, you can eat whatever you want. Originally, I had an extra meal for the whole family. Fortunately, I have lost weight recently and tasted it. All the above words were said at the dinner table. Xin Wei was afraid that I was not enough, so she opened a canned stewed peanut for me. She ate very little by herself and said that she could not move all the time. Although she has a good appetite, she dare not eat. If she eats fat, it will block the blood vessels.
When we left, we took a photo. See below:
Xin Wei wants to meet my lover. She remembers my lover. Be sure to let me take a message. I asked her if she could write down your story and tell it to others. I don't know many people, just a few close friends and book friends, and a rotten pen. This is the only thing I can do. She agreed. This is the same as her original intention of keeping a diary. What she wants to stay, staying on paper is eternity.
Best wishes for reunion!
Shi Liu Liang
2022.02. 10