A letter to her online boyfriend.
Dear:
When one day at a certain time, the sunshine in March in spring stung my eyes, I realized that we had been apart for a year. Maybe this is ambiguous? Honey. This is the saddest voice since I met you. After crossing the long distance of the region and the virtual time and space of the network, it finally reaches your eyes in the form of words. I wonder, what kind of mood and expression will you use to explore it and stare at it? Is it sneering at reading and dismissing it? Or did you tear up and destroy the body in a panic? Or take a quick look and then occasionally recall the past in the dead of night? I think, no matter what the result is, I will face it with a smile, just like when you turned away decisively. In this quiet afternoon, I randomly found a tea bar and tried to digest boring and lonely memories here. I just sat down and dropped the delicate glass and broke it. I watched it disappear in an instant, but there was nothing I could do. Just like I did to you. The waitress politely gave me a number and asked me to pay. Obviously, it's not worth the price. But I still smiled and handed her the money, feeling that I was paying for our broken love.
The waitress walked away with the money and gave me another cup of tea. In my heart, I suddenly feel that love is as fragile as glass, and it is crystal clear when it exists; It's too broken. Then my thoughts flowed and I found that there were actually many decisions, all related to the state of mind at that time, but at the beginning, we didn't understand them. Otherwise, at this time, will we have crossed the geographical boundaries and persuaded our families to live a happy life from now on, like the prince and princess in fairy tales? Unfortunately, imagination is useless. At that time, we didn't know how to cherish and forgive, and we didn't have mature minds and firm beliefs. Perhaps, we don't love each other enough, we can't fight the pressure of reality, and we can't afford an endless future. Still grateful. Thank you for letting me know you through the internet. Even if we have never met, we have never had the hugs and kisses that lovers should have. In the eyes of others, our feelings are just a perverse and insignificant relationship. But I still stubbornly believe that you are the love of my life. I broke up with my fiance in order to love you. Because being single-minded about love is my principle. I can't stand loving two people at the same time. Until I have nothing, I still don't regret my decision that day.
Everyone thinks I'm crazy and hopeless. It's terrible. Just like an old love story, your love with me is always too short. Although we can't really meet through the internet, voice and video mysteriously grow our lovesickness. That month, I ran home after the night shift, just to hear your voice earlier. Your voice is like poison, which makes me addicted, but I am too stubborn to quit. Connect the phone and hear you call me sweetly. Wife? My fatigue has flown to the outside of the cloud nine. You told me to go to bed, but I stubbornly refused. It wasn't until you came home from the night shift and then took a nap that I reluctantly got off the line. Every day, I sleep less than 5 hours. Colleagues saw that my face was as green as a ghost and asked me what was wrong. And I smirked and told them? I'm in love? Show them the photos you sent me. When they learned that this was just a long-distance relationship and that you were five years younger than me, everyone was trying to convince me. ? Wait to be cheated. ? They said. But I'd rather sink. Like a leaf falling in the wind, dancing happily, but ignoring the ending, it was just stepped into the mud. I often go to small shops to carefully select gifts for you, and then express them to you. Watches, bracelets, rings, even a set of thermal underwear? I hope my boyfriend is the most handsome boy in the world. You told me that someone said that the watch you were wearing was fashionable and asked where you bought it. My buddy says your bracelet is cool, and he likes it very much. The boss said that you have become more and more handsome recently? Do you ask me if people in love will look particularly handsome? I smiled sweetly, like a heartless fool.
That day, you said, honey, shall we exchange rings? Silver, please. ? So, I carefully selected one and sent it to you. When you received it, you said it was inappropriate to bring it. I'm depressed. And the one you gave me, it happens to be on the ring finger. 925 sterling silver with a small diamond on it. I will wear it with a smile every day. When I carry a heavy box to work, I will pitifully take it off and hide it in my trouser pocket. When I have nothing to do, I often raise my hand and admire this ring in the sun. It is so clear, so deep. Looking inside, I seem to see our future. The relationship between you and me is growing day by day, and it has developed to the point where we have to talk on the phone every day besides surfing the Internet. It is a luxury to make long-distance calls with mobile phones.
You always set the time, and I'll call you. The telephone bill is 1200. But I seem to be under a spell, and I don't care if the phone bill flows away like running water. Everyone said I was poisoned. I continue to dream that you are the only thrill I have been looking for. However, why do beautiful dreams always turn into bubbles quickly? Once, I was sick and a little scared, so I called you and wanted you to give me some comfort. The phone rang for a long time, but you didn't answer it. Dial again, but there is still no answer. I was a little angry and kept dialing in a rage. But this time, you hung up. ? Pop music? 1, my heart fell to the bottom. I stayed for a long time and my tears fell down in disappointment. You never called.
I didn't hear from you until evening; ? Honey, why aren't you online? I am waiting for you. ? I said I was sick and miserable, and asked you why you hung up on me during the day. You said airily:? Oh, I'm with my buddy, so I can't answer it. ? I asked you if you regarded me as your girlfriend. You said:? Sure, but I also want to have my own space, and I can't be with you anytime and anywhere. ? It's this excuse that makes me feel like you pushed me away. For you, I even intend to give up everything in the big city, my broken home, all my friends and stay with you in the small town for a lifetime.
The idea at that time was naive and romantic. What comes to mind is a picture of me in the vast desert, with long hair fluttering and a white suit, accompanying the knight with cold eyes but hot heart. However, this dream woke up too early and too fast. You are getting colder and colder to me every day. No phone calls, no text messages, and even you rarely meet online. If you don't tell me, I won't ask. In just a few days, I found myself tired of this sense of insecurity and belonging, and I couldn't see the future. I began to hate myself. Finally, one day, you said you wanted to separate. You said you didn't know how to face the future, so it was too tiring to live. I smiled and said? Okay？ Too bad you can't see it. I click on my blog, will it be at the top? Yu, I want the whole world to know that I love you? Delete it. This sentence, which touched many people, has no meaning now. I hacked your QQ, quit your QQ group and deleted your mobile phone number. I want to erase all my memories of you. I looked at the monitor and suddenly burst into tears. Is it only your fate to forget the Jianghu? I can't figure it out. My sky suddenly burst into large dark clouds tragically and enchanting. I never knew I was so fragile. My heart seems to have been pulled out of my body, and it is pale and weak with pain, as if there is only one hole left. It's better during the day, but every time I come at night, I cry until I twitch. I wrapped myself tightly in the quilt, biting the back of my hand, and my heart ached. Tears are wet and dry, dry and wet. I remember you asked me: How much do you care about me? Without me, has the earth stopped turning? I laugh at your narcissism. But I found that every time I think of this sentence, my tears will flow faster and faster. In those days, at work, I was listless and forced to smile; When I got home, I looked through more than 5000 pages of chat records between you and me. I cried and smiled. I don't know where my tomorrow is and what else is in my world. I have been pouring out my thoughts about you in my blog.
Many people look at this writing with indifference or enthusiasm that can kill people. I'm sure you will see it one day. The humiliation and unwillingness in my heart lingered for a long time in the thought of whether to retaliate against you. Finally, you replied. You spent a long time expressing what I think is sincere: Dear, you should take good care of yourself in the days without me, do you hear? Honey, you have to eat well, do you hear me? Dear, don't be greedy for cold. You always like to eat ice cream, which is not good for your health, do you hear? Honey, you must be careful when riding a bike. Watch the road, you hear me? Honey, remember to put on more clothes when it's cold, do you hear me? Honey, don't forget to take your medicine when you have a stomachache, do you hear me? Honey, be good, listen to every word, and your eyes are blurred. If you love me so much, why do you want to separate? Can the pressure of reality really easily break the previous oath? My love is gone. It's just that everything is worth it. Even if I had to start all over again, I would choose this way. Then, I was relieved. Later, I also received the news you missed. But those thoughts and feelings have faded in the polishing of time. I admit that I am a cold person, and I turn around gracefully and proudly. Before long, I was quiet. I won't hate you. Never. Besides, you will always be my favorite person in my life. Honey, did you hear that?
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Letter to online boyfriend Part II
Dear Brother Hua:
Well, I miss you so much without you.
It has been like this for months. I really dare not think about how to spend these months. It was cruel of you to leave me alone. I also know that men want a career, and I don't want to delay your career because of the affection of children, but I miss you so much.
After giving me the information yesterday, I found that I still miss you more. Looking at our chat records, I still miss you.
Yesterday, you asked me if I wanted to go home. I don't care. It seems that it has nothing to do with me. You know, I'm not good at lying. If you ask me the same question today, I hope you will go back. I really want to see you.
Yesterday, it was very kind of you to drive for over an hour just to give me information. I'm really touched. I feel your sincerity, which is more precious than receiving any gift. You asked me if I wanted to go home. I said forget it. Driving is hard, so is chatting with me. You may think I don't miss you. Don't misunderstand me. I'm just used to chatting with you by SMS, and I'm a little unaccustomed to chatting with qq, so you didn't reply. I laugh at you. I went home to see my wife, right? You said, bad guy, I went home to miss you and my son. You didn't want to, and I didn't go home.
Brother Hua, thank you. Thank you for always thinking about me and caring about me. I usually say hello, so I don't feel it. Today, I really want to say, Brother Hua, you are really good. I love you. Don't be afraid. I didn't miss you. I miss you every moment of every day. These two days, I dreamed about you in my dream.
Brother Hua, take care there. Much more leisurely than usual. Then you can have a good rest and watch you socialize and drink so much wine every day. Short messages are sometimes unclear. You are haggard and tired in the video. Now you can have a good rest and live in seclusion. No signal, no cell phone, no one can bother you, and I can't bother you anymore. You say, don't say I really want to, the land here is so cheap, build a few rooms and live in rotten eggs.
Brother Hua, I miss you so much. May you be happy every day.
People who miss you
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A Letter to an Online Boyfriend (Part III)
Allen:
The child is asleep, and I feel particularly good tonight, which may be the reason for having enough rest in the afternoon. I really want to share this good mood with you! Ha ha! You have to work hard! Fight for your future! Do you think I'm boring? Ha ha!
Quietly listening to music, watching web pages, and watching famous paintings about children's character cultivation in the world, you will think of the woman who made you so moved and so heartbroken. I don't know what kind of woman, temperament, personality and hobbies she is. I am curious. How can you say that she raised you to be what you are today? Is it really her fault? Or is it in your nature? From the article you sent me, I was deeply moved by your infatuation. I hope I can help you get rid of your sadness and comfort you! Maybe you will think that I am too nosy! If you can't manage yourself well, you have to manage others! :P
You are a very nice person, really! I know you better and better, and I like your personality more and more! Your hobby makes me admire you very much! Ha ha! This may be fate, knowing you really makes me very happy! I have never regarded my net friend as the real me before, but now I am really surprised to meet you and make friends with you. Now that I think about it, it's really amazing!
To tell the truth: in fact, my husband and I have a very good and deep relationship. My husband and I have been in love since we were just adults, and we have not suffered any emotional trauma. You can definitely feel it! My husband and I have experienced almost ten years of ups and downs, and our marriage is not just a simple concept of cohabitation! Experienced the great integration and recognition of two big families, and experienced the difficult running-in of two completely different people from all aspects. In our poorest time, the most painful time, the sweetest time and the greatest moment (when having a baby), we all * * * tide over the difficulties together and * * * enjoy happiness. Can be said to be an old couple who have gone through hardships and shared weal and woe! I gave him the best time of my life in these ten years! Almost all the firsts in life belong to him! Because he is a person with excellent personality, knowledge and personality, and he is the most suitable person for me! He left a permanent mark on my mind and body. He is the one I should follow all my life! No matter how intoxicating the scenery and temptation outside, I can't shake my heart and responsibility to him and this family! Love has been transformed into a more stable family relationship! Although I am a sensitive and fragile woman, I believe in my personality and character, and I will always stick to my principles. No matter how many times I have been lost before, no one can be wrong all my life! After all, I have never taken an evil step!
I can talk to you so deeply, in the final analysis, it stems from his betrayal on the internet. I made a further analysis of my behavior. In fact, my husband has been cheating for two years, and I am still worried about his out-of-line things on the Internet, which just shows that my love for him is very deep and has never changed! Out of revenge and jealousy, I released my desire to be with you in virtual space. My husband's tolerance and generosity made me see his extraordinary Excellence!
Now tell me again why I don't feel guilty about doing these things. Because being with you is always illusory and nonexistent, and you don't have to bear any responsibility! On second thought, you are right. I have been infatuated with you for some time, and I can't give up everything I have now! No desire to change my life now! I am loyal to my husband, both physically and psychologically! This is the real reason why I don't have a trace of guilt! Because I'm not really sorry for my husband! That's why my husband doesn't care about you
You gave me a chance to try other men! You gave me a true love! You have realized my dream for many years! You let me know my value! You gave me a fresh feeling! It is also you who helped me attract my husband's attention and concern! I would like to express my deep thanks and apologies to you!
I know what I said will make you feel very uncomfortable. But I think you can correctly understand my heart! I'm calm now! I still hope to be your lifelong online confidant! This life is the same! Now our relationship can continue until the day you don't want to continue! But I think I will know my heart better! It is most important to know your own position!
If you want to fall in love, you must go to reality and find a good girl to talk seriously! You can't kill a good woman online! Have you ever thought about it? You might as well talk to me as talk to others! Either you live a good life and fall in love seriously in real life! Feel free to provoke, what's the use of hooking up three and building four? It's still empty at last! It is better to cherish life, cherish time, and spend these time on meaningful things! I already have everything, you know? I'm nothing like you! I have a complete family, a husband, children and a career I love (although it has not improved for the time being), but these are already very stable! Tell me about you! What do you have? Have a wife! There is no need to have children! No career you love! Do you want a successful experience? Incompetence! Immature! Do not work hard, reflect on yourself! Wandering online all day, what do you want from the Internet? Are you looking for a wife and children online? Do you think it is realistic? Even how small the probability is! ! In the end, online dating only became a few couples. You'd better find a matchmaking agency early! ! ! ! ! Sister, I just can't stand you wasting your time on QQ! You are such a silly goose! It makes me jealous to find a beautiful and virtuous girl! Work hard if you can, do what you like and do great things, which makes me envy to death! People with more ability do everything better than me, and you do everything better than me!
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Letter to online boyfriend 4
Good morning, brother,
Piggy gets up at five in the morning to watch? Tokyo love story? Seeing the strong and optimistic red name Li Xiang inside, I thought of myself and was moved to tears.
The story is about a girl who falls in love with her male colleague. The man is very kind and kind-hearted, but he already has a lover in his heart. In this case, this kind and optimistic girl is still optimistic and confident to associate with this boy, trying her best to make him happy, pretending to be sunny every day, and living a strong and happy life even if she knows which man has the first girl in his heart!
I thought of myself. In fact, my brother didn't particularly like me at first, but just wanted to find a suitable partner and live a normal life. Maybe my brother's heart was given to someone else. So it was not very good for me at first. I was sad, cried and went crazy like a little madman to vent my dissatisfaction. When Li Xiang, the red name in the film, said to the man? I know you will like me! ? I can't stop crying because I once said something similar to my brother. I also told my brother? I will definitely let my brother look at me with that kind of loving eyes from the heart! ? Along the way, only you know the hardships. Because he didn't love me enough, because he didn't fall in love with me at once, his brother wouldn't care too much about my feelings, and he wouldn't take good care of me. So when we first started dating, my brother would dance and watch me get on the bus. He would say that he would let me go home alone in order not to waste time when I came back from a business trip, and he would still take part in outdoor sports when I had eye surgery and went on a business trip the next day. . . When I was in contact with my brother, I don't know how many tears the pig shed, especially when I was alone at night, and even woke up from my dream several times, and my pillow was wet. Whenever this happens, I will cheer myself up and say: Come on, my brother will love me very much! Maybe everyone's heart is meat, maybe my brother is kind. Slowly, my brother began to pay attention to the feelings of pigs and began to hurt them. When he got off the subway, he began to protect pigs. He began to call pigs every night to put them to sleep. When it was cold, he began to remind pigs to wear more clothes. He began to remember to bring gifts to pigs when he was on a business trip, and began to buy delicious food for pigs, although most of them could not help eating first. I began to know that when I ate, I gave it to the pig. Although I eat delicious food faster than anyone else, I often eat what pigs like. But piggy knew that his brother's heart was getting closer and closer to piggy, and piggy saw the result of his own efforts. Because I didn't love pigs enough, and because I couldn't find a suitable job in Nanjing, my brother resolutely came to Shanghai, even though 110 thousand pigs didn't like it. But under the pressure of my parents and people around me, I still rush between Nanjing and Shanghai. Even if my brother says that pig's contribution is not worth mentioning, it is only a small contribution. After crying, the pig persisted and looked for a job in Shanghai. Everyone says that piggy is so stupid. My brother has no money, my parents have no labor insurance, and there are two brothers at home. My brother's family doesn't care about piggy, and may even dislike a daughter-in-law who is not practical enough. And my brother's family also has a good second sister-in-law who earns a lot of money. The family will compare her to a cute but impractical pig. Moreover, my brother is also very filial. Once my brother's family doesn't like pigs and says pigs are bad, my brother will definitely stand by and watch his family. The pig hesitated and was afraid, but still didn't flinch. Because piggy firmly believes that being kind and lovely will be accepted by others as long as you work hard. Most importantly, the pig can see that his weight in his brother's heart is increasing day by day. Although it is far from my brother's true love, piggy can see hope in a far place. So when my brother was in the street, he shouted loudly, saying that piggy can't do housework, and he will never be as good as yisow, and he will never change. Piggy endured tears and embarrassment and told her brother that I would change. Every time she came to Shanghai by train, she began to cook for her brother. So when my brother was blamed by the pig for eating the pig's chocolate on Huangshan Mountain and left the pig with a fever to go down the mountain, he still cried and followed his brother. So when my brother yelled at the pig in the subway because he didn't have any money with him, the pig endured the injustice and said it was his fault. So when my brother thought that Piggy wanted to occupy his brother's property, cheat his brother's money and propose to break up with Piggy, Piggy called his brother to keep his love that had already proposed to break up.
Little pig never thought that he would endure so many grievances for a man. Hehe, piggy is a charming baby after all. However, piggy is not my brother's favorite person after all. In fact, it was not from the beginning, but piggy's unilateral wishful thinking that forced his brother to say he loved piggy. So when my brother said to the pig, let's get a marriage license, the pig was scared. Although I asked myself how much I wanted to live with my brother. But the pig is so scared, because my brother doesn't love the pig wholeheartedly. Maybe he is just used to having such a naughty pig around him, and there may be no better choice, but not loving wholeheartedly means that he won't pay wholeheartedly, so he will leave the pig with a fever in Huangshan, write his name on the real estate license and break up with the pig, then he will say that he will get a marriage certificate, and he will work hard in Nanjing and Shanghai and ignore the pig's contribution.
I have been thinking that my brother will not give his heart to the pig, because of his character. In fact, pigs are deceiving themselves. It's not that he won't give everything, but that he doesn't love enough and doesn't love deeply enough. No matter what the future road is like, no matter whether I can be with my brother in the end, the pig will not regret it, because after all, I have paid and worked hard. Despite tears and hardships, pigs are still growing. After all, I loved it, and that's enough.
Letter to online boyfriend 5
Dear Mingjun:
Today is the day we have known each other for a whole month. You added me to the internet on the 20th of a month ago. I made a request to you online that seemed barren at that time, and you promised me. Today, however, we have turned that Huang Tang's request into reality. Although none of us know what our future will be like, a month has changed us a lot.
Let's love each other from the strangeness at the beginning. Although I did all this on my own initiative, I firmly believe that everything you said to me was true, and you really fell in love with me. I won't let you regret the decision you made today to love me. I will try my best to make you like me and fall in love with me, and have no regrets.
I will try my best to be a lover who makes you satisfied. Starting today, our life is brand-new. I hope you can treat me as your lover from your heart. You can tell me what I did wrong or what you are not satisfied with. I will try my best to make you satisfied and happy. Tell me what you want from me. If I can do what you want, I will do as you say and give you an obedient and sensible me.
Although our love can only be transmitted by telephone, SMS and email, I believe that as long as we really love each other, the distance of space is not an obstacle to our love, because our hearts are together.
No matter how much we love each other, I will never regret falling in love with you. I also hope you love me as much as I think, and don't regret it. As you said, we don't care about each other's past, because it can't be changed. We care more about each other's future because we can work hard for the future. Can be controlled; Can create together.
No matter whether you can accept me in real life or not, I hope you won't regret today's decision. There is nothing wrong with love, but we didn't grasp it well and met the wrong person at the wrong time. I really love you. This love is like the rising sun every day. You may not see it every day, but it actually rises from the horizon every day.
My love for you is clean and pure, simple and direct. I hope we can go on happily until the day when we no longer love each other. I believe that by then, we will all walk away silently for each other's happiness, without complaining, and making each other happy is the true meaning of love. If there is such a day, I think we will be friends for life.