First of all, I strongly suggest that you seek professional mental health support. Face-to-face conversation with a counselor or psychologist can provide the support and guidance you need. They can help you explore your emotional troubles and family problems and help you find positive coping strategies.
In addition, here are some suggestions to deal with your current predicament:
1. Find a safe emotional outlet: When you feel angry, depressed or stressed, find a safe way to express your feelings, such as keeping a diary, drawing, exercising or sharing with trusted friends. This can help you reduce negative emotions and provide a positive way to release them.
2. Seek social support: Share your feelings and troubles with people you trust, such as friends, family or other support systems. Someone is willing to listen to your questions and provide support and understanding.
3. Learn emotional management skills: Seeking to learn emotional management skills and strategies can help you better control and deal with anger, stress and impulsiveness. Deep breathing, meditation, exercise and seeking professional guidance are all effective methods.
4. Adjust the family atmosphere: Although you can't directly change the behavior of family members, you can adjust the family atmosphere by positive communication and trying to change your reaction. Strive to find opportunities for compromise, learn to communicate effectively with family members, and seek to establish a healthier and more respectful way of interaction.
Most importantly, you are not selfish, and your feelings are as important as your needs. Don't bear this burden alone, please seek professional help and support from people around you. Your life is valuable, and some people are willing to listen and help you through this difficult period.