No one knows I love you (1)
When he went to his house, Xiaowan never knocked at the door, and went straight through the living room to find him in the study. Not Xiaowan has a key, but his door is always wide open in the air. At that time, Xiaowan was carrying a violin, like a wheat seedling in spring, walking through a long red building, passing through a bookshelf forest, standing behind him and calling softly: Teacher Chen.
Without looking back, he narrowed his eyes in the sunset and listened to Xiao Wan playing the piano. Xiaowan's heart hung up. His eyes are like sharp weapons, splashing.
In fact, he never scolded Xiaowan, but Xiaowan was afraid of him and never dared to look him in the eye.
He said that many times, playing the piano is not with your hands, but with your heart. Xiaowan listened quietly.
He has a thin porcelain teapot with thin patterns. When Xiaowan came, osmanthus was soaked in it. There is a big osmanthus tree outside his balcony, which smells fragrant in autumn.
Mei Sheng always comes when Xiaowan is learning the piano. A beautiful woman is Chen's girlfriend. Three years ago, Chen's wife went to Japan and sent back a divorce agreement.
Xiaowan's mother was unhappy because she paid for Chen for two hours, which should be used exclusively by Xiaowan.
But these, Xiao Wan doesn't mind. What she cares about is that Mei Sheng often stands behind her and listens to her play the piano. Occasionally, she giggled and said something in Chen's ear. Chen has been pulling her without saying a word and went to the living room.
Manager Chen said that Xiaowan is not cut out to play the piano, and even playing the piano can be out of tune. How would he know? It's Xiao Wan's heart.
That year, Chen was 35 years old and Xiaowan 18 years old.
The following autumn, Xiaowan was admitted to Shanghai Theatre Academy. When I went to say goodbye to him, I saw that the door was locked and there was a thin layer of dust in the keyhole, as if he had been away from home for a long time. Xiaowan stared blankly for a long time, and the leaves blown by the wind brushed her legs. There is something, small, that jumps in my heart and hurts slightly, such as acupuncture.
No one knows I love you (2)
It is very cold in autumn in Shanghai. Xiaowan often lies on the windowsill of his bedroom, missing a balcony with a small courtyard. In the small yard, there is a round and tall osmanthus tree. When the autumn wind comes, the fragrance permeates the courtyard.
At the thought of this, a collusion has dialed his number up and down many times on the phone, and no one wants to dial it all. The panic in her heart always lets her know that those fears about Chen are actually love.
If you love deeply, you will be afraid. Fear for no reason, I don't know why, I didn't escape.
When thinking about him, Xiaowan wandered around the huge Shanghai city. She doesn't know what she is looking for, just like a dust floating in the wind, flying and flying, unable to find a quiet sunshine to rest.
In late autumn, the smell of an old road in Jing 'an District made her cry. The breath came from the shops in the street, and then she saw a few golden words on the facade-Osmanthus Jelly.
That day, she sat on a table by the window, with some warm Osmanthus Jelly in front of her. Later, Xiaowan took a part-time job in Osmanthus Jelly. In fact, she doesn't care about making money. She thought, when she returned from the winter vacation, she would go to Chen and make one for him.
When I think of Chen, Xiao Wan's mind will flash with a beautiful look, vaguely hating her, hoping that she will leave Chen, and then her love will be fulfilled.
When there are no guests, Xiaowan leans against the door of Osmanthus Jelly's shop workshop. When Xiao Wan was standing in the sunshine of the shop, Jiang Mumu appeared. He said, are you new here? Xiaowan said yes.
Then, one is talking intentionally, and the other is talking unintentionally. Later, Jiang Mumu said that young people nowadays seldom like to eat Osmanthus Jelly. They prefer fast food from KFC and McDonald's. Parents are not making money, but being happy.
Xiaowan knows that he is the son of the owner, a sunny man, who looks clean and tall. During the day, wearing a shirt and tie, he is an elite figure in the office building. At night, he races, and he is obsessed with the sound of the wind passing in his ear. He has four scars on his leg, which are souvenirs left by racing cars. Later, Xiaowan saw the scar on Chen's leg and thought of him. He is her scar, in my heart.
It was the following spring.
Small wan finally from mywood mouth, know the formula of Osmanthus Jelly. When his parents went to the countryside for a holiday, Jiang Mumu secretly opened the door of the workshop and let Xiaowan squander raw materials. The winter in Shanghai is very cold, the wind is running outside the window, and Xiaowan's nose is sweating slightly with happiness. Mumu was dumbfounded, his arm circled, and Osmanthus Jelly in Xiaowan's hand fell to the ground. She looked up in horror and dared not look back. Jiang Mumu's lips gently clicked on her hair and let go.
Xiaowan's heart is warm, and a little touch slips through her heart, knowing that Jiang Mumu likes herself, from the moment we met.
No one knows I love you (3)
She finally found an excuse to call Chen and told him that osmanthus can make fragrant and beautiful cakes. As soon as the phone rang, Chen answered it. Xiaowan was suddenly speechless. She hesitated and whispered her name. Fortunately, Chen didn't see his embarrassment through the telephone line. He said slowly, Xiao Wan, what's the matter?
Xiaowan tried to make his voice sound calm: Oh, you know what? Osmanthus Jelly can also make sweet-scented osmanthus, which smells good. ...
I knew it was tacky to be Osmanthus Jelly, Chen said with a smile.
Xiaowan's heart thumped and he fell to the ground in pain. Over there, it seems to be there. I can vaguely hear her calling Chen. Small wan inside story to buckle the phone.
In the evening, Jiang Mumu always drives his motorcycle downstairs to Xiaowan's dormitory, waiting for her with one leg on the ground. He always asks, Xiao Wan, why don't you go to the store?
Xiaowan said: What's the point of learning to be Osmanthus Jelly? Nobody likes it now. Jiang Mumu said I love.
In the evening, Xiaowan couldn't help dialing Chen's phone, even though all she heard was a lonely bell. Many times, Chen is there, as if he has been on the phone. After receiving the line, Xiaowan desperately recalled what he had just said, which was vague and could not find the theme. He only remembers that his voice was warm, like the winter sunshine shining in front of the windless wall.
Forced by Jiang Mumu's questioning, Xiaowan said that she loved someone else, but she couldn't answer who it was. She can't say that she is addicted to unrequited love, can she?
Jiang Mumu thinks this is an excuse for Xiaowan to escape from himself: But you are always alone.
Xiaowan sat in the back seat of a motorcycle, two people side by side, no one spoke, and the wind slowly passed. Xiaowan said, I want to go back to work in the store.
Jiang Mumu jumped up and said yes, I will tell my parents later.
Xiaowan's heart was already in tears. This job is really about making money. She needs money because she wants to make a long-distance call to Chen every night.
No one knows I love you (4)
Xiaowan couldn't help asking Chen, what's going on now? Chen leng for a long time, said it's been a long time. She went to Beijing. Xiaowan agreed ... The next day, Xiaowan gave everything and flew back to Qingdao.
Chen's door is locked. She sat down against the door, and the spring sunshine crawled lazily on her face. Soon, the hardships of the journey made her fall asleep with a happy smile on her lips. When I opened my eyes, I saw Chen Zheng bending over and admiring her sleeping position. Xiaowan blushed and was about to stand up when he was gently picked up: You will catch cold if you sleep here.
On the soft sofa, Chen stood side by side with her. As long as her head tilts, she will go up reliably. She resisted this desire and said, "I came to see you before I went to Shanghai, but you weren't there."
"I went out for fun. I think I've been on the run I am afraid of getting married. " Chen said airily.
Small wan stupefied zheng big eyes, knowing that Kerwin Chen is a man who has experienced many vicissitudes of life, how could he not understand his mind? Once a woman falls in love, she surrenders unconditionally and is willing to find 10 thousand strong reasons for not starting love. "Next year, I will graduate." Xiaowan looked forward to it, and softness enveloped him. She is waiting for a word from Chen, even if there is a hint, it is difficult for her to come to him.
Chen paused: "Really? In fact, Shanghai is a good city and you can consider staying. "
Xiaowan's heart sank slightly. She said, "There is no one in Shanghai who I want to stay."
Chen threw down his face and stood up and quipped, "I forgot to make tea for you." Haven't you been in love with someone for more than three years? "
Xiao Wan waited for a while and looked at Chen calmly. Does he think that he came all the way back just to hear him say that he is afraid of getting married and report his love story in Shanghai?
It turned out that he had never loved, and tears of despair fell heavily on Xiaowan's heart. Later, there were few words, and each of them held a cup of tea and sat in the early hours of the morning. Osmanthus fragrans in the cup is as lonely as air.
Back to Shanghai, there were no tears all the way, and my heart was rotten.
No one knows I love you (5)
The girl in my roommate said, "Where have you been? You don't ask for leave. Jiang Mumu is crazy to find you. " Xiao Wan said indifferently, didn't he?
After drinking a glass of water, I called Jiang Mumu: "I'm back."
After a while, the roar of motorcycles rang out from the dormitory downstairs. Panting, Jiang Mumu ran over, took her in his arms and said, "Bad guy, where have you been?" Scared me to death. "
Xiaowan took Jiang Mumu downstairs, walked for a long time, stopped and whispered, "Jiang Mumu, do you love me?"
Then, Xiaowan became Jiang Mumu's girlfriend, and it was warm and calm during that time. Occasionally, she will think of Chen. There is no face in her memory, only a pot of transparent osmanthus tea.
In fact, Chen once called Xiaowan and answered it with a girl in the dormitory, saying Xiaowan and her boyfriend had gone to the streets.
Chen said thank you, but didn't say who he was.
Actually, Chen wanted to ask Xiao Wan, why didn't you answer me that day?
Now, there is no need to ask. If you love her, let her be less hurt. The vacillation of love is a painful thing.
Xiaowan will never know that Chen and he separated, just to be well, waiting for the arrival of love. In front of Xiaowan, he felt that he was so old, and her failed marriage and prosperity were all seen in her clean eyes, which made him feel a little inferior and afraid to speak out.