1
During the Spring Festival, my best friend Xiaojie and I made an appointment to meet at a coffee shop on the corner.
Xiaojie solemnly told me that she resigned and was going to Shenzhen. I kept stirring the liquid in the cup with a spoon. "Well done, what's the matter?"
After graduating from college, Xiaojie obeyed his parents' wishes and became a teacher in a county near his home. Day after day, campus life gradually smoothed out Xiaojie's dream and passion. I don't know how many nights she tossed and turned, but I know that now, like a free bird trapped in a cage, she can finally spread her wings and fly high, like a butterfly emerging from its cocoon, shining.
I can't help asking Xiaojie, "If you go to Shenzhen, why not here?" In my impression, Shenzhen is a bustling metropolis. Some factors, such as high prices, fast pace of life and great pressure on survival, are all unknown obstacles on the way forward.
But when she woke up, she seemed to find herself in college. I will always remember the words she advised me: looking back on the first half of my life, life was calm, obviously it was a stagnant pool, but I should comfort myself that it was calm; Unconsciously, I wasted my years in mediocrity and comforted myself that it was ordinary and valuable.
2
In the chat with Xiaojie, I suddenly mentioned the name "Juanzi".
In college, we were very close friends. At that time, I was particularly envious of Juanzi's mentality, calm and indifferent.
When I was in Grade Four or Six, my roommates were busy reviewing, and she was the only one lying in bed watching the drama. Of course, the fourth level has not yet passed, but Juanzi is particularly open-minded. "The big deal is to take the exam next time!" But until the third year of high school, she never passed Grade 4.
I once "encouraged" Juanzi to take more exams, but she refused because "more exams are useless". After many times, I won't discuss the pursuit of goals with her.
During the whole university period, she didn't participate in mass organizations, and she didn't expect to be among the best. She just wanted to get a diploma and get a job, so she was comfortable all her life.
Juanzi always said that he was an ordinary person, and he didn't want to be rich or expensive. He just wanted to be foolproof.
Later, after graduation, her resume for her favorite company sank into the sea, and soon she was disheartened and returned to her hometown.
I also learned about the recent situation in Juanzi from a few words. She lives a nine-to-five life in a small county, full of acquaintances and carefree self. I eat, dress and live in my parents' house on my salary. Less than a year's work, I was introduced to get married. I've seen that man, and he's quite reliable. His parents have bought a house and a car, so don't worry. Later, the two of them got married and had children, and Juanzi became a full-time mother as she wished.
At first glance, there is nothing wrong with life in Juanzi. There is no need to squeeze the bus and subway to and from work, no need to face a pile of documents, no need to face the endless urge to get married. ...
However, we ignore the calm on the surface and can't cover up the inner turmoil.
three
Before Xiaojie went to Shenzhen, the three of us made an appointment to get together.
After walking some distance, I saw a woman coming to us with her child in her arms, wearing loose clothes and her hair was messy. She waved when she saw us. There is no doubt that it is Juanzi. She pulled out a chair and sat next to me. The child in her arms began to cry, and Juanzi gently coaxed him. ...
"How have you been recently?" It was not until the child was quiet that I broke the embarrassment I had not seen for a long time.
"Don't mention it! I am bored to death. " Facts have proved that life in Juanzi is not as safe as we thought.
When she became a full-time mother, Juanzi had to take care of her children and husband, so she had to do a lot of housework. She complained about the triviality of life and criticized her husband for not making progress.
In Juanzi's description, I seem to catch a glimpse of this woman's aging appearance and soul. Life is not satisfactory, but she can't live without her children, her husband and a small county. She is unarmed and can't fight alone, let alone go forward bravely.
Juanzi ignored Xiaojie's resignation and thought it was unrealistic to pursue his so-called dream. Xiaojie doesn't agree with Juanzi's housewife life. Two people from the past have nothing to say, now have nothing to say.
The only thing that hasn't changed is that Juanzi is still the Juanzi who talks about "playing it safe".
four
We are like "boiled frogs in warm water". If we stay in the ordinary world for a long time, we will be unable to struggle. Just like in the movie "Sunshine Sisters Amoy", the girl who was regarded as a treasure by her family since childhood was rubbed by her husband's family when she grew up; The girl who aspired to be Miss Korea and was loved by thousands of people later separated from her mother and daughter. Their fate is finally touching. Why did all their rhetoric fall silent? We can't rule out fate, but we can't deny our will.
In addition to material needs, there is nothing else, taking real life as the upper limit of activities and imitating people around us as the standard. Fall into mediocrity and indulge in muddling along.
If this is the ordinary in Juanzi's eyes, I will try my best to create a dream for myself.
Refuse to be hammered by life, refuse to be paralyzed.
Speaking of myself, I may have some knowledge, but I have no knowledge; Maybe some talents, but no talents; There may be a diploma, but there is no level.
After several ups and downs, I suddenly realized that if I didn't try and fail, I wouldn't grow. If you do it, you may face doubts and failures, but if you don't do it, you will never know the beauty of another world.
We are all ordinary people.
Ordinary is not terrible, terrible is a lifetime of mediocrity, but also comfort yourself with ordinary and valuable.